frustrated

[GabbiSophia]

I am trying my best trying to get myself together... then as always life steps in... every time I try to step out something happens. I am suppose to go to first group meeting .. and i am sick as a dog and my truck to a crap yesterday and i have to wait for brakes... If I didn't know it i would take these as signs ... last time I went to go out i hit a buzzard and shattered my windshield. . Tell you what life doesn't slow down for you to deal with all this gd crap ..grrr I am frustrated as hell...

[stefan37]

Get well, fix your truck. Then go out

[celeste26]

Yeah I am also in a very frustrating place in my life too. I am expecting a large inheritance and the executor is taking her lovely time about it. She is my older sister btw and she has total control over the estate. Anyway there has not been any good relations with her for decades so I am not surprised I guess. Still I would like to get on with my life except this windfall is hanging over it like a Pinata. It may take until she finally passes away herself before she lets go of it. She is a healthy 64 and looking to live to be 90.

[Xrys]

I understand your feelings. For the last two years i have been working hard at getting my finances squared away to start moving forward. I had finaly got to where i could afford health insurance and only to find out my plan doesn't cover the therapist i want to see and now i have to wait til the end of the year for the next enrolment period before i can even start therapy. Two years ago i set a goal to have started hrt by my 30th birthday. Well, that is in September and i cant even start therapy until the start of next year.

I feel like Mario, jumping on goombas and avoiding near certain death, busting my hump over and over defeating Bowser only to find out my princess is in another castle. I know there is light at the end of this tunnel, i can see it, but it feels like a carrot on a stick when I am running after it on a treadmill.

I feel despite all my effort, it has gotten me nowhere, or at least no closer to my goal. I don't think i would feel so frustrated if i could at least look back and feel like i have acomplished something, anything that brings me closer to my goal, but even the first step seems to continually evade my grasp.