Point of no return

[Cheyenne Skye]

Getting out of the shower tonight I thought I would try something. Took my towel and draped it over my chest. And it just hung there :o. If I had done that just a year ago, it would have fallen right off. I guess I couldn't go back now if I wanted to. So when did you have the epiphany that there was no going back anymore?

[Angela Campbell]

I am not sure when....it wasn't like a one time thing I guess. For a while I felt like I was on a runaway train and was scared to death because of what I was doing but I just knew there was no stopping it. If I had to pick a time it was when I looked in the mirror about 15 months ago and saw a girl looking back and kind of had a breakdown. That was when I knew it was possible. Yet I fought it for a while and slowly I realized I had started transition.

Thinking a bit more....maybe when I came out to my family I knew there was no way to undo this. Once everyone in my life knew there is no way to hide anymore.

[Kimberly Kael]

Pressing "send" on an email message to more than two hundred co-workers was a pretty memorable point of no return for me. I still remember trembling as I set off for lunch, where I kept an eye on responses as they flooded in...

[Megan72]

Haven't hit that moment yet, I am still far to young for any of that woman stuff...but congratulations on your epiphany Cheyenne.

Megan

[Jorja]

For me it was March 21,1980, the day after I was discharged from the US Navy. I started living full time that day and knew I would never return to my former self. I have never looked back and I have never regretted my decision. It has been one hell of a ride ever since. I wake up in the morning and look forward to the new day with renewed hope and inspiration. Life is too short to waste wishing and wondering what if. It is for doing and saying I did.

[dreamer_2.0]

Pressing "send" on an email message to more than two hundred co-workers.....

I've visualized myself in that exact position (though not for a while off). Definitely no going back after that!

[thechic]

For me it was just over 3 years ago .I had been discussing going full time with my family ,then my pager soundes a MVA, I arrived at the fire station in female form , the guy in the crash thought I was a woman,that was an interesting day.

[I Am Paula]

The day my parents welcomed Paula into the family. I realized the new me was for keeps, and we all cried tears of joy.

[Badtranny]

The morning I woke up with breast implants.

There isn't a T-shirt loose enough to hide these things.

[dunkelkreuz]

went out as dude to by wine as i was invited for dinner at a friend's parents. and the lady at the counter as for my id, when i asked why, i was replied that they don't sell alcholics to 14-year old boys. this is what 14 months hrt did to me at that time. my point of no return.

[GirlieAmanda]

The morning I woke up with breast implants.

There isn't a T-shirt loose enough to hide these things.Must be nice to have boobs. I am still trying. The point for me is when I did my first permanent/semi permanent body modification. I pierced my ears. That was a HUGE deal to me. Never did anything like that before. I felt so great after. I felt like after 20 years, I was DOING something about this....thing.

[Barbara Ella]

I guess it would when the wife first realized that I had breasts. I knew that we were in this together, for better or worse, and her continual/growing support has helped me immensely.

Barbara

[Nigella]

The day I went 24/7. At that point I was not even identifying as TS, but considered myself a crossdresser. I knew however, no matter what I would never be a "male" ever again.

[Rachel Smith]

When my soon to be ex told me we were getting divorced. My marriage was the only thing stopping me. December 1st 2012.

[sandra-leigh]

The morning I woke up with breast implants.

Reading that, I am pondering and suspecting that that is part of the reason I would like to get implants. Even if only indirectly, in so far that people would recognize that I am not "just wearing the clothes" or "just going through a phase", that my gender is serious and permanent.

There are other reasons why I want implants. Including that my brain is looking down and seeing the fuller breasts as missing (though less so now than when I was negative curvature.)

[Kimberly Kael]

Reading that, I am pondering and suspecting that that is part of the reason I would like to get implants.

Until you clarified I was reading potential similarities to CDers who flirt with getting caught by their SOs as a technique for removing the need to choose to out themselves. I never quite understood that, but then I've always liked feeling in control of my life. I hear you on the desire to make it clear to everyone that this is who you are and not just some mid-life crisis. Ultimately, I think the only way to convince everyone is to give them time.

It's funny that so many look at surgery, or a name change, or hormones as the irreversible steps. I do know someone who has de-transitioned after all of the above. After all, the fact that you can change your name, hormonal balance et al is the big surprise. That a lot of these are reversible shouldn't be a huge shock. No, the truly irreversible step is letting people know that you're not just like them in the first place. Once we're out, we're out forever.

[Robin Lee]

For me it was the day I came out to every body in the School District that I had worked at for 26 years. No pulling that one back!

[Inna]

when "I" started to mean "she"

[Rachel Smith]

For me it came after feeling the effects of HRT. After 2 months my brain seemed much calmer, I didn't/don't think of negative things all the time. I am much more relaxed and don't yell and scream so much. In short I just feel so much better. It's been about 7 months now and after feeling that there was no way I could go back nor do I want to. I wish I would have jumped off the proverbial cliff years ago. I gotta say the only thing I miss is the sex drive. I no longer have one.

[Angela Campbell]

I do not miss that at all. In fact good riddance!

[I Am Paula]

Rachel- I agree with everything you say here. Sex drive, what sex drive? The few times I've been slightly interested, the feeling passed very quickly, and I could get on with other things.

[gennee]

It was a year after I came out. I was walking in the park when the feeling of contentment swept over me. From that point on there was no going back.

:)

[Bridgetlagurl]

you are not missing anything back here. just keep going, I will do my best to catch up.

[JohnH]

For me it came after feeling the effects of HRT. After 2 months my brain seemed much calmer, I didn't/don't think of negative things all the time. I am much more relaxed and don't yell and scream so much. In short I just feel so much better. It's been about 7 months now and after feeling that there was no way I could go back nor do I want to. I wish I would have jumped off the proverbial cliff years ago. I gotta say the only thing I miss is the sex drive. I no longer have one.

That has been my experience as well. After over two years of M2F HRT my wife is starting to ma'am me.

I also echo the feeling that I wish I had started on the M2F HRT years ago.

Johanna

[Rianna Humble]

I think I knew there was no going back about 6 months before starting my RLE - this was roughly when I started being ill whenever I had to pretend to be a bloke.


I still have a male sex drive but alas my wife feels too ill to have sex with me - I have to settle for Rosie Palm and her five sisters.

I expect we will read about you shortly in one of the medical publications:

2 years on MtF hormones and still not impotent
Speaking with a deep bass voice yet always get "ma'am" never "sir"

It is like something out of a fairy tale and I'm sure the doctors must be queuing up to study why.

[Kimberly Kael]

I expect we will read about you shortly in one of the medical publications [...] 2 years on MtF hormones and still not impotent

Is that really unheard of? My own experience is that the need fades rapidly, but the capacity can remain for quite a while. I can't say I've seen any reliable studies on the subject, mind you.

[JohnH]

By no means I am perceived as a woman all the time when I talk. However, I am amazed that I would still be read as a woman some of the time after I talk.

It take much longer for me to get an erection, and my male sex drive, while diminished is still there. The testicles have shrunk and the semen is clear and greatly reduced in volume.

Johanna

[Rogina B]

:brolleyes:

[Zooey_91]

For me it was after a few very difficult few years during my teens when I finally accpeted who I was, after that I was never going to turn back I'm much happier now. I know transitioning will be hard but I can't wait to start.