AprilMayy<3
05-15-2014, 10:37 PM
Hey everyone! Been a while since I've posted, a LOT has happened! Pretty sure I got a long post coming up so here we go!
So, if anyone remembers my previous post about my panic attack, then this should come as a massive surprise to those who remember it. So, for a recap of those who did not read it, I had a panic attack while dressed and it scared me for a few days(Like I was constantly shaking in fear of it). So I told a very supporting friend, as well as my mom about, and they both suggested I dress outside of the house(as in not at the house, at someone else's house for example). My friend surprisingly was O.K. with the idea, and even invited me over to her house to wear her things!(I was incredibly shocked and even more so ecstatic.)Since I had known this GG for about 7 years, and she had known about my dressing for 5 as she was the very first person I had ever told(Which was a huge step, telling someone my secret at the young, young age of 13). Anyways, I haven't dressed with her as of yet since we have both been busy but time will soon come for that, she even surprised me with an offering which is easy to accept, but you'll find out about that a little later in the story ;)
Anywho! So without too many details, about a month and a half ago I had found out my parents are splitting up(Still live with them) and that I had to choose between them. Now it was an easy choice that I would go with my mom. A bonus of that is she is supportive, but not involved with my dressing. Now, I wanted to talk with her one night about my dressing, and how active I could be with it at the new apartment. Since it was just my older sister(whos clothes I wear when I dress), my mom and I at the new place, I would have a lot of alone time and opportunities to dress. My mom still was on the fence that it was my escape from reality and that it was an addiction, which I assured her it is not negative and just something I enjoy doing every once and a while. We discussed for many hours, and I'm not even joking, hours haha. My mom can go off on tangents in conversations. So we settled that since I will have a lot of time to dress, that I could dress when no one was home, and that she doesn't want to see it, which is understandable and I agreed.
Now there was still one more matter I wanted to discuss with her, and that was my clothes situation. I have been wearing my older sisters clothes since I started dressing, so I wanted to discuss it with her too. A main reason of that was(besides the fact it was her clothes and wanted "permission" in a way to wear them)she was throwing away a lot of clothes I would wear regularly when I had the opportunity to dress, 2 main items being a super cute leopard bra and my favorite plaid skirt that was my first skirt ever worn(still fits! :D). So I called my sister out to the garage with my mom there, and I straight out asked her. She did know about my dressing when I told her about 2 years prior, which she responded with "Why would I care that you wear my clothes?", which is probably the best thing a crossdresser can hear while looking for acceptance. But the next time I had an opportunity to dress, I received a text from her saying: "Stay away from my stuff...". So I was really confused, and hadn't dressed even though I had the chance. But alas, the next time I had the chance I wore her things, though only stuff I knew for a fact she did not wear. Which I continued to do and she hadn't mentioned anything or asked me about it so I assumed she had either not cared or had not noticed. Anyways! I asked her if she remembers me telling her I dressed, and she did. I then asked her if she remembers her response and still feels that way, for which she did(she didn't care that I dressed). So then, I needed to ask her, I needed her to save the clothes she's throwing away as it would be better for me to have them rather than the trash can. She was totally fine with it, and swiftly saved the clothes in a box for me when we moved. I hadn't asked her about the bra, for I didn't know how she felt about intimates and I. I'd rather just buy my own and keep them a secret.
So this was HUGE step for me, I went from panicking to owning my clothes and dressing for an hour a day for five days straight in under a month! This is extremely exciting for me, and I just HAD to share it with everyone, as you all have been the biggest help of all! :D
On two side notes, 1)I got to keep the plaid skirt! I love it so, so much. And 2)for those who have made it to the end, my friend has offered me something very surprising I wasn't expecting. I told her this story, save the part she's in obviously, and she mentioned to me that my sister was super helpful for giving me her clothes, and said: "I have 2 super cute dresses you can have if you want! Of course, you gotta come over and try em on first so we have a dressing session for you relax and get some more clothes to keep!" This blew me away, and just made my month haha.
So that's my tale for a better future, thank you to all who read it, and thank you all for your amazing support! :)
So, if anyone remembers my previous post about my panic attack, then this should come as a massive surprise to those who remember it. So, for a recap of those who did not read it, I had a panic attack while dressed and it scared me for a few days(Like I was constantly shaking in fear of it). So I told a very supporting friend, as well as my mom about, and they both suggested I dress outside of the house(as in not at the house, at someone else's house for example). My friend surprisingly was O.K. with the idea, and even invited me over to her house to wear her things!(I was incredibly shocked and even more so ecstatic.)Since I had known this GG for about 7 years, and she had known about my dressing for 5 as she was the very first person I had ever told(Which was a huge step, telling someone my secret at the young, young age of 13). Anyways, I haven't dressed with her as of yet since we have both been busy but time will soon come for that, she even surprised me with an offering which is easy to accept, but you'll find out about that a little later in the story ;)
Anywho! So without too many details, about a month and a half ago I had found out my parents are splitting up(Still live with them) and that I had to choose between them. Now it was an easy choice that I would go with my mom. A bonus of that is she is supportive, but not involved with my dressing. Now, I wanted to talk with her one night about my dressing, and how active I could be with it at the new apartment. Since it was just my older sister(whos clothes I wear when I dress), my mom and I at the new place, I would have a lot of alone time and opportunities to dress. My mom still was on the fence that it was my escape from reality and that it was an addiction, which I assured her it is not negative and just something I enjoy doing every once and a while. We discussed for many hours, and I'm not even joking, hours haha. My mom can go off on tangents in conversations. So we settled that since I will have a lot of time to dress, that I could dress when no one was home, and that she doesn't want to see it, which is understandable and I agreed.
Now there was still one more matter I wanted to discuss with her, and that was my clothes situation. I have been wearing my older sisters clothes since I started dressing, so I wanted to discuss it with her too. A main reason of that was(besides the fact it was her clothes and wanted "permission" in a way to wear them)she was throwing away a lot of clothes I would wear regularly when I had the opportunity to dress, 2 main items being a super cute leopard bra and my favorite plaid skirt that was my first skirt ever worn(still fits! :D). So I called my sister out to the garage with my mom there, and I straight out asked her. She did know about my dressing when I told her about 2 years prior, which she responded with "Why would I care that you wear my clothes?", which is probably the best thing a crossdresser can hear while looking for acceptance. But the next time I had an opportunity to dress, I received a text from her saying: "Stay away from my stuff...". So I was really confused, and hadn't dressed even though I had the chance. But alas, the next time I had the chance I wore her things, though only stuff I knew for a fact she did not wear. Which I continued to do and she hadn't mentioned anything or asked me about it so I assumed she had either not cared or had not noticed. Anyways! I asked her if she remembers me telling her I dressed, and she did. I then asked her if she remembers her response and still feels that way, for which she did(she didn't care that I dressed). So then, I needed to ask her, I needed her to save the clothes she's throwing away as it would be better for me to have them rather than the trash can. She was totally fine with it, and swiftly saved the clothes in a box for me when we moved. I hadn't asked her about the bra, for I didn't know how she felt about intimates and I. I'd rather just buy my own and keep them a secret.
So this was HUGE step for me, I went from panicking to owning my clothes and dressing for an hour a day for five days straight in under a month! This is extremely exciting for me, and I just HAD to share it with everyone, as you all have been the biggest help of all! :D
On two side notes, 1)I got to keep the plaid skirt! I love it so, so much. And 2)for those who have made it to the end, my friend has offered me something very surprising I wasn't expecting. I told her this story, save the part she's in obviously, and she mentioned to me that my sister was super helpful for giving me her clothes, and said: "I have 2 super cute dresses you can have if you want! Of course, you gotta come over and try em on first so we have a dressing session for you relax and get some more clothes to keep!" This blew me away, and just made my month haha.
So that's my tale for a better future, thank you to all who read it, and thank you all for your amazing support! :)