shayleetv
02-21-2014, 01:57 PM
Over the last month I have been reading from various sources about problems that some girls have had with their unsupportive spouses. Some spouses tried to ruin the crossdressers life by exposing them to the world. I read about the pain this gave to all involved even the children. I don’t think this was a good idea for me to read about these things, I’m too empathetic and given the fact that I am in a big depression in my life at the present time. I’m in no wise in that kind of relationship, just the opposite. My wife is very supportive and is always trying to let me know how much she loves me and how accepting she is of me in my crossdressing.
While reading of the plight of some of the afore mentioned girls, it got me wondering what would happen if my wife tuned her support of me. What would I do? After considering an assortment of scenarios I thought that I would most likely do this – I’d stop cold turkey and be miserable about dressing, but preserve what I consider far more important to me than dressing. In this choice my life as I know it right now would have to cease. I would have to remove all stimuli about transgender thoroughly from my life to mitigate my thoughts of dressing. I know that it would be impossible to cloister myself completely, but I would at least try. I can be miserable missing the dressing a whole lot better compared to being miserable without my wife, she is everything to me. I pray everyday that there will not be a day I have to live without her because I don’t think I could do it.
Somehow that idea of being miserable about missing the dressing was a whole lot better compared to being miserable without her because of a change in her support crept into a conversation we had about my depression. After I said those words she didn’t say anything for a moment but then came over and put her arms around my neck, kissed me gently and said, “Dressing is something that makes you who you are and what you are is what I love. You have nothing to worry about. Your dressing is just one of the things I love about you and if that wasn’t there in your life then you wouldn’t be the person I have come to love.”
AM I THE LUCKEST GUY IN THE WORLD or WHAT?
While reading of the plight of some of the afore mentioned girls, it got me wondering what would happen if my wife tuned her support of me. What would I do? After considering an assortment of scenarios I thought that I would most likely do this – I’d stop cold turkey and be miserable about dressing, but preserve what I consider far more important to me than dressing. In this choice my life as I know it right now would have to cease. I would have to remove all stimuli about transgender thoroughly from my life to mitigate my thoughts of dressing. I know that it would be impossible to cloister myself completely, but I would at least try. I can be miserable missing the dressing a whole lot better compared to being miserable without my wife, she is everything to me. I pray everyday that there will not be a day I have to live without her because I don’t think I could do it.
Somehow that idea of being miserable about missing the dressing was a whole lot better compared to being miserable without her because of a change in her support crept into a conversation we had about my depression. After I said those words she didn’t say anything for a moment but then came over and put her arms around my neck, kissed me gently and said, “Dressing is something that makes you who you are and what you are is what I love. You have nothing to worry about. Your dressing is just one of the things I love about you and if that wasn’t there in your life then you wouldn’t be the person I have come to love.”
AM I THE LUCKEST GUY IN THE WORLD or WHAT?