Allison Quinn
10-08-2013, 10:50 AM
Sorry in advance if this is the wrong subsection for this topic i'm still bad at placing them c: thus why I don't really start too many :P
There was a thread earlier about losing your male identity. It got me into thinking about my actual identity well, I have been for a while. At this point i'm not even sure exactly if I identify as male or female internally. I used to think that it was female, but lately i've been quite happy with my body so perhaps i'm just seeing myself as a human who is being true to his or herself. I don't really know anymore xD The whole figuring out just what the hell I am question has been driving me insane.
I dress, it's not for a sexual reason. It really just makes me feel happy. I know that we all have different reasons for dressing but that's simply just mine. I've found a female identity in myself, but the thought of going on HRT and things like that is either wonderful sounding to me, or incredibly scary. Like I know that I would for sure probably ahve been happier if I were just born female but with the situation i'm in now i've been perfectly happy dressing and being treated just like a person instead of a man. In fact the thought of transitioning actually sort of scares me. I know doing it would not have magical effects, and life would probably be harder for me in particular. So i've found the best in what I have right now and I love it, I've been happy with my body and life and I don't want to change any of it.
Now for the question I have really, am I even able to be considered transgendered? I don't really consider myself a male internally, but at the same time i've been quite happy living in the sex of men. I feel as though I can appear female and whatnot and I'm happy. But really it annoys me that I can't figure it out xD Like am I gender fluid, transgendered. Am I just an effeminate man who leans is sort of odd. At this point, i'm trying not to label anything as it is stressful xD I'm happy being me, but I feel as though i'd like to just have some sort of simple easy cut label that I know I can't really have xD
What do you all identify as internally? Did you go through any thinking that you had to go through before you finally understood it.
like i've gone through all this dressing and to a councilor, and now i'm just realizing I don't need to change anything really to be happy. I think all of this is somewhat interesting so it's quite nice to read about and it helps me sift through my own madness xD If this thread has even been done before please direct me there and if this kind of question is not allowed i'm sorry :c
Thank you for reading have a lovely night :)
There was a thread earlier about losing your male identity. It got me into thinking about my actual identity well, I have been for a while. At this point i'm not even sure exactly if I identify as male or female internally. I used to think that it was female, but lately i've been quite happy with my body so perhaps i'm just seeing myself as a human who is being true to his or herself. I don't really know anymore xD The whole figuring out just what the hell I am question has been driving me insane.
I dress, it's not for a sexual reason. It really just makes me feel happy. I know that we all have different reasons for dressing but that's simply just mine. I've found a female identity in myself, but the thought of going on HRT and things like that is either wonderful sounding to me, or incredibly scary. Like I know that I would for sure probably ahve been happier if I were just born female but with the situation i'm in now i've been perfectly happy dressing and being treated just like a person instead of a man. In fact the thought of transitioning actually sort of scares me. I know doing it would not have magical effects, and life would probably be harder for me in particular. So i've found the best in what I have right now and I love it, I've been happy with my body and life and I don't want to change any of it.
Now for the question I have really, am I even able to be considered transgendered? I don't really consider myself a male internally, but at the same time i've been quite happy living in the sex of men. I feel as though I can appear female and whatnot and I'm happy. But really it annoys me that I can't figure it out xD Like am I gender fluid, transgendered. Am I just an effeminate man who leans is sort of odd. At this point, i'm trying not to label anything as it is stressful xD I'm happy being me, but I feel as though i'd like to just have some sort of simple easy cut label that I know I can't really have xD
What do you all identify as internally? Did you go through any thinking that you had to go through before you finally understood it.
like i've gone through all this dressing and to a councilor, and now i'm just realizing I don't need to change anything really to be happy. I think all of this is somewhat interesting so it's quite nice to read about and it helps me sift through my own madness xD If this thread has even been done before please direct me there and if this kind of question is not allowed i'm sorry :c
Thank you for reading have a lovely night :)