Josephine
06-22-2014, 04:58 PM
This is the first time I have made a post in this section, so Hi to everyone. I am almost 60 years old, and have denied and fought with myself for far to long about what I really am. I have always known i am a woman, but hid it, stuffed it, denied it, and hated myself for it. I have finally decided to change my life around,and try to get some happiness out of life before its too late. I have been living full time as a woman for the past year, and 75% for the year before. I finally realize that it is so much more than looking like a woman, clothes, makeup, etc. I have seen many therapists before, but Friday last week I went to see the intake evaluation therapist at the U. of Minn. Sexual Health Center. It took me almost 5 months to get an appointment with him. He asked me questions for an hour, then we talked for another half hour. In the end he say's, "I am ordering an appointment at one or our Dr.s about hormone therapy for you". They will call you no later than this coming Monday. He also said to let him know when I was ready for any additional steps to transition. I told him, "ASAP I would like to do the SRS, as I am not getting any younger," LOL. He said, "as soon as you are ready", which i think is wonderful! I asked him if he was going to "label" me? He said, "As far as i am concerned, you are transgendered, and a woman. I was so happy it was unbelievable, like a huge brick being taken off my shoulders. He suggested joining a group therapy, or see him again. Do you ladies think group, private therapy, or none at all? Is it an absolute that you must see a therapist, or is it voluntary? Do you think I am weird to think I don't need a therapist?
I don't think I have ever smiled so much in my life as i did on Friday last week. On the way home, I started crying because of all the time I spent being what I am not. I will not feel guilty about it though, because I did raise 2 wonderful daughters. I am really hoping that the hormones will help me, as I have read from other girls on this site, I am ready. Nobody or nothing is going to stop me from being a whole woman.
My brothers, sisters, daughters and some friends think that its probably the right thing for me. My sisters both said that me being a transsexual makes things about my life make a lot more sense to them. Everyone has been so understanding and loving, it makes me feel sad for all the ones that are going through hell with their families and friends. I have read posts here about girls saying that they are 35 and think they are too old to transition. I say you are not too old unless you are dead! At least I will go out a happy girl, instead of a miserable male. Knowing that I am transitioning makes me the happiest girl in the world!! Sorry if i have been ranting, but I had to share this with the world!
Josephine
I don't think I have ever smiled so much in my life as i did on Friday last week. On the way home, I started crying because of all the time I spent being what I am not. I will not feel guilty about it though, because I did raise 2 wonderful daughters. I am really hoping that the hormones will help me, as I have read from other girls on this site, I am ready. Nobody or nothing is going to stop me from being a whole woman.
My brothers, sisters, daughters and some friends think that its probably the right thing for me. My sisters both said that me being a transsexual makes things about my life make a lot more sense to them. Everyone has been so understanding and loving, it makes me feel sad for all the ones that are going through hell with their families and friends. I have read posts here about girls saying that they are 35 and think they are too old to transition. I say you are not too old unless you are dead! At least I will go out a happy girl, instead of a miserable male. Knowing that I am transitioning makes me the happiest girl in the world!! Sorry if i have been ranting, but I had to share this with the world!
Josephine