Stacy M.
08-19-2013, 07:17 PM
So...I was recently looking for motivation to lose ten pounds. The first thing that popped into my head was "Well, my Little Black Dress would fit better!". The next thought I had was...
"Jeez, maybe I really AM a crossdresser!"
As soon as I opened my mind honestly to the possibility, the gestalt hit: all the memories, still sharp and clear and happy after all these years, of all the times I'd played around with female things over my lifetime. There were a lot! So, soon I was Googling "crossdressing", and came across this forum. After reading a ton of material in a couple of days, I found my story to be all too familiar: the collecting, the purging, and so on. Another line I came across was "a dude in a dress", and I realized that one thing that had felt weird to me was that I had never really dressed all the way -- with a wig and makeup. I'd played with makeup a couple of times, but never had the nerve to get a wig. After reading this forum, I decided I had to try it out!
I picked one day to take several steps for the first time: I went to the MAC counter at my local Macy's and told the SA "I need some concealer and foundation." She asked, "Is this for you?" And I said, "Well, yeah." She didn't even blink, just looked at my complexion, pulled out a sponge, and tried a couple of samples on the back of my hand. No problem! (I'm pretty sure I saw a sister come up to the counter while I was there, but she walked away since the SAs were all busy).
Then, that afternoon, I took a deep breath and walked into a local wig/beauty shop. A large, fit man came out and asked if he could help me, and I said, "I need a wig." Just like that. He asked if it was for me, and said "Well, yeah" (smooth, huh?). He looked at my eyes and complexion, then led me a private area, and went to choose a few wigs for me to try. He was very helpful and friendly, happy to set me up to look as good as possible. He told me to take it home and play with it for awhile, and when I wanted the bangs trimmed, there'd be no charge. Then, he told me he knew someone who could help me with makeup if I wanted!
On the way home, I stopped to pick up some rice at the grocery store, and a variety of makeup from the drug store. I made some gigantic breast forms that night, then made them half as big, then half as big again, until they looked somewhat normal.
Okay...so, I put on pantyhose, little black flats, a bra, and my new rice forms. I dressed in one of the few dresses I have, none of which really fit right. Then for the big steps. I put on some makeup (it didn't look too clownish), and slipped on the wig. Gasp! It looked really weird at first. But after a few minutes of walking around and looking at myself in the mirrors, it suddenly started to feel just right. Like just what I'd been needing -- to complete the look, make the full attempt to look as much like a woman as possible. in my mind, the image of two Lego bricks snapping together formed. It felt like two parts of my personality were joined for the first time.
So, thanks to all the people who contribute to this forum, I've taken several big steps in a short amount of time. It only took about two weeks of reading this forum to get my nerve up to do all this. What a revelation it's been!!!
"Jeez, maybe I really AM a crossdresser!"
As soon as I opened my mind honestly to the possibility, the gestalt hit: all the memories, still sharp and clear and happy after all these years, of all the times I'd played around with female things over my lifetime. There were a lot! So, soon I was Googling "crossdressing", and came across this forum. After reading a ton of material in a couple of days, I found my story to be all too familiar: the collecting, the purging, and so on. Another line I came across was "a dude in a dress", and I realized that one thing that had felt weird to me was that I had never really dressed all the way -- with a wig and makeup. I'd played with makeup a couple of times, but never had the nerve to get a wig. After reading this forum, I decided I had to try it out!
I picked one day to take several steps for the first time: I went to the MAC counter at my local Macy's and told the SA "I need some concealer and foundation." She asked, "Is this for you?" And I said, "Well, yeah." She didn't even blink, just looked at my complexion, pulled out a sponge, and tried a couple of samples on the back of my hand. No problem! (I'm pretty sure I saw a sister come up to the counter while I was there, but she walked away since the SAs were all busy).
Then, that afternoon, I took a deep breath and walked into a local wig/beauty shop. A large, fit man came out and asked if he could help me, and I said, "I need a wig." Just like that. He asked if it was for me, and said "Well, yeah" (smooth, huh?). He looked at my eyes and complexion, then led me a private area, and went to choose a few wigs for me to try. He was very helpful and friendly, happy to set me up to look as good as possible. He told me to take it home and play with it for awhile, and when I wanted the bangs trimmed, there'd be no charge. Then, he told me he knew someone who could help me with makeup if I wanted!
On the way home, I stopped to pick up some rice at the grocery store, and a variety of makeup from the drug store. I made some gigantic breast forms that night, then made them half as big, then half as big again, until they looked somewhat normal.
Okay...so, I put on pantyhose, little black flats, a bra, and my new rice forms. I dressed in one of the few dresses I have, none of which really fit right. Then for the big steps. I put on some makeup (it didn't look too clownish), and slipped on the wig. Gasp! It looked really weird at first. But after a few minutes of walking around and looking at myself in the mirrors, it suddenly started to feel just right. Like just what I'd been needing -- to complete the look, make the full attempt to look as much like a woman as possible. in my mind, the image of two Lego bricks snapping together formed. It felt like two parts of my personality were joined for the first time.
So, thanks to all the people who contribute to this forum, I've taken several big steps in a short amount of time. It only took about two weeks of reading this forum to get my nerve up to do all this. What a revelation it's been!!!