ReluctantDebutant
01-26-2015, 10:33 AM
It was just a year ago I posted this (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?208268-Never-Give-Up-Never-Surrender&highlight=) about my journey to "quit" or rather gain control of my cross-dressing. I learned a lot in those couple of years of resisting the urge to dress and had some old knowledge reinforced. I have learned enough that I am ready to come down from my tree house with its "no girl clothes allowed" sign.
Now this isn't saying I am going to start dressing again. No I am just at a point now where I feel I don't have to show a hard vehement no to the idea of cross-dressing. I feel I am at a point where I can cross-dress when I like without getting so obsessed with it like I used to. I can now come down from that high wall I built against wearing female clothes and meet those urges to dress on my own terms with a yes or no. It's mostly no but I know if and when I say yes that that yes does not have to be a life long contract of obsession.
I would highly recommend to anyone who was in my shoes to try this for a while. You get to learn a lot about yourself and your cross-dressing. And you get the confidence that you control it. I learn that the urge to cross-dress is nothing more than an emotional state that can change it will come back but so does happiness or sadness and other emotions. you can indulge in the emotions as you will just as long as they are at your will and not let the emotion bowl you over. ther is more But I feel like I will start a long ramble so I will end here.
I think my next Pink Fog I will get some clothes just to sound out once again how I truly feel about them But I have a feeling it will be the same.
Now this isn't saying I am going to start dressing again. No I am just at a point now where I feel I don't have to show a hard vehement no to the idea of cross-dressing. I feel I am at a point where I can cross-dress when I like without getting so obsessed with it like I used to. I can now come down from that high wall I built against wearing female clothes and meet those urges to dress on my own terms with a yes or no. It's mostly no but I know if and when I say yes that that yes does not have to be a life long contract of obsession.
I would highly recommend to anyone who was in my shoes to try this for a while. You get to learn a lot about yourself and your cross-dressing. And you get the confidence that you control it. I learn that the urge to cross-dress is nothing more than an emotional state that can change it will come back but so does happiness or sadness and other emotions. you can indulge in the emotions as you will just as long as they are at your will and not let the emotion bowl you over. ther is more But I feel like I will start a long ramble so I will end here.
I think my next Pink Fog I will get some clothes just to sound out once again how I truly feel about them But I have a feeling it will be the same.