Is it just a healthy obsession or is an unhealthy one?

[Billiejosehine]

So I have been thinking lately, with the year coming to a close, it seems that all I can think about is wearing women's clothes, being a women, doing womanly things, and waiting in anticipation for the letter of recommendation. And I wonder to myself is this because I'm in a pink fog, is it because it's a new year, is it because of how my marriage is, is it because I finally decided to make a commitment, is it because I'm finally accepting who I am, is it just an unhealthy obsession, or is it because of some other reason. So many things to think about and it's driving me crazy.

[Rianna Humble]

Unfortunately, I don't think that anyone will be able to answer these questions for you, although if you are transsexual, you most probably won't be in "the pink fog".

If I recall correctly, you do have a reputable Gender Therapist, could you discuss these questions with her?

I can say that once I knew I had to begin my transition, it was very difficult for me to concentrate on other things.

[JamieLeigh]

I wasn't able to get a letter of recommendation until after I had two years of therapy. Have you had therapy?

[mary something]

I agree with Rianna that no one can answer those questions for you. Instead maybe it would be good to ask yourself if you're managing your life in a healthy way while dealing with these feelings and taking action about them.

[Billiejosehine]

For the longest time, I have kept my feeling to myself and never dealt with them until now. Last time I let my emotions get out of control (I'm bipolar by the way), I had a mental breakdown and became suicidal. That is of course the beginning of when my feeling about being a women and my CDing came to the surface for the first time. At this point I'm not letting these feeling take over my life, so I believe I'm managing pretty well. I do see a great therapist and they may be the best person to help sort out those questions, but when it's the middle of the night and you can't sleep due to racing thought, I thought this was a great place to get things off my mind.

[stefan37]

If you need to transition. Just be sure it is what you need. This process takes a long time, but tends to get real very fast. Once it is out you can't take it back.

[Billiejosehine]

If you need to transition. Just be sure it is what you need. This process takes a long time, but tends to get real very fast. Once it is out you can't take it back.

I'm getting to the point were it's going going to get real very fast. At the current moment most of my family knows of my feelings to being a women. That's something that I can't take back and a lot of family can't get over or have a hard time processing. I'm currently waiting for my therapist to get back to me on getting a letter of recommendation

[mary something]

At this point I'm not letting these feeling take over my life, so I believe I'm managing pretty well. I do see a great therapist and they may be the best person to help sort out those questions, but when it's the middle of the night and you can't sleep due to racing thought, I thought this was a great place to get things off my mind.

I agree that difficult things are best done when we are as healthy as possible. Keep seeing that therapist and posting because your situation sounds very stressful and you need to make the best choices you can in this situation.