Rachel Smith
06-22-2014, 06:13 AM
I have been feeling a bit down lately. I am not sure why. Nothing serious just a blah kinda feeling. Back is still sore, boobs still not growing.
I don't really feel like writing and I need to send an email to one of my cousins and a nephew. Speaking of Jordan I received an invite to his wedding in May of next year. It was addressed to Aunt Rachel, how cool is that:)? I feel I need to write and make sure he and Laura understand what may happen if I go, the quiet whispers and such. Then there is his Dad who is the biggest redneck manly man you will ever meet and he is not a very happy or accepting person. I don't want to take away from THEIR day. There was a note in the invite that said he can't imagine what I have been or am going through but he is trying to understand. I worry more about the affect it has on other people because I know how hard it was for me and I don't wish to make anyone else's life more complicated by this dilemma that is my life. Perhaps that is the reason for my doldrums as I do so want to go but I also don't want to be a distraction. On the other hand then EVERYONE in my immediate family will know and it will complete my coming out.
All I want to do is sleep and that is usually what I do when I have something I have to deal with but don't really want to.
Any help from those that have gone before me will be appreciated. Any opinions from those that haven't are welcome as well.
Hugs
Rachel
I don't really feel like writing and I need to send an email to one of my cousins and a nephew. Speaking of Jordan I received an invite to his wedding in May of next year. It was addressed to Aunt Rachel, how cool is that:)? I feel I need to write and make sure he and Laura understand what may happen if I go, the quiet whispers and such. Then there is his Dad who is the biggest redneck manly man you will ever meet and he is not a very happy or accepting person. I don't want to take away from THEIR day. There was a note in the invite that said he can't imagine what I have been or am going through but he is trying to understand. I worry more about the affect it has on other people because I know how hard it was for me and I don't wish to make anyone else's life more complicated by this dilemma that is my life. Perhaps that is the reason for my doldrums as I do so want to go but I also don't want to be a distraction. On the other hand then EVERYONE in my immediate family will know and it will complete my coming out.
All I want to do is sleep and that is usually what I do when I have something I have to deal with but don't really want to.
Any help from those that have gone before me will be appreciated. Any opinions from those that haven't are welcome as well.
Hugs
Rachel