Question for "mature" members...

[AlexisRaeMoon]

I have a question for crossdressers here that are over, say 35 (arbitrary cutoff!):

I'm 41 years old. I used to think, back probably in my late-teens, early-20s, that there's absolutely no way I'd still be wearing women's clothes this far into middle age. I guess I always figured:
a) I'd be married, with kids, and have to stop, or
b) just be too damn old and not convincing (at least not as much as I perceived I could've been when I was younger).

However, here I am married with children and 41, and the desire to dress, if anything, has only increased in the last 6 or 7 years. I'm not sure if I look any better or worse then I did back then, but I also never had the benefit of makeup or wigs, and I think adopting those two items into my crossdressing has been part of my deepening interest. The more feminine I appear to myself in the mirror, the more fun it is.

What about you more "Mature" girls? Does it ever stop? Did you feel the same way when you were younger? Is anyone else still find themselves somewhat surprised that this is still something you do?

[Julie Denier]

Like many, I thought my desire to dress would vanish with age, marriage and children. But of course, it didn't. I actually didn't fully dress -- with makeup, wig and the works -- until after I had been married for 10 years, at age 38 (I'm coming up on 41 now myself).

[Chiana]

68 now and no less tendency to want to dress. Hmmmm. Maybe when I become more mature.

[ronny0]

IMO "better or worse" might be a poor choice of words.......
Better as in Sexier, or better as in more passable?
As 'we' age the sexy firm body tends to get less and more.......
If passing is the only concern, might be easier, as most people will be looking at the hot young chicks.
If looking Hot is the aim, that could draw too much attention as we age.......
I'd guess most of those that CD as they age take on a added attitude that at this point in life I want to do what I want to do and let the world worry about it. Not a major concern for me?
It doesn't stop as long as you are enjoying it!

[Cheryl123]

Honey, I started dressing when I was 12. I'm now 66. Throughout the years I put it away for a while, but I always returned. After a while I understood it was a part of who I am. I'll probably die in a dress...lol. I wonder if I'll be buried that way? Reminder to self: pick out burial dress when one goes on sale!

[Cynthia Anne]

I can't say I feel any stronger about dressing then I did forty years ago! But I don't care about what others think about me any more! That why I dress full time now!

[natalialimapoa]

Well, im definitely not a "mature" member, since I am 22. But this thread is a good way to make me see that I will probably never stop dressing :)

[Beverley Sims]

Arianna,
Don't be surprised if it doesn't just go on and on. :)

[Michaella]

I'm 61 now, maybe over a half-century of cross-dressing. If anything, the desire is now stronger.

Michaella

[Danielle Gee]

I'm 61 now, maybe over a half-century of cross-dressing. If anything, the desire is now stronger.

Michaella

I agree with Michaella, I'm 63 and I'm dressing more than ever......I.m going to retire I a bit less than two years,and my Wife says I can go full time if I want. She loves my CDing more than I do.

Danielle

[Debi]

I started dressing when I was a kid and I too thought that this need would diminish with age. It HAS of course only got stronger as the years go by. The good thing is that now, I don't beat myself up about it... I have accepted that it's just the way I'm wired

D x

[Vickie_CDTV]

I'm 36, but I had the benefit of others' experiences since I was young, and have always known odds are I will never stop dressing (and transvestism is usually forever.)

[Dianne S]

I'm 46 (and would never have considered myself "mature" :)) and my desire to crossdress has never gone away. In fact, it's come on much stronger recently.

[Georgina]

I am 60 and have been dressing for over 50 years. the desire has not waned. I now find that I am beginning to care less about being discovered.

[Shari]

65, still going, still enjoying.
It even increased up at age 59 when I finally came out to my wife.
I see no need to stop something that gives me this much pleasure and peace.

[Sarah Beth]

I'm 60 and I think the desire is stronger now than when I was younger. That may be because I have more time for it now.

[Druscilla Supernovae]

I started a couple of years ago. 42 and single and lovin every minute of it.

[Andrea Renea]

Soon to be 56 years old. Been doing this for almost 50 years.

Like many of the others I always thought it would just go away. It didn't.

Finally told my wife 16 years ago, best decision I ever made, and she was cool with it.

Now our kids are grown and have moved out so more opportunity. They don't know, but I'm sure they suspect. My closet has both male and female shoes, wigs, and clothes. My girls are pretty smart and love their dad no matter what.

Now I have a greater disposable income, so now I can afford more and nicer clothes and make up.

When done right I look like a 40 something lady.

I love my life.

[Sometimes Steffi]

I guess that if you told me at 20 that I would have a lot of gurl firends, would be going out in public, and be dressing completely with forms, wig and makeup, I wouldn't have believed you.

[Jenniferpl]

The desire to be feminine has only increased with age.
The need to wear a bra is as strong today, as it was when I was a teenager . In fact it's stronger.
Good thing my wife is accepting.

[Foxy Lady]

I started at 10 now at 70 I still dress and seem to enjoy it more.

[Trish]

Now at age 65 and retired, I still dress as often as possible. I still enjoy it.

[MsRenee]

I started late in life at the age of 39 and been dressing for 8 yrs now .
At times wishing I had started earlier in life but never had interest in dressing to one day.
Now my days off are spend outside dressed enjoying life with my girl everyday.
Hugs
Renee

[suesan]

now 52 been dressing since my childhood, more accepting of this part of who i am it isjust part of what makes who iam, but now i can shop for my outfits and love that. today iwill go shopping for new satin nightgowns,just love satin

[steffigirl37]

For me it hasn't stopped. Married 30 years and raised four children. The desire to dress is still strong. My fashion style has change though, and it has become more relaxed and less stressfull. My wife accepts it better and that has made it easier. When I find the time I really enjoy it.

[Raychel]

Married 20 years here, been dressin off and on for 40 years, now at 53 years old
I am finally coming to the point where I can dress the way I want. Dressing more and more.
Finally after 40 years, I can just be myself.

[Kalista Jameson]

I'll be 45 in November and I feel more into my crossdressing than ever. I'm more open with it and have the money to indulge compared to when I was younger and broke. So for me, it has only gotten stronger and better.

Cheers,

Kalista

[Mollyanne]

Ha!!!! ALL I CAN TELL YA IS THAT I'M "AS OLD AS DIRT" AND THE FACT THAT I DRESS IS STRONGER EVERY YEAR!!!!!!

Molly

[suchacutie]

I started at 55 so at 63 now there is so much yet to experience!

[Ressie]

This is a good question really. I never thought about it seriously, but I guess I've unconsciously planned my life out so that I could dress more than I did when I was younger. After losing a gf 30 years ago I remember thinking I just wanted to be alone so I could CD whenever I wanted to. Of course, it didn't turn out that way for a while. But that's where I am now; alone with an ever increasing wardrobe.

[kimdl93]

Not in the least. I do wish I had the skin and body fat content of my 20 year old body, but what I've lost to time, I've gained in experience. Enjoy the road ahead.

[Maria 60]

At 50 I believe the last few years were Maria's best years, just all around more complete. The joining of this site has a lot to do with it. All those years never owned a wig or make up and accessories like jewelry.

[Gloriamontrose]

Like others, at the age of 66 the desire (and need) is greater than ever since i first started at the age of around 11. Wife accepts and helps and I am more or less full time except for going out. Make up, wig and jewelry are relatively recent additions but now accepted and I've got this 'thing' about varnished toe nails. Like Georgina, I have stopped worrying about being discovered and though my wife often says that she wishes I would come out fully, I haven't quite got the nerve to do that... not sure I ever will! More than anything else for me this is a hobby for life.
Gloria K

[linda allen]

Question for "mature" members...
I have a question for crossdressers here that are over, say 35 (arbitrary cutoff!):

I'm 41 years old. ........

35 is "mature"? :eek: That makes me "ancient". FDR (look it up, it's not "cell phone" spelling) was President when I was born!

My desire to dress goes along with my opportunity to dress and now that my wife is on board with it and there's no fear of her catching me dressed, I dress nearly every day. I change into "male" if I'm doing dirty work or if I'm going outside, but other than that, I'm usually outfitted in female clothing, boobs, and often a wig. The desire is not going away although when necessary, I can not dress for weeks at a time.

[Cheryl T]

I guess I had the same thoughts when I was 25. I thought marriage would decrease the opportunity and eventually this would all fade away.
How wrong I was!
The desire...no the need has always been there and after coming out to my wife completely 10 years ago it's only grown. She's fully accepted me and I dress when I please (which is every day whether completely or not) and it's made me more comfortable in my own skin in all ways. I can't ever see myself stopping and sometimes worry about what will happen if the day comes that I can't care for myself and someone else must. Will I struggle with not being able to express this, will I be able to still dress??
It's been almost 60 years now for me and though it took a long time I know that this is who I am and it's not just something that I do. It's never been a "hobby" for me, but it's also never been so strong that I felt the need to transition though I have thought about it a lot.
My style has changed, but never my focus.

[Tina B.]

I don't know about the mature girls, but I know when I grow up, I will stop cross dressing and act like a man. All it takes is finding the right girl and the desire to wear a dress will go away. At least that's what I told myself at 16 to 20, of course I got married, and it did go away for a while, but then it came back, I dressed, told wife, wife left with kids, I stopped dressing again. In time I got married again, and after a few years the need to dress came back, so I told second wife, she said OK, so what, and I've dressed ever since, but I still say this is something I'll out grow, after all I'm only 69 years old, there is plenty of time to out grow this silly little habit, right?

[daarleane]

I am 76 and the feeling is as strong as ever.

[jillleanne]

Nope, never stops for me. Accepted as an integral part of who I am. Has it's moments though as it's harder over time to retain the youthful look so acceptance of aging is also important, yet fun. Never really gave it much thought when younger, just dressed when the opportunity arose if the desire to dress was there at the same time. Not surprised at all, in fact, it has become so much a part of who I am, the feelings of being feminine are just as strong and regular as being male. Being out also makes life so much easier as I come and go dressed appearing in either gender just depending on how I feel that day. It does present problems sometimes as I will often forget I am wearing something from one gender while appearing in the opposite gender, i.e., earrings, or makeup, lingerie, etc. lol

[LaSirenaBella]

No, it's still there. I'm right smack in my mid-40s. I thought my first marriage would cure it. That didn't happen. I see my crossdressing differently, though. I see it as a means to an end. I identify more as a "middle-pather" or "dual-role transgender," if you will. I've come to terms with it, too, and it helps the woman I'm married to now is accepting.

[Gillian Gigs]

It seems that the thoughts of it going away after marriage fooled many of us. I dressed mostly for sexual reasons as a teen and really believed that marriage would change everything. It changed nothing, in fact with womens clothes in the closet and a dresser full of lingerie, it only made things worse. Guess what I was doing every time the SO was out and with us working different shifts at work, I had alot of time alone. Coming out to the SO about 20 years ago helped her to understand some of my strange behaviors and changed nothing in my dressing habits. Fortunately she is accepting which helps me not let the desires run to rampant, as I found that the less often I dressed, the worse the "pink fog" could over take me at times.

[Jocelyn Quivers]

Well being in that official mature ladies age ( which I try to base myself in an attractive mature like actresses Vanessa Williams, Lynn Whitfield, Lela Rachon), my original plan of being being married with kids, all male no dressing, female side imploded along time time ago. Basically my resistance to it crumbled and collapsed underneath it's own weight. It's now just a part of me which is here forever, and will not go away. I guess the only issues on the horizon is if and when certain medications I'm on start making more noticeable changes to me.

[Jackie7]

I'm in the same boat as the other old broads around here -- at 67 my wardrobe is vast and still growing, and I've got more time and opportunity ... Along with a collaborating wife. Not so easy to wear high heels any more, however.

[GinaD]

I have found as I "mature", my desires to be Gina have increased. With more resources and information at my fingertips than when I was younger, I have been able to refine my look as Gina, though not as "young and pretty" as I perceived myself in the beginning. With breast forms, clothes, make up and wigs now so easily accessible, it has become even more exciting to modify my look and presentation to meet whatever mood I am in. Will it ever stop? I don't think so. I think it has become a part of me that will never go away. I have taken this path so many different ways that the only thing left would be full transition from male to female. That is the only path I haven't seriously explored yet. It has been painful, scary, and humiliating at different times, but also fulfilling, peaceful, and exciting. This life choice has taken me through the entire rollercoaster of emotions over the years but still remains a part of me. What happens next is anyone's guess.

[DDee]

Well I know I'm Mature and I never thought that there was so many "mature" cross dressers like myself. I have gone through stages of cross dressing and really never stopped for a long period of time . I have changed my types of dressing though through the years. In my early years it was just underwear panties, bra slips etc .but now its more complete as I have more time .

DDee

[linda allen]

DDee, We "mature" ladies spent a lot of our lives before the Internet made it possible to realize that we are not alone in our crossdressing and that we are not as wierd as we might have thought.

Internet forums like this one let us realize that we are not alone and they allow us to share information and hints on crossdressing. Without the Internet, I would never be where I am today.

[Ressie]

I am 76 and the feeling is as strong as ever.

daarleane darling don't scare us like that! It sounds like the desire just keeps increasing as we age. :eek:

[bimini1]

At 48, I'm finding that the more I couldn't do it, the more desire to do it. It seems as I started to get out and about with others in the community by way of support groups, etc, the actual need to express it started to diminish significantly. Kind of took the edge off so to say. It's like now I have way more control over it as opposed to the other way around.

But now it is more than just clothes, I find myself longing to be an actual female out in the world. But that's just dreams, it can only be fantasy.

[michelleddg]

AriannaRenee, this amusement ***never*** ends! I made peace with myself on this several years back after decades of angst, and in recent years have really enjoyed extending the hobby/craft aspect of all of this (putting more money into it, broadening my experience base, learning from the internet, becoming more active on this forum, that sort of thing).

If you fight it, it will eat you up. If you make your peace with it, it will be a plus side of your life. Hugs, Michelle.

[Dena]

I'm 52, and still enjoy it! It's somewhat dormant at this time due to free time, and people hanging around.
I always wear panties, sometimes a bra, and sleep in nightgowns.

[DDee]

Linda ,
Well said !!!!! Hugs
DDee

[Barbra P]

When I was much younger I don’t think I thought the urge would just go away although I did go through a purge that lasted a number of years. But then the urge resurfaced and it became really intense – I mean the Pink Fog was thick enough to cut with a knife. My Wife was already retired when I retired and she is only somewhat supportive; I can dress around the house provided it doesn’t get out of hand – in this case out of hand is more than once a week. She does not like me going out and most of the time it is a waste of time to ask her how something looks on me or if she thinks this or that would look good on me.

In 2011 my Daughter asked my Wife what to get me for Father’s Day and I was surprised to learn later that she suggested a pedicure. I walked out of that salon with painted nails and they remained pretty up until a month or so ago, and during this whole time I wore sandals. I have arthritis and I have a tough time reaching my toes so it was just easier to take the polish off rather than try and reapply it. My Wife surprised and gave two gift certificates to a local nail salon for my Birth Day so I could get a pedicure.

My Daughter and her two daughters live with us and it has been a long dry summer but tomorrow my grandkids go back to school and I can go on record and say that my urge to dress is still strong – I’m thinking Wednesday would be a good day. Bought a pair of white Capris for the occasion and I might see if I can find something else too – I’ve been wanted to try a Maxi Dress or Skirt, just haven’t found one in my size that I like that is also affordable. Oh, and some new eye-makeup and maybe a new lipstick, and maybe a new pair of earrings (had my ears pierced a week after my Daughter took me for that pedicure).

So Arianna (or is it Renee) I’d say you can look forward to decades of being in touch with your feminine side. As my Therapist told me, it’s not going away, so accept it, embrace it, but most of all enjoy it and have fun.

BTW: I turned seventy this month.

[Sister Rachel]

Well I'm 56, and definitely too damned old and ugly to be "convincing".. (see photo on left!), but here I am, over fifty years after first experiencing a strong urge to wear "girls' " clothes .. I think I always knew deep down that it wouldn't go away. I have been through phases of suppression and "purging", but now I'm much more relaxed and self-accepting about it, and my wife's acceptance seems to be growing steadily.
I would like to go for a full-on wig and makeup transformation, maybe just once, to get some photos before age really takes it's toll.

[carhill2mn]

My first "dressing" event occured when I was about age 8. I recently turned 75. My desire to be en femme as much as possible is stronger than ever. I now live alone so I am en femme unless my male self is expected some place.

[Heather1129]

I'm about to turn 60, I started when I was in grade school, my sisters had all these cool things I had to try and I never looked back. I think the desire has increased over the years, I finally realized that fighting it was a losing battle so embrace it and enjoy it.

Heather

[Joanne f]

There was once a 50+ thread on here that was for the ones who had been dressing for more than 50 years and like me most if not all said that they use to think that the desire to dress would slowly disappear as you got older but had found that in fact it had got more intense , I do not think that the desire will disappear but the reason that you want to dress may change slightly .

[Eryn]

I didn't dress fully until I was in my 50s. Now I rue the years I wasted by shoving my "shameful thoughts" back into the corners of my mind.

We've done quite a few informal polls on the forum and I believe that the median age of our members is in the 50s. There seems to be something that happens in the late 40s or early 50s that improves our freedom to express ourselves as we wish.

[ArleneRaquel]

My experience has been that as I age, I'm 65, the desire to dress as a woman has increased & increased, where now and since 2004 I am a female(female attired) virtually 24/7. I have know since before the age of ten that I would live as a woman sometime in my adult life.

[Gloriamontrose]

I didn't dress fully until I was in my 50s. Now I rue the years I wasted by shoving my "shameful thoughts" back into the corners of my mind.

We've done quite a few informal polls on the forum and I believe that the median age of our members is in the 50s. There seems to be something that happens in the late 40s or early 50s that improves our freedom to express ourselves as we wish.

That's easy.:)

1. the kids leave home
2. our disposable income increases with them gone.
3. we care less what other people think - I mean those apart from SO's.
4. SO's sometimes also mature to the fact that that is what you are and there's not much that will change.

Spent an afternoon shopping on line with my wife. Her faved shop had a 40% sale and I bought a new top for me, and a cardigan for her, a prezzie. Gin and tonic time now.

Gloria.

[Gloriamontrose]

My experience has been that as I age, I'm 65, the desire to dress as a woman has increased & increased, were now and since 2004 I am a female(female attired) virtually 24/7. I have know since before the age of ten that I would live as a woman sometime in my adult life.

Me too but not allowed out of the yard. Went out to put the garbage in the dumpster en femme the other night only to be told the following day that there was a bear prowling around at that time.

Years ago when my wife first found out about me she told a friend who was quite worldly wise who told her that my crossdressing would never go away and would get more intense as I got older. She was spot on with that.

Gloria.

[Chrissy52]

So true!

[Kandy Barr]

In my early 20s I first shaved my legs and what little body hair I have and started dressing fully and going out. Through the years I've dressed on and off as the situation and opportunities arose, the desire has never "gone away". Now at 61 and simi retired I dress more than I ever have and have the means and wardrobe to dress more completely. Can't imagine it ever changing..... lol. xxx

[Margaret]

I'm aged 59 and semi-retired. The urge to dress hasn't diminished but the opportunities are still limited. I have partial acceptance from my dear wife including underdressing and purchase of pantyhose. My first dressing experience was at age 4 and has continued on and off for 55 years.

Now if I worked on her need for a maid.....

[Kate Simmons]

Dressing can be a virtual "fountain of youth" for us if it's in our heart. I've recently viewed videos I made of myself en femme dancing to songs over thirty years ago and if anything I look a lot better today due to honing the skills. Thirty years ago I danced in my living room behind closed curtains. Today I dance before hundreds of people at the club and thoroughly enjoy myself. I guess it's pretty much up to each and every one of us to decide just how far and how long we want to go with this.:battingeyelashes::)

[Karren H]

Even at 61 I refuse to be "mature".... let alone old....... and I never project what I'm going to be doing in the future.....

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Arianna, I'm 70 and have never even thought of giving it up.

[AlexisRaeMoon]

In fact with womens clothes in the closet and a dresser full of lingerie, it only made things worse. Guess what I was doing every time the SO was out and with us working different shifts at work, I had alot of time alone.

See, that nails it right there. My wife and I are almost the same size, but interestingly, I never even thought to try on anything of hers until we were goofing around one night and she put on of her heels on my foot. Once I realized the shoe fits, I was doomed. It became like a drug addiction. I hope that when I fess up, she'll be as accepting as your wife...

[AlexisRaeMoon]

Wow! Thanks for all the replies, ladies. I have to say, I went into this somewhat expecting the answers I got, but I guess I just wanted to be certain. I can't believe that I used to really believe that I'd wake up one day and the need would be gone. I remember in the early days of prowling around the Internet how great it was to read about other crossdressers describe the urge as something that almost can't be fought. There's times when I'd be laying on the bed, literally shaking because I was facing the opportunity to dress up and trying to physically restrain myself. So much easier to just give in!

[ME2.0]

I'm 39, and have been dressing for about 5 years, but have admired womens clothing for longer. Like you, I love to look in the mirror and see a "fictional" person looking back at me. I use Staci as a release. When I am feeling too tight in my own skin, I can be Staci for a little while and relax. For me, it's not a sexual thing. I don't do it for a sexual fetish or have sex when I'm dressed. I consider Staci to be kind of an asexual virgin.

I've often wondered if Staci was a turning point in my life. I don't want to call it a midlife crisis, but I realize that I rely on Staci more often than I used to as my male life has gotten more stressful. Truth be told, I wouldn't mind being Staci for the last half of my life. Maybe It's a "butterfly" type thing. (Oh god, please don't compare me to Silence Of The Lambs) LOL.

If anything surprises me about it, it's the lengths I will go through (sometimes painful, like electrolysis or uncomfortable-like body shaping girdles) to look more like the woman I want Staci to be.

Hugs,
Staci

[ossian]

51 I've been dressing since 12. It has been this kind of constant humm in my life. Sometimes welcome sometimes not.

[Emogene]

Gloria, like to add one other reason: I'm an old whatever the heck I am and what are they going to do to me! :) Draft me, did that! Fire me, sorry retired! Frown at me, find someone that gives a rats tush! Life is good en femme and getting better!

[Bethany_Anne_Fae]

The short answer for me... is no. I just turned 50 this year, and I'm dressing up more now than ever before. My circumstances have changed a lot since last year, but I'm living life and enjoying the heck out of the world now.

*hugs*
Bethany

[Oddlee]

Hi
I have a question for crossdressers here that are over, say 35 (arbitrary cutoff!):

I'm 41 years old. I used to think, back probably in my late-teens, early-20s, that there's absolutely no way I'd still be wearing women's clothes this far into middle age. I guess I always figured:
a) I'd be married, with kids, and have to stop, or
b) just be too damn old and not convincing (at least not as much as I perceived I could've been when I was younger).

However, here I am married with children and 41, and the desire to dress, if anything, has only increased in the last 6 or 7 years. I'm not sure if I look any better or worse then I did back then, but I also never had the benefit of makeup or wigs, and I think adopting those two items into my crossdressing has been part of my deepening interest. The more feminine I appear to myself in the mirror, the more fun it is.

What about you more "Mature" girls? Does it ever stop? Did you feel the same way when you were younger? Is anyone else still find themselves somewhat surprised that this is still something you do?

Hi ArrannaRenee,

Not sure I'd classify myself as mature, but I'm 63 and have known about myself for at least 55 years... I don't think marriage and kids have any impact at all for whether we cd or not - the cd factor (in my opinion) is something we have before we are conscious of any sexual ambiguity, and I don't think it changes with age.

My "condition" as a cross-dresser does not seem likely to change. It still seems completely strange to me that someone would prefer to wear the clothes of the other gender (I consider myself male), but I've come to accept that (and I think self-acceptance is a key to emotional health). I spend about half my time dressed. Since I work from home, I can dress as an office girl, typically skirt and some sort of knit top... Lucky...

It's only been the last 5 years or so that I've had the freedom to do this - daughter finished with college and moved out (although she's know of the cross-dressing for 5 or so years). I also have to think that if I knew 40 years ago what I know now, that my gender presentation might be more emphatically and consistently feminine...

Be well,
Lee

[Karen kc]

I'm 56, and have'nt slowed a bit! The older I get, the less I care about who might see my bra straps

[mariehart]

At 53 I'm still the same person inside. I don't dress up as much simply from opportunity. But the interest is still there. I do feel it's a pity I don't dress up more and it's as pity I didn't dress up more when I was younger. Without boasting too much I was very passable. In fact I still have a picture of myself in my forties looking very convincing.

I sometimes feel a real sense of loss for my youth and it's opportunities.

[Mollyanne]

daarleane darling don't scare us like that! It sounds like the desire just keeps increasing as we age. :eek:


I CAN IDENTIFY WITH THIS ONE!!!!!! ME DRESSING DESIRES DO GET STRONGER AND STRONGERBUT MY SHOPPING SKILLS GET BETTER AND BETTER!!!!!!

Molly

[Mollyanne]

When I was much younger I don’t think I thought the urge would just go away although I did go through a purge that lasted a number of years. But then the urge resurfaced and it became really intense – I mean the Pink Fog was thick enough to cut with a knife. My Wife was already retired when I retired and she is only somewhat supportive; I can dress around the house provided it doesn’t get out of hand – in this case out of hand is more than once a week. She does not like me going out and most of the time it is a waste of time to ask her how something looks on me or if she thinks this or that would look good on me.

In 2011 my Daughter asked my Wife what to get me for Father’s Day and I was surprised to learn later that she suggested a pedicure. I walked out of that salon with painted nails and they remained pretty up until a month or so ago, and during this whole time I wore sandals. I have arthritis and I have a tough time reaching my toes so it was just easier to take the polish off rather than try and reapply it. My Wife surprised and gave two gift certificates to a local nail salon for my Birth Day so I could get a pedicure.

My Daughter and her two daughters live with us and it has been a long dry summer but tomorrow my grandkids go back to school and I can go on record and say that my urge to dress is still strong – I’m thinking Wednesday would be a good day. Bought a pair of white Capris for the occasion and I might see if I can find something else too – I’ve been wanted to try a Maxi Dress or Skirt, just haven’t found one in my size that I like that is also affordable. Oh, and some new eye-makeup and maybe a new lipstick, and maybe a new pair of earrings (had my ears pierced a week after my Daughter took me for that pedicure).

So Arianna (or is it Renee) I’d say you can look forward to decades of being in touch with your feminine side. As my Therapist told me, it’s not going away, so accept it, embrace it, but most of all enjoy it and have fun.

BTW: I turned seventy this month.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!

Molly

[EllenJo]

I will turn 60 in a few weeks and first tried on my sisters underthings when I was about 12. It was an off and on thing during my first marriage. I was busy with kids and jobs and would only dress on occasion after my first wife put on some weight and I found that some of her clothes would fit. I always thought that the urge to dress would lessen with age but just like many here I found it only gets stronger. I am remarried and my second wife was at first rather restrictive about it and we were a DADT situation. She now accepts and I spend more time dressed. I am just an old guy in a dress who is happy and healthy and very relaxed. I don't care what other people think anymore. Age has it's advantages.

[Jorja]

Gosh, you all are OLD! :)

[Jennifer in CO]

56 here - I quit trying to "pass" about 20 years ago when the effort wasn't worth the outcome. Still "dress" everyday tho, just do it in a manner pleasing and comfortable to me. Haven't worn a dress in years although when working in the home office I will occasionally don a nice skirt. Heck, I mowed the yard this past weekend in a miniskirt. After years of steroids (medications - nothing else), my days of passing are waaay over.
But this wasn't about passing was it?...its about "dressing" and that is a desire /nea need as strong as ever...

[savannaxdrsser]

Im 58, have been dressing on and off since I was a teen. I have always had the urge and I think that the internet has just made this so much easier and supportive. I probably will never stop, and do enjoy my duel roles!

[Janet Bern]

It doesn't stop, In fact it gets more and more desirable to dress.
I am 70 and think about it all the time. When in my 40's it was a few
days a month.

[Ally 2112]

I do have to agree over the years i have tried everthing to stop .Here i am 49 and i started when i was 11 and like more than ever :)

[mersades]

At 72 I think I get better looking every year. Well, in my mind anyway. perhaps it is because I am more confidant and daring. I'll do things dressed and in drab that I never would have dared to do years ago.

[LACD]

The urge to dress has never been absent. I haven't dressed that much the past few years due to work family and other events. However in the past few months the urge to dress has been getting stronger. I still enjoy it very much and still window shop online. Dear Wife was accepting but for some reason has.backed off the past couple years. So yes the urge is still there at 62 years yong. I do try to dress age appropriate though not as a granny.:2c:

[Julie Gaum]

Okay, at 88 I guess I'm living proof --- the profile picture is a new outfit and the hair is my own. Two major downsides with maturity:
One is that even though the sexual component is still there, in actuality it's considerably diminished, but since I now live alone not really sure whether it would have been that reduced if my spouse was still alive. Second are the damn health issues that keep getting in the way.
Shouldn't complain as the other option will catch up with me sooner or later (hope it's later).
Question of what to wear at burial as there I have a problem, for the arrangements are to be with a full military funeral in Washington state with the ocean at my feet at the mountains above. A missing-plane-flyover is also planned. So call me foolish if you will but I think that the reaction to me being en femme at that time just doesn't seem appropriate to me.
Julie

[Dani0948]

I recall reading a chapter in Everything you wanted to know about sex.... back in the sixties about tv. It said that the desire/urge increases with age. I started at 9 and will be 65 in sept. The author was right.

[Ressie]

Okay, at 88 I guess I'm living proof ---

Bless your heart Julie.

[Carla4Guage]

I've told this before - I'm 66 now and didn't start dressing until I was 61. I never knew what I would have looked like as a young lady. I know that I enjoy dressing (age appropriately) and don't see myself quitting any time soon. I really don't have a "history" of any length from which I can compare then to now feelings.

[Alice Torn]

I am always attracted to sexy older GG's, and really enjoy dressing up, and wearing my gray wig, and looking like an attractive mature lady.

[MissTee]

No waning of desire for me. When I hit 50 a few years back it seemed to grow even stronger.

[AlexisRaeMoon]

Well, I guess that settles it! Good for you Julie - you are an inspiration.

[Anne Elizabeth]

With out reading any other responses I have to say. "It never quits" I used to think like you surely when I hit 30 or 40 or 50 it would stop. Now I am 55 and seriously thinking about going the full route. I have been soul searching over the last 4 years and have come to the conclusion that I should have been born with a female body. I feel I suffer from gender dysphoria. It consumes a lot of my time that I should be productive in other areas. I plan my days around dressing and it pains me to have to change to run downtown to get something needed. I have no real friends except my wife that knows my struggles and I wish that I did. I sometimes feel that my life is on hold and I just exist, doing what needs to be done. What a waste of life. I wish I could put this aside and just be a male but I am afraid that I am not strong enough. On the other hand I wish I could transition and finish my life like I was supposed to. The pickets on the fence are starting to hurt from me sitting on the fence for so long.

So I guess will this go away for you? Only you will know. I have heard some have been able to conquer it. But I doubt it. I used to think that I could do anything that I put my mind to. I used to think I was an uncaring tough s.o.b. I have walled myself off from children, wife, family as I used to think; A. they would never understand, B. If they really knew what was going through my mind. OR C. KEEPING THEM AT ARMS LENGTH MENT I NEVER HAD TO FACE THE TRUTH. And (potential friends as fear of them finding out). Well the truth of the matter is I should have been born a girl. I should have lived my life as a female. If I could find a way to transition I would. It is just eating my up inside, and the decision is do I throw away a 30 year marriage to the woman that has taught me how to feel again, how to cry, how to care for people, what LOVE really means!!!! just so I can become a woman!

I sorry I digress. My answer is in a short, IT NEVER WENT AWAY FOR ME AND I DON'T SEE IT EVER GOING AWAY!

[MissJoanne]

I first dressed at age 12, and it was an "on and off" thing, always in private, generally underthings only. I went out for the first time in January of this year at age 55! During that time, there have been periods of several years where I haven't dressed. Since January, I think the longest I've gone is two weeks.

[julie marie1]

I have been married for 38 years, with four kids. In my case, no it hasn't stopped. In fact, I would say the desire to have a night out, to "pass" is stronger than ever,

[GeorgeA]

I've been crossdressing for more than half a century. At first it was only occasional as I lived with my parents. It became more regular when I moved out on my own. But I still had to go to work and could dress only afterwards. But then, living in an apartment you must consider that a maintenance people may drop in to check water, heating, etc. You must be prepared to change very quickly. It was only a year ago that I bought my own house and can dress almost full time. I'm semi-retired now but still operate my bookstore about 3 hours in the evening when I have to be in drab, sometimes underdressing. I have staff running the store at other times. I dress as soon as I get up in the morning until I have to go to the store.
As I said in my previous posts I'm a GIS (guy in a skirt). This evolved over a period of time, as in the beginning I thought that I'm dressing as a woman. But soon realised that I have no desire to even look like a woman. I'm just a man who likes to dress differently than most other men. I do not have what is referred to as "pink fog". I have no feminine traits in me. I'm all male, though definitely not "macho" but rather gentle and intellectual person. And that feeling intensified as I'm getting older. And that should answer the original poster's query.

[Stephanie47]

I had to "giggle" a little by your definition of "mature." I'm "mature" at age 66. I guess as my grandchild said, "Daddy, says you're old grandpa." One of her friends, when answering the knock on the door, said, "There's an old man outside!" Ah, the perspective of youth. My mother is old (92). Me, I consider myself "mature." At your age (41) I probably considered myself as "youthful," not a youth. Anyway, to consider your question.

At age 21 when I married I had not cross dressed for several years. I was in the military and had no thoughts of wearing women's clothing at all. Yes, I did reflect upon the period of time of my teens that maybe I was gay. There was a more inappropriate term used back then. I knew I was not that. I drooled over young women, and, I was dating my future wife who was definitely hot and sensuous. I was the classic stud. Virile. Six foot two and 175 pounds of military sinuous muscle. I never back then I would backslide into wearing a nightie to bed under the guise of bedroom play. Stockings too!

Thirty sneaked in upon me. Still as described above. However, I was draw to buying slip, then panties, then a bra or two.

By your age of 41 I started adding a dress or two or more and shoes and makeup. "What's up doc?" I sure the heck did not know. Why?

So, why would you think the urge or necessity to wear women's clothing would diminish or disappear into a distant memory?

Yes, the body does change. The natural hair is gone for many of us. The wigs will take care of that. The choice of clothing will change for most of us. I read many entries on this site of girls stuck in their youth. That's OK. There are many guys who are old and sloppy who are stuck in their earlier years too!

I'd say as we age many of us grow more comfortable with who were are. There may be an acknowledgment we may need to temper our cross dressing for the benefit of family and the job, but, we realize cross dressing is not going to go away.

We cannot fight time. We can only do what GG's do to try to minimize the aging process.

[pantihoze]

Well, I guess this thread answers some questions for me as well. I am in my early 40's as well. I have admitted to myself the fact that I like to wear feminine clothing only in the last few years, but the desire has always been there. It started as a kid. I too, thought the desire would get less as I have aged, gotten married, had children of my owne, etc. It has only gotten stronger. Good to hear from the other ladies that I am not alone in having these desires increase over time.

M

[Carla4Guage]

I've told this story before, but for what it's worth. I enjoy dressing, don't think I'll ever get to the point I will want to stop dressing, but unlike so many here I only started dressing at age 59. I'm getting better at it (I think) and have been dressing for 7 years now!

[Requal Jo]

60+ and only getting a stronger desire. Can't wait until I retire and have more time to dress. So Arianna, be prepared for a long time of dressing and enjoyment.

[S. Lisa Smith]

64 next month. I have more time and more money for this "hobby" at my age than I've ever had before. It's fun!!

[Fortuneta]

63 today and married 41 years tomorrow...Started dressing at 7ish and going strong. As the others, my styles had to change with age, but the need is always there. Hoping my retired clothing is on younger dressers and they are enjoying them as I.

[RachelRICD]

Just turned 70, work as a woman 5 days a week in a public office and am femme most other time when I can. Been dressing since I was 10 and don't plan to stop. I enjoy it more than ever and working every day with GG's who accept me, well it doesn't get any better than that.

[Glendy]

At 61 the feeling to dress up every chance I can is still there and know now that it will never go away. I now go out dressed more every chance that I can and feel wonderfull when I do. I find that I don't feel as nervous as the first time I went out in public.

[Allesandra Rhodes]

Hmm good question. I wondered even since finding the online world how long it may last. Like that pink fog freedom comes on so fast, but does it go away in time? Fading into oblivion? If you try to leave it all behind you and box it away, does it disappear? Can you come out of the closet and just go right back in, or repress it totally? And if you're like me, after discovering your TG heart, can you ever ever put her back inside behind the accumulation of foreign natured programing of male defined characteristics? Can a snake live within it's shedded skin only?

Does it ever stop?
No

Did you feel the same way when you were younger?
Much better now thank you :)

Is anyone else still find themselves somewhat surprised that this is still something you do?
Nope

Can I borrow your shoes Ally?
NO! :D (okiez soz I threw in that last part)

[Michala]

Started when I was young, about 12 or 13. At that time I had only my mother's clothes to wear and did whenever I had the chance. She never mentioned that she might suspect so I'm not sure if she did or not. After I got married it slowed because of children around to much. When they were gone I started to buy some of my own clothes. To start with I guess I thought a woman had to dress ****ty to attract attention, now I'm much more comfortable wearing clothes that look nice and actually look like a lady instead of a lady of the evening. Retired but don't get to dress as much as I would like.

[Sherrii]

65, have enjoyed dressing for most of my life, since teens. The older I get the more I dress, not to pass, can't do that, but I spend a lot of time with something under dressed or almost fully dressed. Desire is as strong or stronger than ever.

Sherrii

[phyllis47]

I have a question for crossdressers here that are over, say 35 (arbitrary cutoff!):

I'm 41 years old. I used to think, back probably in my late-teens, early-20s, that there's absolutely no way I'd still be wearing women's clothes this far into middle age. I guess I always figured:
a) I'd be married, with kids, and have to stop, or
b) just be too damn old and not convincing (at least not as much as I perceived I could've been when I was younger).

However, here I am married with children and 41, and the desire to dress, if anything, has only increased in the last 6 or 7 years. I'm not sure if I look any better or worse then I did back then, but I also never had the benefit of makeup or wigs, and I think adopting those two items into my crossdressing has been part of my deepening interest. The more feminine I appear to myself in the mirror, the more fun it is.

What about you more "Mature" girls? Does it ever stop? Did you feel the same way when you were younger? Is anyone else still find themselves somewhat surprised that this is still something you do?

No hun it is probably not going to change but get stronger; especially when the kids leave.

[Terri Andrews]

At 68 ,The older I get the stronger the desire and the more I am confortable am when out in public .

[Dalva]

There have been a few periods when I have not dressed. But each time I returned to Cding, the desire was stronger than before.

At 52, I have to say it will only get stronger yet.

As far as being mature goes, What's that all about? I'm still as youthful in outlook as I ever was. (in my mind anyways, my body is starting to creak and moan sometimes)

[Amanda Shaft]

If I knew then what I know now! I've passed fifty now (OMG! how did that happen?) and my 'need' has just gotten stronger, deeper and more profound as the years have gone by. I wish I'd sorted myself out at 30 to be honest, but it is what it is and life is great!!
Amanda x

[Jillian Faith]

Started at age 4-5 and just turned 55 last week. I have more feminine clothes, shoes, jewelery now than at any other time, 50 years of dressing and I love it more now than at any other time in my life.

[Fiona Scott]

Started at 13 now 60. Like a lot of others I thought it would go away with getting married. No it didn't, and as I've got older the desire has become stronger. In the early days I did my best to supress the feelings as I thought I was abnormal, but now I just enjoy it. I am what I am and I've learned that being me is just fine.

[Kate's at home]

I too have been dressing for over 50 years intermittently and the last 10 years essentially daily. And yes, the desire continues and grows, as does the 'comfort" that comes with it. Acceptance is the key.

Has anyone seen/read any theories as to this process?

Kate

[mariehart]

I think as you get older your testosterone levels begin to drop so any feminine side you have only gets stronger. On top of that maturity puts perspective on it in a way that your younger self could not. Also you simply get better at it with practise.

I crossdressed intensively over the years until I got married. I purged at that point. I could cry thinking about it now. One very expensive wig went into the garbage. Plus all my favourite clothes. But of course I never actually stopped even though I had nothing of my own. Just opportunities were less. The problem was that I replaced it with drink. Say what you like about CDing, it won't kill you. Drink will.

So I'm off the drink and back shopping and dressing and I feel happier already. The only thing that would make me happier is my wife's acceptance of it. But I don't want to impose it on her.

So yes it doesn't go away and why would it? Think of how much happier we would all be if CDing was just another 'man's' hobby where people giggle at the silliness of it but there was no need to hide. Sigh!

[Wendy me]

Hi Wendy here at 50 something years still very much alive and at it.... i tryed a few times to kill off my fem side ... not good this is who i am kinda a blended mix of "HIM" and "HER".... well more "HER"... look it's not the same for every one ... just can't work that way ... for some it's a sexual thing get gressed and well make a mess... some it's a fanatsy what if i was a girl..... for some they clame all kinds of ways to say the like or want to dress in fem clouthing ..... for me i found out that i am truly Wendy female wheather in panties or boxers ... i am me i rather be fem than male for sure in a lot of ways i am i have a nice set of boobs .....long hair and a few outher stand outs that put me in between....

let it be .... be you .... enjoy don't fight it or look for a reason why ..... it is what it is..............

[Meg East]

Being 63, almost 64, I can say the need to cross dress has never diminished. Being about half retired and now with the kids out of the house the real change is I have more time and money for dressing up.

[Laura28]

Well i guess you could say i am mature, i am 55, started dressing when i was a kid mostly my mothers stuff. i have gone years with out the need or feeling to dress, but it is always there. in the last 4 years it has come back stronger then ever. I know have a full wardrobe and make kit, forms shoes you name it i proably have it and it is never enough LOL. I am lucky my wife is aware and supportive, the children are all grown (only the youngest still living at home till she finishes school). I doubt it will ever end, i know now that is a part of me a part i dont want to loose anymore.

[AlexisRaeMoon]

I'm amazed that this thread is still going! I have to say, I'm not surprised. You've all basically confirmed what I was thinking would be the case.

Then again, this forum isn't ex-crossdressers.com!

[daarleane]

I'm amazed that this thread is still going! I have to say, I'm not surprised. You've all basically confirmed what I was thinking would be the case.

Then again, this forum isn't ex-crossdressers.com!
Like she said, I am surprised that this thread is still active, but it tells a lot about our self. If we didn't have this forum we would would more than likely just be alone with our feelings and wondering why am I different? What is wrong with me? All of the other men are satisfied wearing just male clothes, but this forum tells me that I am not alone. That I am just one of many who feel that way, and unlike the lemmings I will continue to go on my own way.

[Melissa73]

i too started at early age, (11) and im 40 now. I never imagined id be dressing still. (course ive purged and stopped for a few months in between, last time for 1 1/2 yrs while i married. I thought i could give up fr her and be the "man.")

But like u other girls said, crossdressing urges are forever.. and they grow even more......


melissa

[bimini1]

It'll wax and wane but it's still there. Now with young child in house there is stress and pressure about not being able to do it. But I love my family & will try to deal with it. I seem to be changing though as I approach the half century mark in a couple of years.
Lately I've been like, this is so wrong on the moral end. I'm just sick of being sick of it. I have not felt this way in a while. Like fighting against the world and I am finally ready to throw in the towel, you win, ok enough is enough. In all probability that won't happen. So I'm sad, angry at most of the situation.



I dunno about this lower testosterone leading to more femme urges, I thinks it's just the opposite and it's the testosterone that is fueling it in the first place.

[camerashy]

I certainly enjoy it more, I started in my late teen and now my early 40's.

[Alice B]

I'm 71 and did not start until I was 64. Yes the desire gets stronger, amy accessories grow and does my closet, but I work hard to keep in in perspective. I do not worry about how I used to look, just how I present for myself when I dress. It is not necessary to worry about how others see me, but how I feel about myself, as that is all that is really important.

[Jeri Ann]

From my earliest recollection I wanted to be a girl. I will be 63 soon and the feeling is as strong as it ever has been.

[franlee]

In my case it is just as strong or stronger after over 43 years. The difference is that now it has a very stress relieving factor that is addictive even with out the excitement factor. I don't think it will ever be completely gone.

[Emma Leigh]

59 in a couple of weeks and been dressing since I was 8 years old....it never went away but if anything the urge got stronger the older I get....someone said earlier its cos they care less what others think....yeah might be!!

[MissJoanne]

It seems a lot of people have had the same experience as me. First dressed at 12, did so on and off through life, always in private and usually only undergarments. Bought my first wig and outer clothes at age 38. Went out for the first time in January this year at age 55, and it's grown stronger from there.

[Robin777]

I'm 56 and I have been dressing since I was 11 or 12. I don't see me stopping anytime soon. It is a part of me and probably always be a part of me. I enjoy it too much to quit dressing. I like dressing every night if I can.

[Sarah V]

I started dressing when I was around 6 yrs old. I am 47 now, and I intend to continue dressing well into my 60 or 70's if my body hold out.

[Joy3]

Like most of the girls have said my desire to dress has become stronger as I age!!!

[Meg East]

I have been dressing since I was eight or nine. Now, being 63, I have more time, money and opportunity than before. It helps to have an understanding wife. Her best comment to me, "I admire your effort to get dressed up and look nice".

I am looking forward to total retirement.

[Bridgetlagurl]

I don't think it got stronger. I just had this unhappy feeling inside all the time. The only time it went away was when I would dress. Then I just said "this is my life" and came out to my wife. Now even if I am dressed as a man (which is much more of an act than reality) I can handle it. I know when I get home I can be me!
For me it was excepting the fact that I am a woman. I fought hard not to be, but she was much stronger he was. She won!

[sami1952]

my urge to dress got stronger as i aged,then makeup came along and now i fully understand why i crossdresser.

[nancy123cd]

I'm 50+..take it from me , it never stops!

[Robbin_Sinclair]

When you wrote "mature" I was thinking something in the 60 range, which I am too. For me, it has been new. I first discovered the enjoyment after doing some theater that involved cross dressing.

It took a lot of time to put together the fact that I can't pass as a woman without a lot of thinking and practice. At this point passing is not really important. I just like the feel.

It doesn't go away...not for me. Not today.

[VAWyman]

67 and still doing it.

[Michelle V]

I agree, the desire increases as we mature, I just turned 42 and I wish I could dress 24/7. My theory has to do with men's testosterone decreasing as we get older and all those repressed feelings we had growing up just surface with full force. What kind of sucks is that at our age masculine features are more noticeable than when we where younger and our body shapes are also more masculine. The positive aspect is, mentally we are mature enough that we tend to begin to accept ourselves for who we really are...kind of.

[Teri Ray]

59 and still have a strong desire to dress. I am not sure how I will feel about dressing when I get mature.

[Maryesther M.]

At 71 I prefer to do a little creative accounting with the numbers and come up with .....Sweet Seventeen! Next year, all being well, I'll be 27.

Crossdressing for me has long been the camouflage game, the only way I can arrange for myself to look about 25 years younger. I love the look and the turn-on still.

M.

[Brooklyn]

I'm in my 40's, dressing since I was 5, and haven't found a substitute for it yet. I have noticed that my retired girlfriends have more time and opportunity to dress, so they do it more often.

[Nancy (PA)]

77 y.o., and more obsessed now then at any other time in my life.

[Beverley Sims]

I draw your attention to my post #8.
Well this thread is doing the same, a great discussion. :)

[ashleylynn52]

At age 59 I've pretty much figured out that someday I'll just be some old broad on the bus. I don't see it ever going away.

[DianneG]

Like most of the girls have said my desire to dress has become stronger as I age!!!

couldn't agree with you more!

[Siobhan]

I dont like to discuss my age but you can look at my profile! The desire to to dress does not get less with age, although now the opportunity to do so has got a lot less. However the rest of life is good so won't complain

[Ciara Brianne]

I never knew where this was going...I still don't know absolutely for sure. In my early years there was a lot of confusion and guilt over the issue. Over the years my urge to dress has not diminished. I have managed to suppress it when I deemed it necessary, but it has never truly gone away. If anything my urge to dress has increased with age, but I think my personal acceptance of who I am has had a large impact. This is me, I have learned to love myself through accepting this as an integral part of who I truly am.

It would surprise the young me that I still do this, the mature me knows that this is who I have always been.

[sinderella]

I've dressed since 8 or 9, almost 55 now and the desire hasn't decreased one bit...if anything it has increased.

[Christina Kay]

I didn't think I would be CDing at this age 56. But with time as I aged. The desire has only intensified. I know in my fifties, the changes to my body , less chiseled. Maybe leaning toward a slightly softer body. My gynecomastia which I viewed once as a curse. I know view as a blessing, that I so enjoy.:) :) Possibly a chance to be passable. One can only hope :) . Hormone levels decreasing over time, tend to take that male edge down a few notches. Which is nice, makes accepting myself easier. I now like and cherish the feminine side that is maturing as I do. :) hugs

[Bridgetlagurl]

LMFAO when I read yours thanks for the morning smile.

59 and still have a strong desire to dress. I am not sure how I will feel about dressing when I get mature.

[JenniferLynn0370]

I'm 43 now and have dressed since the day I was born...I was brought out of the delivery room in a pink blanket!

[Joanna Maguire]

I am now 72 Have been dressing since I was 7yrs old. Still going strong Live as a woman But I would love to be younger and better looking again I realy past in my 20s.

[Diversity]

As I look back on my years of crossdressing, and now that I am in my 'mature' years, I find that crossdressing is less about eroticism and more about gaining an inner peace. I am also finding it more and more consuming, as I can't seem to stop thinking about it. I just love it!
Di