Getting to my inner peace....

[Diversity]

I am sitting here this evening, really thankful to the members of this site. My wife is a great lady who doesn't want to know anything about my CD'ing, yet has been so very supportive in her ways, as she knows I wear panties every day, and has no problems with me wearing a nightgown to bed every night. What she doesn't know is the frustration I have been feeling lately as I have had NO time to CD in months. So tonight I put on a bra (the one I am wearing now) and underdressed with a sweatshirt. I then (for the first time ever) went downstairs and kissed her and told her I would be in my workshop for about 90 minutes, to work on my bike while she worked on her homework. Then I'd come down and we'd cook dinner together. I am heading to my bike, but I just had to check into this site firstly.
Anyways, my concern is that when I take off my bra tonight, my bra lines will show. Yes, the smart thing is to take it off now, but I don't want to, as it has been so long since I got the opportunity to wear something feminine besides panties and my nightgown.
How many of you have had the pressure build-up of the 'pink fog' override your common sense? I just know I am going to get caught out tonight when we go to bed, but I just am not ready to take off my bra just yet. I am at an inner peace right now and am enjoying my state of mind. I'll get to my bike in a few minutes, but having made the decision I have made, means that I will have to test my creativity tonight when the time comes....
Di

[Deedee Skyblue]

I have this struggle sometimes - I want to wear something out, and yet, it's against the rules I've agreed to... As a recovering alcoholic, it is similar to the struggles I used to have about 'just one drink won't hurt'. I think about the consequences, and what I would lose if I give in, and I've found that if I can resist for 15 minutes, the compulsion usually lessens. In the case of dressing, I usually promise myself a reward of dressing more completely later, and then I find some way to be sure the reward happens. Maybe you can be more creative in finding time to dress when it won't cause you problems?

Good luck!

Deedee

[Diversity]

Thank you for your comments, Deedee.
It won't be a major problem, but it will be a bit uncomfortable if I am caught, as I will most likely get the 'raised eyebrow' so-to-speak.
I'll know in a few hours!
Di

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Di, Bra lines is a badge of courage.
Some times when I take my wig off I will have a small wig line on my forehead.

[Beverley Sims]

Bra lines may be a badge of courage, but tan lines are a tattoo that washes out eventually.

You have to live with those for a period of time. :)

[DonnaT]

Put your nightgown on when by yourself and only when the lights are going to be off and you will be going straight to bed.

[Marsha My Dear]

I get the notion you're setting up something that can either go quite well or end up really ugly. Either way your wife is being put under pressure. If it turns out to be an opportunity to gain her trust and permission to underdress more often, have that conversation at bedtime. But if she thinks you're pushing her limits and being deceptive, and she's like my wife, you're not going to sleep well tonight.

[Marcelle]

Hi D. Is there room to renegotiate with your wife and perhaps work in a few other items of female clothing into your wardrobe for those times when you just need a little extra pick-up? Perhaps it is time for a little bit of communication rather than waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Hugs

Isha

[September]

Di, I've been sitting here trying to think of some good advice. You posted over a week ago, so I'm guessing something happened. As the wife of a CD, I know that secrecy and hiding create a lot of anxiety for me. When we're open and honest--even though we may be confused or hurt--we both feel a lot better. I hope you will find a way to express your feelings and I hope your wife will find a way to be more accepting of your desires. Hugs!!!