Back with a 6.5 month HRT update!!!

[dreamer_2.0]

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Well, perhaps not quite like the above...but close enough to make no matter. Seriously though:


Small breast growth (kinda sore at times but not nearly as bad as some make it out to be). I won't be auditioning for any beer commercials just yet.
Skin does appear a bit softer
Body hair still equivalent to a forest, but does grow back slightly slower
Emotions? As happy and optimistic as ever! Sarcastic, too. There is less anger and I'm not as irritable as before HRT. The depresion, self-pity, sense of hopelessness and despair are still alive and well...No tears yet though. Seriously, it's like I just can't cry. Some describe bawling during a commercial whereas I didn't even feel my eyes water after watching a lovable TV character get her head blown off on-screen.
GD is still an extrememly powerful foe but it does feel slightly less...I'm not sure how to describe it, slight less intense, maybe.
No hint of seeing "her" in the mirror, none.


It's been..uh...quite the roller coaster so far, ladies.

Time to go back into hiding.

Take care all,

Holly

[Michelle789]

Welcome back Holly!!! It's really great to see you here.

The roller coaster ride is totally normal. I've been through one myself, between the hormones themselves, the ups and downs of coming out to my family, and the ups and downs of being in my first relationship ever.

[whowhatwhen]

Are you keeping up with regular bloodwork and your endocrinologist?
Make sure your levels are okay and just be patient, I've read that it can take a year for some to see significant changes.

Failing that, some provinces cover a BA if there has been no significant growth.

[Jorja]

It sounds as though you have about normal results for 6.5 months. Remember, this doesn't happen overnight and can take years.

[whowhatwhen]

Here's a fun story:
I'm just a week away from 9 months HRT and my legs can pass for a lumberjack's*.

All in good time my dear, some things you might not notice could be noticeable to others.
We're the worst judges of our own appearance.

*I'm really, really lazy and I keep postponing epilation.

[AmandaM]

Welcome back. And yes, Beth dying was sad!

[dreamer_2.0]

Welcome back Holly!!! It's really great to see you here.

The roller coaster ride is totally normal. I've been through one myself, between the hormones themselves, the ups and downs of coming out to my family, and the ups and downs of being in my first relationship ever.

The roller coaster comment was facetious as their really hasn't been a roller coaster ride, yet. :P That said, I have definitely come out to more and more people and the response has been tremendous, so far. It really does feel good to talk with them. Mind you, I haven't met much resistance so I haven't really been challenged there yet, beyond my brain being an absolute dick-wad sometimes, that is.


Are you keeping up with regular bloodwork and your endocrinologist?
Make sure your levels are okay and just be patient, I've read that it can take a year for some to see significant changes.

Failing that, some provinces cover a BA if there has been no significant growth.

Coincidentally I just went for some lab work yesterday and have a nice lovely bruise on my arm from where the lab worker took the blood. Perhaps she was having an off day as typically there is no bruising. Next actual appointment to get the results of the blood work isn't for a couple more weeks unfortunately. Not sure about everyone else but the clinic I go to has absolutely terrible hours, open only two days a week...typically ones I am working. Needless to say I'm quite curious about how things are going from a medical perspective. Kind of hoping for a dosage increase. While I still have some ambivalent feelings towards transitioning (it's safer living in hiding despite the misery), I do feel much stronger towards it being the right decision. An expensive decision. A stupid decision. But the right decision.

BA covered in some provinces? I'll have to look into that but doubt MB is one of them.


It sounds as though you have about normal results for 6.5 months. Remember, this doesn't happen overnight and can take years.

Ohhhhh but Jorja!!! I want it now!! :P I know it is not going to be an overnight change. It's hard to accept that despite the unequivocal truth of it. I know a lot more about transition now than I did 6.5 months ago, but admit I still know squat compared to those who've gone before me. But based on what I've looked at, what I've seen, who I've talked to; I really feel as if I should be further along than I am at this point. Not much more, just something a little more obvious that this is real and possible. True I've got some itty bitty boobies but they could also be moobs from all the fast food I eat. I am concerned my endo is being too conservative as I'm still on the original dose of E as when I began. I believe most, if not all, people I've spoken to on the subject had at least some sort of E increase by now. I just think I'm ready for some more.


Welcome back. And yes, Beth dying was sad!

Beth? Oh dear god, no! No, not Beth! I'm not caught up in Walking Dead!! I was talking about Donna in Sons of Anarchy, I just start watching the series....but don't worry, someone already ruined Beth's death for me which is partly why I'm not caught up, I don't want to see her die. You're off the hook. ;)