CynthiaD
08-14-2014, 09:52 AM
Like many others, I occasionally have moments when this whole crossdressing thing seems silly, and I start wondering why on earth I'm doing this. When this happens, I have two childhood memories that I use as touchstones to remind myself who I am.
The first was reading "Huckleberry Finn" when I was 10 years old. I came to the part where Huck dresses as a girl to go get food. That part was fine, but when he got back to the hideout he took off his girl clothes and put back on his ragged old boy clothes. I couldn't understand why anyone would do that. It was so weird to me, I just couldn't read any more. To this day, I've never finished the book.
The second was another book I was reading a couple of years later. Four children, two boys and two girls, got an old trunk full of clothes, which they were going to use as costumes for a play. When no one was looking, one of the boys put on a fancy dress and went dancing around in it. Everyone had a good laugh, and eventually he said "Well, I guess I'd better take off my finery!" My instantaneous thought was "I wouldn't. If I had a fancy dress like that I'd never take it off."
These two incidents remind me that I've always known who I was. That this is the right path for me. That it isn't silly. That it's something I've wanted all my life, and that it's a good thing.
Do any of you have touchstones?
The first was reading "Huckleberry Finn" when I was 10 years old. I came to the part where Huck dresses as a girl to go get food. That part was fine, but when he got back to the hideout he took off his girl clothes and put back on his ragged old boy clothes. I couldn't understand why anyone would do that. It was so weird to me, I just couldn't read any more. To this day, I've never finished the book.
The second was another book I was reading a couple of years later. Four children, two boys and two girls, got an old trunk full of clothes, which they were going to use as costumes for a play. When no one was looking, one of the boys put on a fancy dress and went dancing around in it. Everyone had a good laugh, and eventually he said "Well, I guess I'd better take off my finery!" My instantaneous thought was "I wouldn't. If I had a fancy dress like that I'd never take it off."
These two incidents remind me that I've always known who I was. That this is the right path for me. That it isn't silly. That it's something I've wanted all my life, and that it's a good thing.
Do any of you have touchstones?