Shelly2069
12-26-2005, 01:40 PM
As a CD, which I hate being defined by some kind of label, especially one that sounds like a clinical thing, like ADD or something. Here's some of an email I wrote recently, which I'm sure many of you share similar thoughts. I find writing helps to explain myself and in the process, I find I understand more about myself. Honestly, I'd like to be thought of just as a person. Sorry if who I'am isn't what you and the world expects me to be.
Sometimes I use the term transgender, because it sounds more modern I suppose. There's many levels and favors of personality, sexuality and different things that people enjoy.
More to the point, I would fall under the definition of crossdresser, hehehe. I know it has a less than attractive sounding name. A few times a month I dress up for a few hours on a Saturday evening at home. As a side note, 99 percent of male crossdressers do not go and have sex change operations, nor do they have mental disorders.
When your a young crossdresser it's very exciting to try on a pair of heels, hose or female undergarmets. It's something that society tells you not to do as male. I suppose that's part of the thrill. Nobody knows exactly why some men crossdress. Some say lack of a father figure, other say genetic reasons. Maybe it's just preference, why do some people favor chicken over lobster?
On the other hand, a woman can wear anything under the sun and nobody raises an eyebrow. There's no studies on why some woman dare to wear hiking boots, hehehee.
When you think about things in those terms it isn't all that confusing or as misunderstood.
As an older crossdresser spending a few hours dressed up is a release for me. It's an opportunity to remove myself from the pressures and stresses of everday life. For a few hours I get to be somewhat of a different person, it just happens to be of another gender. By doing my makeup, hair(wig), and picking an outfit that compliments my new appearance It's a euphoric and relaxed feeling. My mind is removed from the bills and job, the everday grind so to speak. Some people go fishing for this feeling and some do drugs or drink. Why do I crossdress, I guess it's my preference of choice. Of course, I have many other interests and things I enjoy too.
There is a sexual element to crossdressing as well. There is the taboo factor. In some instances giving up your masculinity can be as exciting, as a woman taking charge in the bedroom. I suspect that due to the social pressure placed on men all our lives, we should all be aggressive Rambo's, most men and women may not feel comfortable with such freedom.
I might not be the typical guy, but I believe there are many benefits such as having a relationship with a woman that the average guy might not achieve. For one thing as a crossdresser we are very in touch with our feels, which leads to openiness. We share more interests in commom. We don't see women as different , but equals. In some sense having felt the pressures a woman faces to be the unachieveable perfect 10, we're mindful when a woman does go out of her way.
I'm not trying to sell you anything, but I do hope you have a better understanding of someone like little ole me, hehehe. There really is much more on the topic, but I hope I might have given insight to your knowledge and comfort level.
10 years ago, we never heard of professional female golfers or even boxers. Nobody thinks twice when a woman steps into what was considered a man's world. Unfortuately, the same standard doesn't apply to men. Most people have a full range of emotions, if a woman can engage in and enjoy the rush of sports, while doning a Nike cap, polo shirt or boxing gloves, why can't a guy engage in a makeover session and experience femininity or is that just reserved for the girls? No men allowed. Certainly just because a woman might enjoy something like golf doesn't mean she will cut her hair off and start power weight lifting, hehehe, anymore than a guy like myself would go get a breast job.
If your reading this and saying what's the point, you already missed it.
Sometimes I use the term transgender, because it sounds more modern I suppose. There's many levels and favors of personality, sexuality and different things that people enjoy.
More to the point, I would fall under the definition of crossdresser, hehehe. I know it has a less than attractive sounding name. A few times a month I dress up for a few hours on a Saturday evening at home. As a side note, 99 percent of male crossdressers do not go and have sex change operations, nor do they have mental disorders.
When your a young crossdresser it's very exciting to try on a pair of heels, hose or female undergarmets. It's something that society tells you not to do as male. I suppose that's part of the thrill. Nobody knows exactly why some men crossdress. Some say lack of a father figure, other say genetic reasons. Maybe it's just preference, why do some people favor chicken over lobster?
On the other hand, a woman can wear anything under the sun and nobody raises an eyebrow. There's no studies on why some woman dare to wear hiking boots, hehehee.
When you think about things in those terms it isn't all that confusing or as misunderstood.
As an older crossdresser spending a few hours dressed up is a release for me. It's an opportunity to remove myself from the pressures and stresses of everday life. For a few hours I get to be somewhat of a different person, it just happens to be of another gender. By doing my makeup, hair(wig), and picking an outfit that compliments my new appearance It's a euphoric and relaxed feeling. My mind is removed from the bills and job, the everday grind so to speak. Some people go fishing for this feeling and some do drugs or drink. Why do I crossdress, I guess it's my preference of choice. Of course, I have many other interests and things I enjoy too.
There is a sexual element to crossdressing as well. There is the taboo factor. In some instances giving up your masculinity can be as exciting, as a woman taking charge in the bedroom. I suspect that due to the social pressure placed on men all our lives, we should all be aggressive Rambo's, most men and women may not feel comfortable with such freedom.
I might not be the typical guy, but I believe there are many benefits such as having a relationship with a woman that the average guy might not achieve. For one thing as a crossdresser we are very in touch with our feels, which leads to openiness. We share more interests in commom. We don't see women as different , but equals. In some sense having felt the pressures a woman faces to be the unachieveable perfect 10, we're mindful when a woman does go out of her way.
I'm not trying to sell you anything, but I do hope you have a better understanding of someone like little ole me, hehehe. There really is much more on the topic, but I hope I might have given insight to your knowledge and comfort level.
10 years ago, we never heard of professional female golfers or even boxers. Nobody thinks twice when a woman steps into what was considered a man's world. Unfortuately, the same standard doesn't apply to men. Most people have a full range of emotions, if a woman can engage in and enjoy the rush of sports, while doning a Nike cap, polo shirt or boxing gloves, why can't a guy engage in a makeover session and experience femininity or is that just reserved for the girls? No men allowed. Certainly just because a woman might enjoy something like golf doesn't mean she will cut her hair off and start power weight lifting, hehehe, anymore than a guy like myself would go get a breast job.
If your reading this and saying what's the point, you already missed it.