nikki2014
01-29-2015, 09:35 PM
Last night while I was out and about, I decided to text my wife. She knows all about my CDing, not that she supports it 100% but she at least knows. We've spoken about it several times over the last month or so and I thought she was at least ok with what she did know. I never went too far with sharing my CDing with her just that she knows about it. Well last night I texted her and said "Do you know who Nikki is?" Her reply was "no" and I replied "One day you will have to meet Nikki. Maybe." Well that was the end of our texts. While we were going to bed I think she went back and read her texts. She asked me who Nikki was. I waited for a while and she asked again. I said it was me. There was no reply from her. I said hey are you ok. She said she was processing. I didn't push the issue and let it be and we fell asleep.
This morning as I was leaving I went and sat next to her and asked her if she was ok. She said honestly no I'm not. I have a hard time with Nikki. I have a hard time thinking of you as Nikki, I just can't do that. We had a good talk but in the end she said she needed her space and needed time to think it all over. I said it was understandable it's taken me 40 some years just to tell a single sole and it happens to be you. I don't expect you to understand in a month or so. We finished our conversation and from what I think of as a DADT. I explained to her that I found this website and it has helped me out a lot as well if she would like to look for answers. She said she wasn't ready but when she is she'll want to read the posts and see what everyone else is saying.
My wife has a very stressful job and she is going through a lot of changes at work which compounded the stress. Not to mention we have a huge family which also adds to the stress. My wife is also very very conservative and has a hard time seeing things like this. I'm on the other side that is very open minded. I guess opposites do attract. I do think its funny when we go shopping together that she finds herself over in the men's section looking at jackets and hoodies. She likes the darker colors and the way they fit but yet hates all the colors of women's and the way they fit. I'm thinking isn't my CDing the same as you looking at men's hoodies only I don't go out in public wearing a pink hoodie or something? I do have a men's Under Armor pink hoodie I wear out so what's the difference? Is it the fact that the word men's or women's is just a word in front of the piece of clothing? Just wondering.
Anyway, enough of my rant. I'm ok with our situation as I'm sure she is too. She just needs time to process it all and some of her stress needs to lift. All is good though.
Cheers, Nikki
This morning as I was leaving I went and sat next to her and asked her if she was ok. She said honestly no I'm not. I have a hard time with Nikki. I have a hard time thinking of you as Nikki, I just can't do that. We had a good talk but in the end she said she needed her space and needed time to think it all over. I said it was understandable it's taken me 40 some years just to tell a single sole and it happens to be you. I don't expect you to understand in a month or so. We finished our conversation and from what I think of as a DADT. I explained to her that I found this website and it has helped me out a lot as well if she would like to look for answers. She said she wasn't ready but when she is she'll want to read the posts and see what everyone else is saying.
My wife has a very stressful job and she is going through a lot of changes at work which compounded the stress. Not to mention we have a huge family which also adds to the stress. My wife is also very very conservative and has a hard time seeing things like this. I'm on the other side that is very open minded. I guess opposites do attract. I do think its funny when we go shopping together that she finds herself over in the men's section looking at jackets and hoodies. She likes the darker colors and the way they fit but yet hates all the colors of women's and the way they fit. I'm thinking isn't my CDing the same as you looking at men's hoodies only I don't go out in public wearing a pink hoodie or something? I do have a men's Under Armor pink hoodie I wear out so what's the difference? Is it the fact that the word men's or women's is just a word in front of the piece of clothing? Just wondering.
Anyway, enough of my rant. I'm ok with our situation as I'm sure she is too. She just needs time to process it all and some of her stress needs to lift. All is good though.
Cheers, Nikki