LisaKarenAZ
07-08-2013, 09:37 PM
So, after over a year away, I have decided to come back to the forums.
Why the hiatus? And what triggered the return?
After a long process with the wife, I determined that it was best to salvage my marriage and family than to indulge in my extracurricular activities. I always have been, am still, and always will be a crossdresser. I can't change that. All I have done is to control the urges to dress. Although the wife tried to come to terms with this. In the end, she was unable to cross the boundary of acceptance of my dressing. There's more to this decision than I am sharing at this point, but the crux of the situation is that she has had to deal with a number of medical issues that have caused her to question her femininity. And I love her too much to just dissolve over 20 years of our relationship just because of my situation.
What triggered the return? Although I am not dressing, I still have my urges. I have finally been able to come to terms with my situation. I've finally learned that I can still embrace who I am without giving in to the urges to express myself externally to my emotions. I am at a place now where I can communicate without feeling like I will lose control to my impulses. The trigger that got me to thinking more deeply about this was a friend request my male self received on Facebook from someone that I don't know, but looks familiar. Their picture on FB is a male dressed as a woman. I originally came back to look around to see if that was someone from this site, and ended up coming to my new realizations.
Glad to be back.
Why the hiatus? And what triggered the return?
After a long process with the wife, I determined that it was best to salvage my marriage and family than to indulge in my extracurricular activities. I always have been, am still, and always will be a crossdresser. I can't change that. All I have done is to control the urges to dress. Although the wife tried to come to terms with this. In the end, she was unable to cross the boundary of acceptance of my dressing. There's more to this decision than I am sharing at this point, but the crux of the situation is that she has had to deal with a number of medical issues that have caused her to question her femininity. And I love her too much to just dissolve over 20 years of our relationship just because of my situation.
What triggered the return? Although I am not dressing, I still have my urges. I have finally been able to come to terms with my situation. I've finally learned that I can still embrace who I am without giving in to the urges to express myself externally to my emotions. I am at a place now where I can communicate without feeling like I will lose control to my impulses. The trigger that got me to thinking more deeply about this was a friend request my male self received on Facebook from someone that I don't know, but looks familiar. Their picture on FB is a male dressed as a woman. I originally came back to look around to see if that was someone from this site, and ended up coming to my new realizations.
Glad to be back.