stefan37
08-10-2013, 04:35 AM
I have no other idea what to call this ride I am on. For quite a few years I had this notion I was on a runaway train with no slowing down. I was suffering from anxiety so severe I was bouncing off walls.
I was convinced to seek therapy to address my anxiety and gender issues. That was 19 months ago. I started hormones 14 months ago and while the physical changes have been lackluster, the emotional change has been spectacular. The anxiety went from a +10-0 in literally 3 days and the kicker was no impairment. I was pleasantly surprised estrogen would have such a dramatic effect on my mental state in such a short period of time. I am in the best physical shape mentally and physically I have ever been in. I have been alcohol and substance free for over 19 months.
In December I came out my family and many of my friends. Over a period of time I have disclosed to all my employees that I am changing genders and actively transitioning. Many of my most loyal repeat customers have been informed. Members of professional organizations I belong to have been notified.
On Wed I have taken a concrete step forward that has me excited. The court has granted my application for name change. The legal notice of final judgment will be published in today’s paper. I can then take the affidavit to the court and get my certified copy. I will need to notify some official agencies, get my driver’s license and gender marker changed, and then I can start the laborious process of changing my name on my professional licenses, bank accounts, credit cards, etc, etc, ad nauseum. I have changed my name and gender on my existing male Facebook page, outing me to any friends I have connected to the page.
My official date for using my legal name to the world as outlined in the judgment is Sept 6.
One more step forward in a grueling process towards congruence.
I was convinced to seek therapy to address my anxiety and gender issues. That was 19 months ago. I started hormones 14 months ago and while the physical changes have been lackluster, the emotional change has been spectacular. The anxiety went from a +10-0 in literally 3 days and the kicker was no impairment. I was pleasantly surprised estrogen would have such a dramatic effect on my mental state in such a short period of time. I am in the best physical shape mentally and physically I have ever been in. I have been alcohol and substance free for over 19 months.
In December I came out my family and many of my friends. Over a period of time I have disclosed to all my employees that I am changing genders and actively transitioning. Many of my most loyal repeat customers have been informed. Members of professional organizations I belong to have been notified.
On Wed I have taken a concrete step forward that has me excited. The court has granted my application for name change. The legal notice of final judgment will be published in today’s paper. I can then take the affidavit to the court and get my certified copy. I will need to notify some official agencies, get my driver’s license and gender marker changed, and then I can start the laborious process of changing my name on my professional licenses, bank accounts, credit cards, etc, etc, ad nauseum. I have changed my name and gender on my existing male Facebook page, outing me to any friends I have connected to the page.
My official date for using my legal name to the world as outlined in the judgment is Sept 6.
One more step forward in a grueling process towards congruence.