athena23
09-09-2014, 11:42 PM
So funny/awkward thing happened to me tonight. I play in a band and we have a new bass player that our guitarist knew and the rest of have known each other forever and played together for 5 years.
He was taking about a decision he had to make and how he hated being in limbo. Thinking about my illness and my recent unemployment, I said that I knew what it was like to be in limbo and at some point I had to take control and start living my life. Jokingly, he said " So when are you starting your transition?" And my friend said " he started a few months ago". I was thinking of my decision to start a business instead of a job. I just laughed through the moment but for a second, I wondered and my heart fluttered in anxiety. Mostly because I have been doing a lot of self-examination this summer and recently came out to my wife that I am having strong thoughts about breast enhancement.
Bear in mind I was (and have always been) in drab with my friends and nobody knows about my being TG accept my wife.
Coincidence or can straight guys sense a CD?
Shared this with my wife and she said " is this what is happening, the beginning of your transition" and I honestly said, I did not know. That said, I have no plans to transition but am thinking more about talking to a gender therapist. A side note: this morning I hand washed some sports bras I got recently with the intention of under dressing. I hung them in our bathroom to dry. For the first time in a long time my wife got home before me. I went to start dinner and when she went upstairs, I mentioned that I had left some things hanging in the bathroom. Seeing the bras freaked her out and all I could say was that it was my intention that I would be home before her and she wouldn't have seen them. She was disturbed but said that doesn't me she maybe won't mind it in the future. I assured her that it was ok to feel what she felt and not to worry about it.
He was taking about a decision he had to make and how he hated being in limbo. Thinking about my illness and my recent unemployment, I said that I knew what it was like to be in limbo and at some point I had to take control and start living my life. Jokingly, he said " So when are you starting your transition?" And my friend said " he started a few months ago". I was thinking of my decision to start a business instead of a job. I just laughed through the moment but for a second, I wondered and my heart fluttered in anxiety. Mostly because I have been doing a lot of self-examination this summer and recently came out to my wife that I am having strong thoughts about breast enhancement.
Bear in mind I was (and have always been) in drab with my friends and nobody knows about my being TG accept my wife.
Coincidence or can straight guys sense a CD?
Shared this with my wife and she said " is this what is happening, the beginning of your transition" and I honestly said, I did not know. That said, I have no plans to transition but am thinking more about talking to a gender therapist. A side note: this morning I hand washed some sports bras I got recently with the intention of under dressing. I hung them in our bathroom to dry. For the first time in a long time my wife got home before me. I went to start dinner and when she went upstairs, I mentioned that I had left some things hanging in the bathroom. Seeing the bras freaked her out and all I could say was that it was my intention that I would be home before her and she wouldn't have seen them. She was disturbed but said that doesn't me she maybe won't mind it in the future. I assured her that it was ok to feel what she felt and not to worry about it.