Something Bubbling...

[Blossym]

Hi all, sorry I have not posted in a while. Life has been hectic, and it's required me to focus a large amount of my time and attention to happenings around me. But anyways...

I'm still dressing normally, my SO is encouraging (still surprises me how encouraging really), and it's a normal part of life. But something underneath is bubbling, an I feel that it will make its presence understood sooner rather than later. I've been asking myself why I do this, why it feels so appropriate. I dream as a girl more often than I do as a guy. I become so much more confident dressed, and I feel more normal really. My SO tells me I act like the girl that all girls want to be. All these things I wear with pride too - I am not ashamed of any of it. But I need to know why I do this. I can feel the answer inside, I feel it screaming but I can't hear it yet. And that is kind of scary, to be honest. What am I going to discover? What will it mean? I just don't know.

Have any of you felt anything similar? How did it turn out? Any advice or insight?

[Beverley Sims]

Blossym,
I think it gets less scary and easier as you proceed down the great highway of life.
Just enjoy where you are.

[suzanne]

I used to think I needed to know the why's and wherefores of my cross dressing. But it's too complicated and overlayed with societal misconceptions, so now I just go with the flow. When I feel girly, I dress girly. From what you have written, I would guess you have a feminine spirit, which in some cases (is, most of the people in this forum) is completely independent of birth sex. Leave it at that and have fun!

[Madeline80]

Hi Blossym
I think I know what questions you are having. Here are mine:
Am I gay? Is it gender dysphoria? Just a CD? Why do I feel so relaxed/normal when dressed? Is this leading to a transition? Will family/friends/work accept me? The list goes on...

So you wonder which box you fit in. I jumped in the one labeled "bi CD" and I am comfortable there. Remember its always easier to be accepting of others than it is to accept youself. Just let it play out and accept, it's who you are.

Nice avatar pic BTW

[Kate Simmons]

Sometimes it simply means we are in touch with ourselves and our feelings. Go with it, embrace it and cherish it and you will be happy. It's that simple really Hon. :battingeyelashes::)