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PretzelGirl
11-01-2014, 07:51 AM
I have passed one month of being full-time and I am in disbelief if anything. I even commented to my wife last night the same as I sat in the living room staring into space tearing up thinking that I can't believe it is this way. This isn't the first time I did that.

It is not just the behavior of everyone, although that has been fantastic. My family has been great. Last time I called my Mom she said Hi Sue right away and for the first time. The rest have been more than fully supportive. There is some pullback from men that I sense and that isn't a big surprise. I left the team. But the engagement of the women has been amazing. I suspect that will settle out when the newness wears down. But only for some at work I believe since I was mostly out outside of work for a while. So that should be the new normal.

My HR has been fantastic also. They pretty much let me write the book when I told them. This week I got invited to HR and I was asked to review an article going out in a monthly manager's newsletter. The article was on diversity but only got one paragraph in before it was about transgender individuals in the workplace and how to treat them. I commented on how well written it was and was told the information was from a site that I recognized right away as when I first told my HR rep, I gave him that link.

So I find I have to make the effort mentally to let things start normalizing already. I was ready to be an educator and now realize people may want to ask questions later, but right now don't, possibly while feeling out the situation. Out of the questions/statements asked, I was surprised at the most common. I was asked if I was gay once, surgery three times, but almost everyone stated that they were afraid they would slip and say Steve or misgender me and not want to offend me. And I could sense this was from politeness and not fear of repercussions. I assured everyone it would happen and not worry about it as it will take time. After a few, I used a story of talking to myself and saying Steve in error just to ease their fears. Are they slipping? Very few. One guy is perfect outside of meetings and in front of the directors slips as I assume his mind is deep into the topic. This week he actually caught it and corrected himself. Other than that, I think I have been "he" twice and that is it. Of course I had to "Steve" myself once mindlessly, so who can get mad. :D

Angela Campbell
11-01-2014, 09:54 AM
I found that to be the case as well. At work no one misgenders me and my old name has been forgotten. Never a slip at all. The only time I ever experience that is from my Mom. I guess 56 years is hard to let go of.
In truth most of the time I am no longer aware of the change. Every thing seems so natural now.

I Am Paula
11-01-2014, 10:43 AM
At one month full time, I still felt like a kitten exploring the world. Stop to smell every leaf, in complete wonder that I had never seen it like that before.
The misgendering stops, so don't worry too much. I misgender myself more often than other people do now.

kimdl93
11-01-2014, 11:30 AM
I am so glad to hear that, by and large, your first month as full time has gone exceedingly well. It's encouraging to know that people have responded so positively both in your personal and professional spheres.

KellyJameson
11-01-2014, 08:48 PM
To me acceptance of the gender I know myself to be, goes beyond feeling respected and enters the domain of feeling loved.

In my opinion it is particularly precious when offered from those who knew you before.

It is nice to see you extend kindness and patience to those who are concerned about making a mistake.

Giving and receiving love is what its all about.

PretzelGirl
11-01-2014, 09:52 PM
Kelly, I feel that I have to keep others in mind. I have seen some bad examples where they transition and walk around with a chip on their shoulder. That is exactly backwards. If we can't be understanding that others are catching up but care, then how can we ask for their understanding?