Kaitlyn Michele
10-22-2014, 07:28 AM
I don't post a lot of other people's stuff, but in my local group a woman posted this and it really blew me away...
Recently I've had a lot of thoughts about what it really means to "do what I did".....my own suffering of my own transsexuality is primarily about shame. I realize now (and its really well said in the following piece) that some part of me wanted surgeons to cut the shame out of me, that the shame is what hurt me so badly that I couldn't bear to look at it.....that shame was reflected in my appearance and my body parts....sometimes I feel ashamed that I felt that way(that's the way shame is ...its like water...it just flows)...recently I've been actively dealing with it by confronting my own habits and behaviors....i'm trying to separate out the loner in me from the ashamed loner in me if that makes any sense...in the past months I've started to reach out to local groups and meet people and its been very helpful in making me understand where I am "doing great" and where I still have work to do....
Perhaps because i'm really focused on it right now, a lot of what Ms Wilchins talks about came through loud and clear to me... some of it seems revelatory to me , some of it is more about just reminding me about what I am and why I am here in this form today...but I came away incredibly impressed by this person that i'm embarrassed to say I never heard of until today..
In any case, I think its worth reading.
Fair warning, the link is from an Anne Lawrence website...and when it was sent to me, I ignored it for that reason but I was encouraged to check it out and i'm glad I did...
http://www.annelawrence.com/sermon.html
Recently I've had a lot of thoughts about what it really means to "do what I did".....my own suffering of my own transsexuality is primarily about shame. I realize now (and its really well said in the following piece) that some part of me wanted surgeons to cut the shame out of me, that the shame is what hurt me so badly that I couldn't bear to look at it.....that shame was reflected in my appearance and my body parts....sometimes I feel ashamed that I felt that way(that's the way shame is ...its like water...it just flows)...recently I've been actively dealing with it by confronting my own habits and behaviors....i'm trying to separate out the loner in me from the ashamed loner in me if that makes any sense...in the past months I've started to reach out to local groups and meet people and its been very helpful in making me understand where I am "doing great" and where I still have work to do....
Perhaps because i'm really focused on it right now, a lot of what Ms Wilchins talks about came through loud and clear to me... some of it seems revelatory to me , some of it is more about just reminding me about what I am and why I am here in this form today...but I came away incredibly impressed by this person that i'm embarrassed to say I never heard of until today..
In any case, I think its worth reading.
Fair warning, the link is from an Anne Lawrence website...and when it was sent to me, I ignored it for that reason but I was encouraged to check it out and i'm glad I did...
http://www.annelawrence.com/sermon.html