So frustrated!

[rochelle33]

Hello there, I need to vent!

I'm so frustrated, all I think about is dressing up. Unfortunately I'm not able to since I don't live alone. It's so distracting, I'm at work right now wishing I was wearing some sexy heels and dress.

I'm straight but I fantasize about being with a man while dressed, but I'm not attracted to men.

I'm really stressed out about the situation, I've purged my clothes many times.
I just wish I had a safe, private place to dress up at. If any girls in the LA or OC are want to talk or hang out, please message me. I would love to have some CD friends.

[ReineD]

Hello there, I need to vent!

I'm so frustrated, all I think about is dressing up. Unfortunately I'm not able to since I don't live alone. It's so distracting, ...

Exactly. The reason it is so distracting and you are so frustrated, and maybe think about sex with men so much, is precisely because you have no opportunity to dress at will. Should you change your circumstances and construct for yourself a life where you would be free to go out in the mainstream at least a few times per week, I dare say that things would calm down considerably.

Is the prospect of being on your own very far off, or is it something that you think might be workable in the near future?

[Beverley Sims]

Will your situation change where you are able to have your own accommodation?
If so as you can then freely dress, then all these frustrations are likely to disappear and so your fantasies will change.
Get out and you are likely to meet others, especially in L.A.

Go to Hamburger Mary's and see what the gaiety is like down at Long Beach sometime.

[Amy R Lynn]

Another option that has worked for me is to find a social club that will allow you to dress and undress at the event. I have made many friends in the CD world by being involved with a social CD group.

I hope that you can change your living situation sometime soon. It really does sound like you need some space to be the person you want to be.