Dana
12-23-2005, 02:53 AM
I've seen where several GG have asked the question ~ and as hard as it might be ~ I'll give it a stab in the dark, and see if I can't provide some shread of light? Don't beat me up for having done so ~ these are my personal thoughts on the subject. And, so they're not all inclusive to any one person! There are many different reasons, and just as no given woman is the same, nor any given person is the same ~ no given crossdresser is the same!
First, I've always been attracted to feminnity! Always! Even as a small child!
And, I've always been attracted to, driven to, drawn to women. I 've always like women, girls, even before I found out about the Birds and the Bees.
I like women, am attracted to women, and not just they're bodies, or what they have to offer me in an intimate way, but to their minds, their intellect, their thinking, the way of expressing themselves, the range of expression. That's denied to me as a man, least I be classified as "gay" whichi I'm not!
I don't find men attractive! Not just in the physcial sense, but, mentally, emotionally, pyschologically, spiritually! Really, just not on any level other than as fellow human beings. At best, I tolerate other men. I'm not obessed with sports, hunting, gambling, being competive. I hold my own ~ I'm no push-over, as a man ~ but I'm just really not into this competivness, dominance thing! I know ~ as a man who and what I'm about ~ and what I'm capable of! I'm not too crazy about sports, nor about doing things that produce an adreline rush ~ such as jumping out of airplanes ~ or other things that can cost you your life or limb. I as a person, am not into constantly into re-validating my masculinity ~ nor trying to prove to the world ~ nor any given person that I'm a man? I know that for sure and certain each morning when I wake up!
And, I'm not about sex this nor sex that! I'm not into metally trying to go out and sleep with any and every woman that I come across, and if you're a woman, I could really care less if your still a virgin ~ and all that crap!
I don't believe in nor want casual sex ~ just for the sake of sex!
So, already, I'm not your "normal stereotypical male!" For me, its much more about quality than quanitity!
AnyWhoo! Getting back to the main topic?
Well, the first time I tried on a pair of women's nylon tri-cot panties! It just sent me! I just loved them! I loved the color (pastel color) the cut, the fabirc! For me, it was as much the feel of the "cut" of them as it was anything! Not that the rest didn't matter!
This lead to trying out other feminnine things~ nightgowns, bras, makeup etc. It was all very evolotionary! Started out with one thing, which lead to another.
The first time that I wore pantyhose, and the feel of them as I walked! Wow!
The first time that I wore "danglingly" ear rings, and shook my head from side to side! Wow!
The first time I wore lipstick! And, feeling "pretty"!
The frist time I went "hog~wild" and went shopping without a care of what anyone thought! "Hell!" I thought! No wonder, women LOVE to shop! If I could do this everyday, I'd love shopping too!"
Being pampered from the tip of your toenails to the tip of your fingernails!
Being "doulted on!"
The swish of wearing a nightgown as you walk down the hallway of your house of your apartment!
Lighting candles, and putting some potporurie on, with dim lights, and some mood music or romantic music!
Being wanted and needed and desired!
Being pursue~!
Being romantic!
For once not having to be the guy with all the solutions to all of the problems , nor having to be "Johnny on the Spot" with all the answers to all of the questions!
For once, not having to be "Superman to the Rescue!" (It really does get old quick!)
For once being vulnerable, scared, and afraid ~ and worried! If just for a second!
For once being pursued and not the pursueed!
For once being the desired, and not the one pursuing the "desirred"
To step outside of the "The mortgage is due~! The Car Payments are due! The Visa and Mastercard is due! The light bill has to be paid! Billy needs braces! Susie to have a prom dresss! And, I need, I need, I need, I need!"
To be vulnerable!
To open yourself up to vulnerability!
To escape ~ for a moment! A second! The boss all over you azz!
To escape ~ for a moment! A second! "Suck it up~! Be a MAN!"
To open yourself up for a moment, a second, to there's another side of life!
To just be a human being! To just be a person! Being a man! Living up to society's expectations, demands, can be maddening!
The expextations of society, of our culture, of our parents, of our spouses, of our children! Of our employeers!
When all we really want, and need, is the same thing that EVERYONE wants and needs! To be accepted for who and what we are, ~ as we are! Loving, giving, caring, sharing, accepting HUMAN BEINGS!
Hello! My name is Dana! I'm a male heterosexual crossdresser!
First, I've always been attracted to feminnity! Always! Even as a small child!
And, I've always been attracted to, driven to, drawn to women. I 've always like women, girls, even before I found out about the Birds and the Bees.
I like women, am attracted to women, and not just they're bodies, or what they have to offer me in an intimate way, but to their minds, their intellect, their thinking, the way of expressing themselves, the range of expression. That's denied to me as a man, least I be classified as "gay" whichi I'm not!
I don't find men attractive! Not just in the physcial sense, but, mentally, emotionally, pyschologically, spiritually! Really, just not on any level other than as fellow human beings. At best, I tolerate other men. I'm not obessed with sports, hunting, gambling, being competive. I hold my own ~ I'm no push-over, as a man ~ but I'm just really not into this competivness, dominance thing! I know ~ as a man who and what I'm about ~ and what I'm capable of! I'm not too crazy about sports, nor about doing things that produce an adreline rush ~ such as jumping out of airplanes ~ or other things that can cost you your life or limb. I as a person, am not into constantly into re-validating my masculinity ~ nor trying to prove to the world ~ nor any given person that I'm a man? I know that for sure and certain each morning when I wake up!
And, I'm not about sex this nor sex that! I'm not into metally trying to go out and sleep with any and every woman that I come across, and if you're a woman, I could really care less if your still a virgin ~ and all that crap!
I don't believe in nor want casual sex ~ just for the sake of sex!
So, already, I'm not your "normal stereotypical male!" For me, its much more about quality than quanitity!
AnyWhoo! Getting back to the main topic?
Well, the first time I tried on a pair of women's nylon tri-cot panties! It just sent me! I just loved them! I loved the color (pastel color) the cut, the fabirc! For me, it was as much the feel of the "cut" of them as it was anything! Not that the rest didn't matter!
This lead to trying out other feminnine things~ nightgowns, bras, makeup etc. It was all very evolotionary! Started out with one thing, which lead to another.
The first time that I wore pantyhose, and the feel of them as I walked! Wow!
The first time that I wore "danglingly" ear rings, and shook my head from side to side! Wow!
The first time I wore lipstick! And, feeling "pretty"!
The frist time I went "hog~wild" and went shopping without a care of what anyone thought! "Hell!" I thought! No wonder, women LOVE to shop! If I could do this everyday, I'd love shopping too!"
Being pampered from the tip of your toenails to the tip of your fingernails!
Being "doulted on!"
The swish of wearing a nightgown as you walk down the hallway of your house of your apartment!
Lighting candles, and putting some potporurie on, with dim lights, and some mood music or romantic music!
Being wanted and needed and desired!
Being pursue~!
Being romantic!
For once not having to be the guy with all the solutions to all of the problems , nor having to be "Johnny on the Spot" with all the answers to all of the questions!
For once, not having to be "Superman to the Rescue!" (It really does get old quick!)
For once being vulnerable, scared, and afraid ~ and worried! If just for a second!
For once being pursued and not the pursueed!
For once being the desired, and not the one pursuing the "desirred"
To step outside of the "The mortgage is due~! The Car Payments are due! The Visa and Mastercard is due! The light bill has to be paid! Billy needs braces! Susie to have a prom dresss! And, I need, I need, I need, I need!"
To be vulnerable!
To open yourself up to vulnerability!
To escape ~ for a moment! A second! The boss all over you azz!
To escape ~ for a moment! A second! "Suck it up~! Be a MAN!"
To open yourself up for a moment, a second, to there's another side of life!
To just be a human being! To just be a person! Being a man! Living up to society's expectations, demands, can be maddening!
The expextations of society, of our culture, of our parents, of our spouses, of our children! Of our employeers!
When all we really want, and need, is the same thing that EVERYONE wants and needs! To be accepted for who and what we are, ~ as we are! Loving, giving, caring, sharing, accepting HUMAN BEINGS!
Hello! My name is Dana! I'm a male heterosexual crossdresser!