mishmam32
07-03-2013, 11:56 AM
For those who have been following my little journey...this is the update. I had a talk with my wife the other night. She asked what was bothering me and I told her I was wanting to go to a support group meeting and wanted her blessing. I explained how when I told her a couple years ago that I wasn't sure she took me seriously and that I didn't really know how she felt about everything because she never really followed up with me.
She simply said, "I know you're serious, I'm not sure what to think still, and I still worry you're going to tell me you're gay in 10 years" (why 10 I have no idea). So I said well what about the support group. She says "If you want to go that's fine, I don't want to, but that's not to say I wont change my mind some day".
Once again I have made a big deal about nothing, she is so awesome and here is the kicker. While we were talking I mentioned that I had a stash of stuff. She says "Yeah, I know...I found it about a year ago" uh...HELLO! She never mentioned a thing to me until I pried it out of her. She did recon and didn't say a thing. If she found my stash, clearly she knows this is serious, yet she's cool. She said she just wanted me to understand that it was our secret, and she would never tell a soul. She said she don't understand why I do it but understands that I don't either.
I love her so much. I am truly blessed.
So my advice to those others out there that might be struggling with this: A) My results may not be typical B) You are probably more judgmental than she is C) Love really does conquer all.
So....looks like I'll be stepping out soon, now I'm really freaking nervous ;-)
She simply said, "I know you're serious, I'm not sure what to think still, and I still worry you're going to tell me you're gay in 10 years" (why 10 I have no idea). So I said well what about the support group. She says "If you want to go that's fine, I don't want to, but that's not to say I wont change my mind some day".
Once again I have made a big deal about nothing, she is so awesome and here is the kicker. While we were talking I mentioned that I had a stash of stuff. She says "Yeah, I know...I found it about a year ago" uh...HELLO! She never mentioned a thing to me until I pried it out of her. She did recon and didn't say a thing. If she found my stash, clearly she knows this is serious, yet she's cool. She said she just wanted me to understand that it was our secret, and she would never tell a soul. She said she don't understand why I do it but understands that I don't either.
I love her so much. I am truly blessed.
So my advice to those others out there that might be struggling with this: A) My results may not be typical B) You are probably more judgmental than she is C) Love really does conquer all.
So....looks like I'll be stepping out soon, now I'm really freaking nervous ;-)