First time I revealed myself

[DonnaA]

This post is about the first time I chose to reveal myself as a crossdresser. In the past, there were a few times where I got caught. But it wasn't my intention to get caught. I discussed these times in my "got caught" thread.

I have never gone out in public "dressed". And I have never discussed it with anyone in my life. That changed about 6 months ago.

First, let me say that I am a (slightly) bisexual transvestite. I am about 90-95% heterosexual. I am attracted to women and other transvestites. I am not attracted to non-transvestite men (men dressed as men).

However, there is one exception to that rule. For some reason that I don't fully understand, there is one man (a non-transvestite) that I am incredibly attracted to. And I have had a huge crush on him ever since I was a little boy. Whenever I was around him, I would just melt. And I've always wanted to be intimate with him. He was actually the son of a family friend. And I always suspected that he had a crush on me too, but I wasn't sure.

About 6 months ago, I was speaking to him on the phone. He told me that he was bisexual and that he was always attracted to me. He also told me that he was somewhat into transvestites. So, I revealed to him that I have been a "closet transvestite" ever since I was a kid. He eventually told me that he wanted to see me "dressed up".

A few days later, he visited me. I got "dressed up" for him. I put on white satin and lace panties, off-black silky sheer pantyhose, and black silky lingerie. The 2 of us were so aroused because my clothes were so silky. He loved my panties and pantyhose. He kept feeling them. One thing led to another and.....

We had so much fun that night.

I never, in a million years, would have thought that he'd be so into me as a transvestite. It really turned him on. It was like a fantasy came true for me that night. And that night was somewhat of a catalyst for me to join this site and talk about my crossdressing. If that night hadn't happened, I probably wouldn't be a member of this site.

He promised me that he'd "visit" me again. I am waiting with anticipation.

By the way, I have still never gone out in public "dressed".

[paulaprimo]

great story and good for you and i hope things work out for you the way you want!
thats a perfect example of what we are missing out on when we limit ourselfs to only the opposite sex. :)

and as a fellow ny'er, welcome to the forum...

[DonnaA]

Thank you, Paula. It is nice to hear from you.

I think that what you said (about not limiting ourselves) can be applied to any situation where there are "closed-minded individuals". Society has a tendency to create a sort of "box". It limits people. And, if you don't fit into that "box", you run into all kinds of problems. It could even result in you being physically harmed.

As an intellectual and an academic, I have always felt that the world would be a better place to live in if people would just be more open-minded and less ignorant. There are just so many "backwards-thinking" people in the world today.

[Beverley Sims]

Donna you do not have to expose yourself to the world.
You and your friend have admired each other for years, call it hero worship on your side and maybe homosexual on his .
Forget the labels if you get into an intimate and meaningful relationship, so be it.
Those close to you may guess something, just show that you are good buddies to the rest of the world.
I hope your dreams do come true.

[Leona]

I'll take Beverley's comment to the next level: Have "one thing lead to another" when you're not dressed up and see what happens. :)

[Maria in heels]

Donna...thanks for sharing your story with us. Its great that you are able to be yourself, and more importantly, just to be happy

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Donna, It sure sounds like the stars are in alignment for both of you have fun but be careful.

[deebra]

If it's been a few days past 6 months since you both had such a wonderful time, duhhhhhh??????? You either need to call him or consider he's not interested.

[DonnaA]

If it's been a few days past 6 months since you both had such a wonderful time, duhhhhhh??????? You either need to call him or consider he's not interested.

Hi deebra. It's not what you think. We've been calling each other numerous times since then. I know he is interested because he repeatedly tells me.

But there are 2 problems here. First, he lives in another state (he is originally from here). Right now, he is in the process of seriously considering moving. The reason he moved away in the first place is no longer there. He may (or may not) be moving back here. He is undecided. He is definitely moving, but he just doesn't know where.

Second, he is in a situation where it is difficult for him to visit me. His "situation" places a lot of restrictions on him. It's not what you think (a wife/family). It's something other than that. The explanation would be very long and private.

By the way, I am also in a "situation" - which makes it even more difficult for him to visit me. And it's not a wife/family. I don't feel like discussing it here at this time.

I guess you can say that he is in a "transitional phase" of his life. He also recently retired from his job. So, he is free to move anywhere he wants to.

Right now, he has no one "special" in his life. And neither do I.

It's complicated. I know that is a cliche, but what can I do?

I know that I am being vague. But, to protect everyone's privacy, and to avoid a very lengthy explanation, I will leave it at that.

[DonnaA]

Hi Donna, It sure sounds like the stars are in alignment for both of you have fun but be careful.

Hi Blue. Believe me, nothing could be further from the truth. The stars are definitely not in alignment for us. Since that day 6 months ago, we've tried several times to get together. But our plans keep falling through.

Maybe if he moves closer to me, or if his "situation" improves?

We'll see.

[DonnaA]

I'll take Beverley's comment to the next level: Have "one thing lead to another" when you're not dressed up and see what happens. :)

Hi Leona. Why would I want to do that?

He has told me that he is interested in me either way, as a man or a woman.

He also told me that he never really considered being with a transvestite. But the fact that I am one turns him on even more.

But the problem is on my end. As I explained above, I am primarily heterosexual. He is the only male non-transvestite (man dressed as a man) that I am attracted to. 99.9999% of the time, I don't find non-transvestite men attractive.

I have no interest in having a relationship with him as a man. It is more of a sexual "turn on" for me to be a woman. If I were dressed as a man, it would be a "buzz kill". I probably wouldn't even be able to get aroused. Again, why would I want to do that?

I think it would be a lot more fun for both of us if I were "dressed up". No?

What was the reason that you suggested that? I am confused. It really "came out of left field". Am I missing something?