dreamer_2.0
12-20-2013, 03:53 AM
Many of you who have read my posts know I am struggling a lot with being TG. I'm gradually making progress in self-acceptance and am slowly coming out to various people in my life (all women so far though, no men). No doubt like many of you, my mind is processing billions of thoughts regarding every aspect of transition from facial hair removal to family and, of course, work.
I've been extremely worried about how my office would take the news. Working in a male dominated department certainly didn't fill me with optimism. It would also be my first time coming out to people outside of those who know me closely. I'd finally see how these people would react to someone who's transgender working along side them.
Despite my decision to transition or not still be a little ways off, I just had to know where my office stood.
Today I had a meeting with my supervisor. Of twelve supes there are only two women, I was so thankful to get one of them. We're not very close, only meeting once maybe twice a month, but today we started talking and didn't stop until an hour later. It was a great conversation and I felt I could trust her. I asked if we could speak somewhere privately and we found an empty office.
Man, I was nervous! Lots of stuttering, staring at my hands, but I told her. I told her that over the past year I'd been doing a lot of soul-searching and recently came to the conclusion that I'm transgender. I admitted that currently I don't know exactly what direction I want to take this but it was important to me to know the company's stance before making any decisions.
She personally hadn't had any experience with anyone transgender was so appreciative of me telling her. She recognized how hard it was and commended me for doing it. She'll speak with HR to get details but knows my job is safe and that they won't stop me from becoming who I am. Granted I don't know who that is yet, but I have a feeling we're about to find out soon.
I can't believe I came out to my boss...am I really doing this!?
In other news, a couple friends got together and got me my first make-up kit as an early Christmas gift! There are so many colors I don't know what to do! Thank god for youtube tutorials. I am so not looking forward to the clown/hooker phase. Gotta learn somewhere though, right?
I've been extremely worried about how my office would take the news. Working in a male dominated department certainly didn't fill me with optimism. It would also be my first time coming out to people outside of those who know me closely. I'd finally see how these people would react to someone who's transgender working along side them.
Despite my decision to transition or not still be a little ways off, I just had to know where my office stood.
Today I had a meeting with my supervisor. Of twelve supes there are only two women, I was so thankful to get one of them. We're not very close, only meeting once maybe twice a month, but today we started talking and didn't stop until an hour later. It was a great conversation and I felt I could trust her. I asked if we could speak somewhere privately and we found an empty office.
Man, I was nervous! Lots of stuttering, staring at my hands, but I told her. I told her that over the past year I'd been doing a lot of soul-searching and recently came to the conclusion that I'm transgender. I admitted that currently I don't know exactly what direction I want to take this but it was important to me to know the company's stance before making any decisions.
She personally hadn't had any experience with anyone transgender was so appreciative of me telling her. She recognized how hard it was and commended me for doing it. She'll speak with HR to get details but knows my job is safe and that they won't stop me from becoming who I am. Granted I don't know who that is yet, but I have a feeling we're about to find out soon.
I can't believe I came out to my boss...am I really doing this!?
In other news, a couple friends got together and got me my first make-up kit as an early Christmas gift! There are so many colors I don't know what to do! Thank god for youtube tutorials. I am so not looking forward to the clown/hooker phase. Gotta learn somewhere though, right?