Suzanne F
07-25-2013, 07:33 PM
Hi ladies,
I wanted to check in and share where my wife and I are now. It has been a whirlwind since I came out to her in February. I am 48 and had never told anyone. One night while talking in depth abou our sexual history it came out. I told her I sometimes wished I was a woman.
I have been seeing a therapist with and without my wife during this journey ever since. I now fully dress and have been out many times in public with my wife and have seen my therapist fully dressed. I have met other girls on this site in San Francisco with my wife. I think 5 of our friends have also been out with us when I was dressed. When I was home in April I told my mother and sister. As you can see I have been a busy girl.
It all sounds great, right! I have often shared how accepting my wife has been and how well it was going. Now I understand that is not the entire story. She has now been more open about her reservations about the issue. She is scared about how far it will go. It does bother her that her husband wants men to find Suzanne attractive. She is not happy when she thinks her husband is disappearing. I have gone too far, too fast. After all the years of hiding I just exploded and it has been hard for her. We went through a few difficult weeks. There were some angry words and tears.
However, we made progress last week. I was going to my first support group outing and my wife decided not to go. It was my first real trip into the world as Suzanne totally on my own. I found other girls like me. I was able to be a girl with other girls which I desperately need. It was hard for my wife to let me go but she was glad in the end. She does not need to feel the pressure of always taking care of Suzanne. We have had a great week with some good, honest talks. I do love her so much! I hope she can always love the authentic me.
So last night I came home and there was a pink gift bag on my side of the bed. There was a little card that said there is always hope. Inside were 2 pairs of cute panties. The kind my wife knows that I love. We are ok at this moment! That is enough for me. I just hope to keep finding the courage to be honest and the wisdom to be patient. Thanks so much to the wonderful ladies that I have met through this site. You are so inspiring!
Suzanne
I wanted to check in and share where my wife and I are now. It has been a whirlwind since I came out to her in February. I am 48 and had never told anyone. One night while talking in depth abou our sexual history it came out. I told her I sometimes wished I was a woman.
I have been seeing a therapist with and without my wife during this journey ever since. I now fully dress and have been out many times in public with my wife and have seen my therapist fully dressed. I have met other girls on this site in San Francisco with my wife. I think 5 of our friends have also been out with us when I was dressed. When I was home in April I told my mother and sister. As you can see I have been a busy girl.
It all sounds great, right! I have often shared how accepting my wife has been and how well it was going. Now I understand that is not the entire story. She has now been more open about her reservations about the issue. She is scared about how far it will go. It does bother her that her husband wants men to find Suzanne attractive. She is not happy when she thinks her husband is disappearing. I have gone too far, too fast. After all the years of hiding I just exploded and it has been hard for her. We went through a few difficult weeks. There were some angry words and tears.
However, we made progress last week. I was going to my first support group outing and my wife decided not to go. It was my first real trip into the world as Suzanne totally on my own. I found other girls like me. I was able to be a girl with other girls which I desperately need. It was hard for my wife to let me go but she was glad in the end. She does not need to feel the pressure of always taking care of Suzanne. We have had a great week with some good, honest talks. I do love her so much! I hope she can always love the authentic me.
So last night I came home and there was a pink gift bag on my side of the bed. There was a little card that said there is always hope. Inside were 2 pairs of cute panties. The kind my wife knows that I love. We are ok at this moment! That is enough for me. I just hope to keep finding the courage to be honest and the wisdom to be patient. Thanks so much to the wonderful ladies that I have met through this site. You are so inspiring!
Suzanne