hhdave
12-29-2013, 06:25 PM
I peruse this site every once in a while, and right now I'm wearing some items from some shopping today; some hoop earrings, and a pair of denim leggings. Wearing my black Vince Camuto pumps, and I like how I look and feel. Wait, I'm a guy, and I'm wearing pumps. And women's jean leggings. And I have pierced ears, wearing big hoop earrings. :brolleyes:
Sigh.
I wish I knew why I like wearing women's clothes, especially shoes. I suppose it's like asking an alcoholic why he likes to drink, or why a drug addict takes drugs. True, those do have some more serious repercussions to your health, among other things, but I feel it's an addiction.
It's so easy to say "I don't want to wear women's clothes" and for a while I gave it up, but it keeps coming back. It's also easy to say "to heck with what other people think, I'm being myself and not hurting anyone by wearing them". I just feel like I alienate myself from other folks, and I feel like I'm the village weirdo because I'm not "normal". It almost seems like being a alcoholic or drug addict would be MORE socially acceptable than being some (dare I say it) fruity guy who wears women's shoes and clothes.
Sometimes I wish I had a choice like in the movie "The Matrix". Take the blue pill, and that part of me that wants to crossdress is suppressed. Take the red pill, and you were reborn female. I can't help it that a part of me wishes I could wake up in the morning, pick out a dress to wear, paint my nails, wear some strappy sandals, wear my hair long, and feel pretty.
Just my random musing and venting for the evening. :2c:
Sigh.
I wish I knew why I like wearing women's clothes, especially shoes. I suppose it's like asking an alcoholic why he likes to drink, or why a drug addict takes drugs. True, those do have some more serious repercussions to your health, among other things, but I feel it's an addiction.
It's so easy to say "I don't want to wear women's clothes" and for a while I gave it up, but it keeps coming back. It's also easy to say "to heck with what other people think, I'm being myself and not hurting anyone by wearing them". I just feel like I alienate myself from other folks, and I feel like I'm the village weirdo because I'm not "normal". It almost seems like being a alcoholic or drug addict would be MORE socially acceptable than being some (dare I say it) fruity guy who wears women's shoes and clothes.
Sometimes I wish I had a choice like in the movie "The Matrix". Take the blue pill, and that part of me that wants to crossdress is suppressed. Take the red pill, and you were reborn female. I can't help it that a part of me wishes I could wake up in the morning, pick out a dress to wear, paint my nails, wear some strappy sandals, wear my hair long, and feel pretty.
Just my random musing and venting for the evening. :2c: