What a couple of days

[BrookCD]

This week has sucked. On Saturday I lost the love of my life. My wife passed away following a battle with cancer. She had been diagnosed with breast cancer back in 2012 (shortly after I was told I was in remission) and went through chemo and a mastectomy. In September of 2013 she was pronounced in remission. Then comes February. She was having trouble breathing and I took her to the ER. They told us the cancer was back and has spread all over. Her Liver, Brain and bones were involved. She started chemo and radiation and fought a good fight. Saturday her body lost the battle. I say her body because the cancer killed her body but not her soul. I have been a mess since then. I have a had a lot of support from my family and friends. My wife had been supportive of my dressing at first but had cooled a bit over time. She did not mind just so long as i did not do it while she was around. My sister and a good friend of mine both know about my dressing and have been supportive. I ended up telling my step mom the other day. She was very cool about it and I was able to sit and watch tv in my nightgown. She texted me the next day and asked if my dad knew. I said no and she said I should tell him and that he would be cool. She told him and he came to me and told me that he infact dresses on occasion and has actually been out while dressed. I was floored. It has just been a week and I am ready to just relax.

[Keri L]

Dear Brook,

I am so sorry for your loss.

My condolences,

Caitlyn

[Rachael Leigh]

Brook so sorry for your loss it's very difficult to loose a spouse.
Pray you will make it thru this time of grief

[lingerieLiz]

Sorry, I know it hurts right now.

[Nikki A.]

As someone who also lost my wife a few years back, I'd also want to offer my condolences. Be strong and I'm glad you have the family's support.

[giuseppina]

Sad to hear about your wife, Brook.

[Beverley Sims]

Brook,
I am sorry to hear about your wife.

Cancer is so cruel.

I wish you well for the future.

Really I cant express my sorrow any more than this.

Stay strong within yourself.

[Stephanie Miller]

Even though I have had the worst couple of months in my life as well, My own pity party will be going on hold after reading about the rough time that has enveloped you. You have my condolences Brook, and know that my prayers will now include you in them to ask for our Lord to hold you tight during this hard time.

[Persephone]

Brook,

So sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hugs,
Persephone.

[LeslieSD]

Sorry to hear about your loss. I am sure enjoying your life to the fullest is what your wife wanted of you. So live on.

[Amanda M]

Brook - I am so sorry to hear of your wife's passing. She must have been one brave lady. Thinking of you,
Amanda.

[Hell on Heels]

I'm so sad to hear about your loss Brook. What a horrible thing for you to go through:
But what an enlightening experience with your father.
Friends and family are always there for you, just reach out when needed and someone
will be there to take your hand.
Much Love,
Kristyn

[JenniferYager]

Brook,

Very sorry for your loss...you and your family are in my prayers.

-Jenny

[kimdl93]

Very sorry about your loss. Of course there is nothing that can make up for your wife's passing. Despite this life goes on, and you have a truly remarkable support group.

[MeganDay]

Brook, 10 years ago, I was in your same position. My wife had Hepatitis C for many many years. At her doctor's recommendation, she tried a new therapy with a fairly new medication (can't recall the name right now), and we thought all was well. Tests detected no viral load at all. About a year later, she woke up, very short of breath. A trip to the ER, an admission to ICU, and two weeks later she was gone. I can say, from personal experience, it does get better. Time has a way of soothing things and making the painful memories into treasured remembrances. There are days I still miss her, but my life is good and happy, and I know she'd want that for me.

Take care, and if I can ever help, I'm a PM away.

Megan

[Gypsy Sam]

Very sorry for your loss. To lose a spouse is so difficult,and having others to relate to makes for some comfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Princess Grandpa]

I can only imagine what you must be going through. HUG. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad your finding support from your family.

Hug
Rita

[MsVal]

Oh, dear Brook, I am so sorry to read about your loss.

There are several regulars here who have lost a spouse. You are in kind, warm, loving company. ((HUG))

There are probably ten thousand thoughts running through your head, bumping into one another, competing for attention, and most of them don't even make sense right now. With time, the cacophony will quiet and you will once again find peace.

This is a seminal point in your life, an unfortunate and uncomfortable marker of when life as a married person ended and your new reality began.

There will be a time to resume 'normal' life. Right now, accept our sympathy and carry on to the best of your ability.

Best wishes
MsVal

[larry]

My Condolences. (f-ng cancer-f-ng medical field-f-ng Doctors)
Sorry for the language but, as you can probably surmise, I am close to your situation...

[Debra Russell]

As all have said soooo..sorry and I know the hurt of losing a loved one .... prayers and peace be with you.................Debra

[RADER]

Brook:
I am very sorry for your loss. I lost my wife about 14 months ago, and it still seams like it
was yesterday. My wife had a Heart and Kidney problems, suffered a stroke witch left her
in an almost vegetable state; I miss her a lot, but know that she is not in pain anymore.
It is hard to lose you "Best Buddy", but with time, you will only remember the good times.
Best of luck.
Rader

[Alice Torn]

My, You have been through A LOT, as you wrote! Some very difficult, and some pleasant surprises. One day at a time. My first . of only a few girlfriends died at age 21 , of suicide, but a long time SO would be a tougher loss.

[Julie Denier]

You'll be in our thoughts and prayers. Be well and take care ...

[Lori Kurtz]

So sorry for your loss. She must have been a very special woman.

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Brook, It is always so sad to read a story like yours I hope that you can find piece in
knowing that your wife is in a much better place now and will be there waiting there
to be with you again someday.

[Tami Monroe]

I am terribly sorry for your loss. I can't even comprehend the degree of grief you must be facing right now. However, like others said, you must focus on the fact that she is in a better place and waiting for you to join her. My condolences.

[donnalee]

Hi Brook
I feel for you and know how much pain you're in; I lost my SO of 43 years 3 years ago to Alzheimer's. It must comfort you to know that your family supports you without reservation. Take good care of yourself; get enough sleep; eat right and let some healing tears flow.
Donna

[BrookCD]

Thank you all for the kind words. I have truly been blessed with support. Her and I were both in a career field that is very close knit. Between her coworkers and mine I have had tremendous support. My guys have been here just about every night to keep me company and help with the kids ( on of my guys has sworn off having kids and is contemplating not getting married next month and moving to Tibet to become a Monk). I am still a hot mess and have said that the only thing keeping me upright at the moment is the centripetal force from my spiraling. I have taken some comfort in sleeping in her nightgown on those night where I can after every one leaves. It is a bit morbid , but than again my wife would have found it humorous, to say I got some nice outfits out of it. I know that I have to press on and do everything I can for my three kids. The thought of being a single father is daunting but I have to make it work as those mutants are my life.

[Nikki A.]

Brook when my wife passed my 2 kids were in HS. In some ways they were the glue that held me together, I needed to be there for them also.
Now that they have graduated college we have a great relationship, even my sometimes pain in the butt daughter calls me every couple of days with problems or questions that she needs a second opinion on. Be strong my friend and love them little mutants, after all they are a combo of you and your wife.