sonialexis
02-08-2014, 11:19 AM
I've been in a steady live in relationship for about close to 3 years now. I love her a lot and she me. Now before we moved in together I would often, usually after a drink or two would talk to her on the phone imitating a woman. I would say i'm Sonia, your bf's gay friend. I would usually be dressed at this time. She would play along and talk girly with me. After a few months I came out and told her, I used to play dress up as a child, she was very accommodating and accepting of it. I left it at that, some time later I told her I've done it a few times as an adult too and again she said probably you just like the female form and its okay as long as you're not gay.
So we moved in together after 5 months I was wearing her clothes too. Now our relationship is cute and sweet and for a while when not working I played the role of the sit at home bf, did the laundry, cooked, received her home, dressed also. We never talked of my dressing, she did ask me once if I was wearing eyeliner when she got home. So anyway life went on and so did my dressing up in her absence. We were once on a weekend getaway and all my boxers were wet (yes, because we were on the beach) so anyway casually she tells me I can wear her shorts, which btw is satin, lace trimmed and light purplish pink. I reluctantly gave in (ahem ahem, yea right) that night was an extremely sensuous night with her, i loved it. Now again no mention of it. A year or so later she comes home and probably wants to check her facebook on my laptop, she does so. when I notice she's a little upset i probe, and she says "who's sonialexis" gosh I had forgotten to log off. Nevertheless I still had to answer her question, it was an emotional experience I broke down, felt ashamed, guilty all that.
We do love each other a lot and do plan to marry too, we have not had sex (puritans?), the thrill and excitement of having an SO to dress up with is not very strong as it used to be when I was 20. I would be very selfish to want her to be intimate with me made up, in my lingerie and stockings. She would, want a "man" at the same time I have to fantasise I'm dressed when i want to be intimate with her. i use her make up, her clothes and lingerie, I go shop with her and I love it, I tell her what to wear what not to. I even suggest nail paints, shoes, she knows I love women in stockings and from what I've told her to what she's seen on my facebook I know I've been outed, but I still don't have the guts to talk to her about it and tell her the extent of it, because i don't want to lose her. wow this is getting to be long. I don't have a question but the dillemma and inner conflict is there. I see a lot of the gals talking about how accepting their wives are gosh how I wish I could be open too. I'm sitting here in my lacy panties, black nylon ankle socks painted nails, legs shaved, and a white tank top, would she like that, I wonder and shudder at the same time. Oh and I'm on a vacation, without her so i get to live a full on girly life here. wow damn I'm living it.
So we moved in together after 5 months I was wearing her clothes too. Now our relationship is cute and sweet and for a while when not working I played the role of the sit at home bf, did the laundry, cooked, received her home, dressed also. We never talked of my dressing, she did ask me once if I was wearing eyeliner when she got home. So anyway life went on and so did my dressing up in her absence. We were once on a weekend getaway and all my boxers were wet (yes, because we were on the beach) so anyway casually she tells me I can wear her shorts, which btw is satin, lace trimmed and light purplish pink. I reluctantly gave in (ahem ahem, yea right) that night was an extremely sensuous night with her, i loved it. Now again no mention of it. A year or so later she comes home and probably wants to check her facebook on my laptop, she does so. when I notice she's a little upset i probe, and she says "who's sonialexis" gosh I had forgotten to log off. Nevertheless I still had to answer her question, it was an emotional experience I broke down, felt ashamed, guilty all that.
We do love each other a lot and do plan to marry too, we have not had sex (puritans?), the thrill and excitement of having an SO to dress up with is not very strong as it used to be when I was 20. I would be very selfish to want her to be intimate with me made up, in my lingerie and stockings. She would, want a "man" at the same time I have to fantasise I'm dressed when i want to be intimate with her. i use her make up, her clothes and lingerie, I go shop with her and I love it, I tell her what to wear what not to. I even suggest nail paints, shoes, she knows I love women in stockings and from what I've told her to what she's seen on my facebook I know I've been outed, but I still don't have the guts to talk to her about it and tell her the extent of it, because i don't want to lose her. wow this is getting to be long. I don't have a question but the dillemma and inner conflict is there. I see a lot of the gals talking about how accepting their wives are gosh how I wish I could be open too. I'm sitting here in my lacy panties, black nylon ankle socks painted nails, legs shaved, and a white tank top, would she like that, I wonder and shudder at the same time. Oh and I'm on a vacation, without her so i get to live a full on girly life here. wow damn I'm living it.