Inna
11-08-2013, 05:30 PM
Elementary Governing Orientation
LOL, well maybe not so laughable, as I feel I am getting a feeling upon the element of self.
As I feel, and do realize I am using "to feel" rather then to know, I am made up of 2 levels of consciousness. One I interact through, the Body-Mind connect, and the other, I interact with however on a much less obvious level, not substantial in this here world yet one governing all creation, the soul!
The latter is my link to the truth within, it is genderless, thoughtless, yet it within it self makes for my path, irregardless of my action or direction within my realm of EGO.
The best I can describe it is simply "love" the unconditional, nonbinding, selfless, non possessive love.
Now comes the transition, gender, congruity and the mechanism of EGO. For the longest I felt as though I carried a mask through which I interacted with the world. That mask was uncomfortable, strenuous and false.
Then came the moment of transition, slowly I felt as though the mask started to disappear. Yet through other conditioning such as walk, movement, poise, speech, body modification, ect. I felt slowly as I was simply taking one mask off in place of another.
Truth is, and that is my truth, I am now sure that womanhood as suppose to manhood is yet another mask, however, it is the mask I want to wear.
All of the requirements of it fit beautifully into my skeletal core of femininity. I feel free to walk talk think and do as I do as I am a woman.
But do not misunderstand the fundamental core of the truth, for the truth resides in the other realm, where being woman as suppose to being a man is simply unrecognized, this is where sole resides, genderless, free of ego and all oppressive mechanisms of existence.
LOL, well maybe not so laughable, as I feel I am getting a feeling upon the element of self.
As I feel, and do realize I am using "to feel" rather then to know, I am made up of 2 levels of consciousness. One I interact through, the Body-Mind connect, and the other, I interact with however on a much less obvious level, not substantial in this here world yet one governing all creation, the soul!
The latter is my link to the truth within, it is genderless, thoughtless, yet it within it self makes for my path, irregardless of my action or direction within my realm of EGO.
The best I can describe it is simply "love" the unconditional, nonbinding, selfless, non possessive love.
Now comes the transition, gender, congruity and the mechanism of EGO. For the longest I felt as though I carried a mask through which I interacted with the world. That mask was uncomfortable, strenuous and false.
Then came the moment of transition, slowly I felt as though the mask started to disappear. Yet through other conditioning such as walk, movement, poise, speech, body modification, ect. I felt slowly as I was simply taking one mask off in place of another.
Truth is, and that is my truth, I am now sure that womanhood as suppose to manhood is yet another mask, however, it is the mask I want to wear.
All of the requirements of it fit beautifully into my skeletal core of femininity. I feel free to walk talk think and do as I do as I am a woman.
But do not misunderstand the fundamental core of the truth, for the truth resides in the other realm, where being woman as suppose to being a man is simply unrecognized, this is where sole resides, genderless, free of ego and all oppressive mechanisms of existence.