Up or Down?

[Frédérique]

right or left (?)

Look or feel?

Since we’re (apparently) exploring opposites, polar or otherwise, I’m inspired to ask this simple question: Is your MtF crossdressing waxing (strengthening) or waning (diminishing)?

I encounter all types on this forum. Some people are becoming more and more like girls, or women, every day, while others are gradually withdrawing, back from whence they came. Still others have reached their level, or plateau, and they are staying right where they are, thank you. I may be one of those stationary girls who is satisfied, has accepted her “self,” and is admiring the view from on high, but I still watch the ones who continue to climb or descend, according to their own desires or circumstances…

I would just like to stay where I am, and not go backwards. I’m not “equipped” to climb higher, either, but I do explore horizontally. I must be ever vigilant to NOT let my crossdressing go on the wane, and this requires a little bit of maintenance, such as regular participation on this site. I’m not going to go any further, unless somebody wishes to take my hand and lead me along, but I might encourage that person to sit with me a while and just enjoy being crossdressed …

So, are you going UP or DOWN? Please wave to me as you go by, OK? :wave:

[Beverley Sims]

Frédérique,
Mine is static.
I would be interested in those that find that their activity is waning, and why?

[lisa_cd]

My desire to cross dress, to be femme...strengthens now with every breath I take. I want, so badly, to look better and better and better. I am completely comfortable with it, and it's a very important part of my life now...

Waving at you!

[Jaymees22]

:wave:Waning or gaining? I think lately I'm on the upswing with it. As good as I felt when I started dressing again a year and a half ago, maybe even more. I think I've found my style or groove finally and I'm very happy to stay at this level I'm at right now, a part time crossdresser.

[suzy1]

I am Suzy. I was born as Suzy and I will die as Suzy. I am transgender.
How can someone like me go up or down?

[Princess Chantal]

Love the analogy, as it is similiar to my friend Rhaina's "park bench". When I first engaged into the local transgender community, I had climbed vigorously with my head down like a rhino (perhaps following others of the herd) for a few years. Once I lifted my head and look around at where I was, I found myself at a distance where I just couldn't enjoy the surroundings. So I made the jaunt back (somewhat against the flow) with my head up and eyes open until I found this enjoyable plateau that I am at now.

[carhill2mn]

Mine stays about the same. If anything, it is increasing.

[TGMarla]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

[ArleneRaquel]

My has been 24/7 for over 9 years years now so I guess the only way is down. Fat chance of that IMO.

[UNDERDRESSER]

Umm,..both?

While I am spending more time wearing items from the ladies department, can't remember the last time I wore men's underwear, and I spend most evenings in skirts, I am not thinking of it as crossdressing so much. I am not trying to look like a female, or even that feminine. I have come to realise that this is how I want to be. Wearing this stuff says something about how I want to be recognized. I want to display a bit, I want to show that I'm not particularly macho, I want to wear colourful clothing that shows off my body. I also find skirts vastly more comfortable than pants or shorts.

This is how I am, and I think there are many more males out there like me, but like me, they are scared of the comments, so they don't dress like this. I don't believe that there is anything wrong with this, or even that it's far from the average male attitude, but we are programmed to see it as different, therefore it must be wrong, deviant, taboo.

It is my hope to make a little difference in my corner of the world.

[NicoleScott]

I'm happy to see the topic is CDing. From the title, I thought it might be about quarks.
I am where I have been for a pretty long time, and plan on staying right here.

[Kate Simmons]

Many of us reach a comfort level with ourselves and the idea of "losing or gaining" is kind of moot because our stance is driven by personal choice. In that sense it just is what it is, nothing more or less, especially if there is nothing to prove.:)

[AllieSF]

I leave the toilet seat up for the next time!

Oh, it is about something else. I do need to read these threads more slowly in my hurry to participate. My dressing started off with a very steep climb at the beginning, plateauing for a while as I tried to find "going with" friends. Once I did that I leveled off somewhat with a very slow climb upward. I love going out and meeting new people and seeing old friends who only know me as Allie. I accept who I am and will let this waning life lead me wherever it takes me. I am equally at home in guy or woman mode, and am just enjoying be me made up of the old or previous one, and the new and growing one.

[Dianne S]

I'm happy to see the topic is CDing. From the title, I thought it might be about quarks.

That would be "strange", no?

Anyway, to answer the original question: My desire to CD is on the upswing, mostly because I have more opportunity now than before.

[Celina]

Mine is definitly in the upswing... And has been ever since I discovered this forum and came out to my GF... Now I have found out what I am and what I wish to make of it...

[Tina_gm]

Some of both for me. In the months leading up to confessing to my wife, it was a major upswing. I was not dressing at the time, but felt the need to explore and express this side of me. Once I did, in the very beginning, I had a lot of wild swings of feeling feminine or masculine. Now, having been going on 10 months I would say that I feel the differences, especially the feminine ones less intense, but I feel feminine more often and dress almost every chance I get. (about 2-3 times per week for 1 to 2 hrs a day, with occasional extended times such as tonight when my wife is with her daughter after her daughter had a tooth pulled.

[Dani0948]

Mostly flat, but a little up.

[Cynthia Anne]

Interesting to say the least! I would have to say my ''desires'' are still full speed ahead! At the same time my ''possibilities'' are pretty much stationary! I'm not where I want to be but going forward, I have too many obstacles holding me in a ''rut'' to do so!

[Brooklyn]

Definitely waxing... Over the past year, I have made more of a conscious effort to integrate my masculine and feminine personalities to level things off, hopefully. Wish me luck!

[KimberlyJean]

I will say mine is maturing, I have a more complete (not more in number of articles of clothng) wardrobe than I have ever had my entire life. I could start wearing my clothes full time and not have to purchase very much else. When I was younger I had alot of stuff but not much of it went together or was wearable outside the house.

[Michelle789]

I'm definitely going more girly. I think when we go through a major stressful time, crisis, setback, or change in circumstances, it tends to cause us to either wax or wane. I had basically plateaued for the past 11 years, thinking I was satisfied with where I was. Then life started to get more demanding, and I started to experience more pressure to be a man and to date and get married, and then I lost my job. I find the more pressure I'm under to be a man, the more girly I get, and wanting to take things to the next level.

Sadly, life has a way of throwing off our balance and can force us to re-evaluate ourselves, and can throw our gender dysphoria into overdrive. I'm definitely experiencing this.

I think if we wane due to such a change in circumstances, it'll come back with a vengeance and we'll wax even more when the opportunity comes.


Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

One day the desire to dress will come back with a vengeance, it always does, and you'll just say enough, I'm dressing no matter what.

[Abbygirl]

I am definitely waxing even after all these years. In fact I'm always looking for a new way to feel girly. more! more!! more!!!

[steftoday]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.
Im so sorry Marla... I know how frustrating that can be. :(

Waxing. Definitely waxing.

[kimdl93]

I'm gradually gaining altitude at a fairly steady climb rate.

[Deedee Skyblue]

[i]I'm happy to see the topic is CDing. From the title, I thought it might be about quarks.[i]

That would be "strange", no?

What a charming topic! I'd say, growing very slowly.

Deedee

[Krista1985]

I've been dressing fir just under 5 years and the answer really depends upon when you ask me.

It's leveled off a bit in the last year or two, but I still go through a waxing and waning cycle of sorts. When it's waning, the stuff just sits in my bat-cave unused. I'm usually occupied with other things in these phases and don't really think about dressing too much. These times can stretch on for weeks, but sometimes during a lull I'll hop on here or take out a few things and partially dress for comfort. I never used to do that, so maybe overall it's trending upwards albeit slowly, in fits and starts.

When it's waxing, the collection comes out of the bat cave and sort of invades my living space. It's like I need to have everything accessible. During these times, I order new things online, add to the collection and try out new looks. I haven't ventured out or told a soul, but I do enjoy those peaks. Usually they'll last a week or so before reducing back to medium or low interest in dressing for a while.

But since you're asking tonight, I'd have to say waxing. I'll see you on my way up Freddie!

[Being Paige]

I would say increasing always.

[Julie Gaum]

The words: circumstances, opportunities, family/SO with or without, financial situation --- all play a part. For me it's very ironic as I start to wave to Freddy --- in many ways the circumstances are almost ideal for full speed ahead - only one cousin within a thousand miles, alone
for first time this year after 57 years, nice wardrobe and, in the last two weeks, as some of you folks already know, been out and about without a problem for the very first time. So why ironic? Something called "age" has caught me with many of the maladies that go with it. Examples that occur one day and less so the next: Bra becomes too tight because of ulcerated esophagus, girdle causes torture due to
stomach issues, --- and so it goes with even hernia affecting groin area --- I try my best for it not to deter the "waxing" but it AIN'T easy.
Morale of the story? Enjoy as much as possible when the time is right --- never know what the future holds.
Julie

[cdtraveler]

Mine is waning, more out of necessity than out of desire. Some days the desire to dress in overwhelming, but the opportunity simply is not there. And as time goes on, with opportunity becomming less and less, I find other things to do to occupy my time.

I find this describes me too TGMarla. For the others who've commented you all look lovely and I hope you are as satisfied and comfortable as possible!
Amanda

[Dalva]

I am Suzy. I was born as Suzy and I will die as Suzy. I am transgender.
How can someone like me go up or down?

Can I answer your question in private Suzi?:devil:

Sorry, I get a bit naughty sometimes.

To answer your question Frederique, I am always moving forward. When I think of where I once was and where I am still moving towards, there is no reason to stop. I still have much to accomplish....and loving every minute.

[Stephanie47]

I'm finding that currently I am waning a little. Before I retired I looked forward to taking a vacation day while my wife worked. Even better was when she would go visit on daughter in the mid west for seven to ten days. Utter bliss. Hang the dresses in the closet. Put the bras and panties in the draw. Line up the shoes under the foot of the bed. Dress 24/7 for a week. Great. After retirement started my pent up desires had me dressing every day my wife went to work. I enjoyed it immensely. I got a lot of domestic chores done, but, neglected too many 'manly' chores in the front yard.

Now? Since the summer ended and I can dress at will again- no desire to do it every day. ???? I think my waning is due to acquiring one too many aches and pains. Also, it's been raining too darn much!

[suzy1]

Can I answer your question in private Suzi?:devil:

Sorry, I get a bit naughty sometimes.

.

I read that twice, then the penny dropped. [I am not the brightest girl in the world]

That's naughty! :heehee:

[Milli Montanari]

Waxing definitely, especially my back! Actually I'm on a slow progression upward with an occasional downward slide. In addition, as I get older, my "don't give a shit what other people think" factor goes up.

[Lynn Marie]

I'm gradually gaining altitude at a fairly steady climb rate.

Me too. After a somewhat bouncy takeoff, I've been able to establish a fairly steady rate of climb also.

[robindee36]

Getting better every day in every way. Onward and upward;)

Hugs, Robin

[Chardonnay Merlot]

I'm trending up, especially now that I have a great group of gal pals to be with. That has been a serious godsend for me.

Being who we are can be a little lonely and isolating at times, at least for me. I have people in my life who know, but a good deal of them know but don't want to know or are indifferent to it. Having a space to share is very limited..

This forum helps with that, but having some face-to-face with others is important, and I have the beginning of that now, and that inspires me to express more and its a force multiplier all around.

I am quite happy with where I am right now among both sides. I find that when I have my opportunities to dress and explore it boosts me when I'm in boy mode, it adds something to my whole being.

[Julie1123]

Right now I'm on the up but just went through a spell of really being down. Almost purged but didn't. I would love to find a nice comfortable plateau to sit down on, dangle my legs over the edge and enjoy the view.

[Frédérique]

I'll see you on my way up Freddie!

I once told a friend of mine on this site to picture me sitting at a table in a restaurant, alone, in a corner, watching everybody come and go. 4+ years later I’m still in the same spot, in fact I haven’t moved an inch in all that time…
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