Cindy J Angel
01-23-2015, 03:11 AM
Hi well yesterday i was out seeing a friend i haven't sean in 3 mouths. Well on the way home it was like what the hell am i doing. I dress as a woman all most aver day. And when i am out with the wife iam usually miss gendered, boy does she get pissed. So on the way home it hit me pretty hard what am i doing. Am i going too far pushing it. I know she is most likely freaking out some. Well i told my self get home take all on your clothes off thay r all womans. Man up, i was even going to grow a beard. Told my self take a brake, calm down, ease up.
Got home changed. Though i could do it (man up) well this morning did not do so good. I have been wearing sports bras. For months Now it not underdressing if i am wearing female clothes right. If i dont have it on i feel naked.
Did a little work on my car mazda miata and had to take wife to dr. So out the door looking like a girl wifes words. I have little boobs or bumps lol and u can see them. When out with her i do dress down. I try to dress neutral.
I DONT THING IAM GOING TO BE ABLE TO MAN UP.. Right back were i was screaming now. If i keep going she will not be here she all ready told me that much. She not a lesbian and she dos not went a wife. How do we get through this.
This post was supposed to be my post telling averbody i was going to take a brake i was going to stop this crazy s***. BUT i know it dont stop it naver stops naver. I see the woman in me i see her all the time Now. Dam i hate this. Help HELP. Self doubt is a bitch it hit hard yesterday i though could stop i did not even make it 6 hrs crap and that somes it up. Well i guess it back to day to day. I well talk to my dr and see if i can get back in therapy have to go through him VA. Had to get this off my chest and i still dont feel any better. This s*** suck ugh well its 3:00 and i guess i need to get some sleep Love Cindy
Got home changed. Though i could do it (man up) well this morning did not do so good. I have been wearing sports bras. For months Now it not underdressing if i am wearing female clothes right. If i dont have it on i feel naked.
Did a little work on my car mazda miata and had to take wife to dr. So out the door looking like a girl wifes words. I have little boobs or bumps lol and u can see them. When out with her i do dress down. I try to dress neutral.
I DONT THING IAM GOING TO BE ABLE TO MAN UP.. Right back were i was screaming now. If i keep going she will not be here she all ready told me that much. She not a lesbian and she dos not went a wife. How do we get through this.
This post was supposed to be my post telling averbody i was going to take a brake i was going to stop this crazy s***. BUT i know it dont stop it naver stops naver. I see the woman in me i see her all the time Now. Dam i hate this. Help HELP. Self doubt is a bitch it hit hard yesterday i though could stop i did not even make it 6 hrs crap and that somes it up. Well i guess it back to day to day. I well talk to my dr and see if i can get back in therapy have to go through him VA. Had to get this off my chest and i still dont feel any better. This s*** suck ugh well its 3:00 and i guess i need to get some sleep Love Cindy