Christina Kay
10-27-2013, 07:01 AM
Well the talk happened with my wife. Last week (Friday night)when I sashshayed a little to much , handing her the remote. It was like WTF was that ? You moved liked Ginger Rogers. The feminine mannerisms have been becoming more apparent . I just broken down and told her everything. My wanting to crossdress. She. Had inclinations from my past now there was validation... Early in our marriage(the mixed signals I must of sent) , to finding some lingerie of mine years later. It was a tense night from there on.
Saturday the real hell hit. Can I blame her,Nope. She had ever right, to be upset. Yes I didn't tell when we married. The hurt I caused her, I am ashamed I did that to the one I love. More talking,and questions she was checking on line about CDing. Am I gay ,No. Do I want to be a girl,No. All valid concerns since I turned her world upside down.
I told her about the forum. Being here I felt my sense of where I belong. I told her from reading others posts, to getting some advice. Had helped me. Yes I was wrong for not talking to her. I just didn't understand why the urge to cd this time in my life was overwhelming
She asked me to delete my avatar and messages from my profile. Out of respect to her. Which I did. Sorry to anybody who left a message. We talked about me being on it. Just wanted a fresh start. I really hope she would join.
Sunday the sediment was settling. Said you can wear some of my stuff. Under dress and please don' t announce it. Make a list. We will make a draw up for you . Then the pink fog came rolling in.
Monday after work. Came Down from my shower . Was using her Grace body wash. She knew and said it smelled better on me. She was reading on line about CDs . Another fight , talks of divorce, living as sisters. She had every right to feel this way. About 2am I asked her to come up stairs to sleep. And we talked into the wee hours of the morning. That continued thru the day texting.
When I got home from work. Having dinner, she reached across, held my hands. And asked "are we good" ? I replied yes we are good:battingeyelashes: I said I am no different than last week, except now you know I want wear womens clothes. I am still the same person.
So the boundaries are set. No conventions, no going out dressed. All fine with me. Underdressing and sleepwear okay. New robe, and my own lingerie coming. Shoes okay,,yay. And be aware of color choice don't need a neighbor seeing you. Yes to shaving body, nails just shy of girly length. With the body wash , said it smelled better on me and called me a bitch:doh: I guess that was ice breaking .
My wife didn't want me deny who I am. So I am out of the closet and we now have an elephant in the room to deal with. I must own it. Yes I am a crossdresser:battingeyelashes:
Thank you to my wonderfully understanding wife,who I couldn't live without.:) to my Canadian friend for all of your support, advice, and a willing to listen. To my other friend who is transitioning. Thank you for being the fog lights. Your sage advice , and honesty. Were just what I needed. Hugs Aretha
Saturday the real hell hit. Can I blame her,Nope. She had ever right, to be upset. Yes I didn't tell when we married. The hurt I caused her, I am ashamed I did that to the one I love. More talking,and questions she was checking on line about CDing. Am I gay ,No. Do I want to be a girl,No. All valid concerns since I turned her world upside down.
I told her about the forum. Being here I felt my sense of where I belong. I told her from reading others posts, to getting some advice. Had helped me. Yes I was wrong for not talking to her. I just didn't understand why the urge to cd this time in my life was overwhelming
She asked me to delete my avatar and messages from my profile. Out of respect to her. Which I did. Sorry to anybody who left a message. We talked about me being on it. Just wanted a fresh start. I really hope she would join.
Sunday the sediment was settling. Said you can wear some of my stuff. Under dress and please don' t announce it. Make a list. We will make a draw up for you . Then the pink fog came rolling in.
Monday after work. Came Down from my shower . Was using her Grace body wash. She knew and said it smelled better on me. She was reading on line about CDs . Another fight , talks of divorce, living as sisters. She had every right to feel this way. About 2am I asked her to come up stairs to sleep. And we talked into the wee hours of the morning. That continued thru the day texting.
When I got home from work. Having dinner, she reached across, held my hands. And asked "are we good" ? I replied yes we are good:battingeyelashes: I said I am no different than last week, except now you know I want wear womens clothes. I am still the same person.
So the boundaries are set. No conventions, no going out dressed. All fine with me. Underdressing and sleepwear okay. New robe, and my own lingerie coming. Shoes okay,,yay. And be aware of color choice don't need a neighbor seeing you. Yes to shaving body, nails just shy of girly length. With the body wash , said it smelled better on me and called me a bitch:doh: I guess that was ice breaking .
My wife didn't want me deny who I am. So I am out of the closet and we now have an elephant in the room to deal with. I must own it. Yes I am a crossdresser:battingeyelashes:
Thank you to my wonderfully understanding wife,who I couldn't live without.:) to my Canadian friend for all of your support, advice, and a willing to listen. To my other friend who is transitioning. Thank you for being the fog lights. Your sage advice , and honesty. Were just what I needed. Hugs Aretha