I caught myself

[Victoria Demeanor]

Hello all,
Well I get home; do the normal things, getting dinner around, cleaning up, catching up with the spouse and getting comfortable, I sign onto the site and I have a routine. Check out and reply to the intros, check and reply to my in box and then look and read the latest posts. Okay well I read the latest posts and think I have something to say, but by the time I get to them half the site has chimed in with much more intelligent comments then I could come up with and I’m starting to feel like the girl in the corner who opens her mouth to speak and doesn’t get a chance to get a word out.  So I decided that I had a thought (small thought) and I would throw it out there and YES be the first on a thread 
So the title: I caught myself
I work at a small community college (no not the start to a penthouse forum letter) and it is spring break. We have very few students, a couple outside groups coming in to use our facilities but for the most part we are quite at the moment. A couple days ago we had nothing going on and I was at a point that I could walk through the buildings and check on things. There were some student workers setting up a conference area and they were playing music on the AV system. I couldn’t tell you what it was, but it was light and fun with a good beat and I could hear it as I walk down a hallway, well lit by the sun that warmed it in that just right in an afternoon bath.

I closed my eyes and started to dream that I had on my favorite dress, I sucked my stomach in, my legs began to strut as if I was wearing a killer pair heels, my hips started to sway to the beat, my arms were swinging to the music, as if they were conducting and my head was bobbing to the rhyme. My inner diva was walking like she was on the fashion runway and the center of the universe.
That’s when it suddenly dawned upon me that yes, I was at work and in drab. Full stop and almost tripped as I shocked myself back into guy mode. I wish I didn’t have to hide this part of me to the world as it felt so good, but I didn’t get noticed and these moments are just so savory.
So that’s my story for this thread, what’s yours?

[SamanthaDarling120]

Sounded like you enjoyed it. I want to dress in public but I never have gotten to dress 100% like I want. Good story

[pamela7]

that moment when you're in a meeting under-dressed and its SO HOT you really need to take off a pullover, but ... that pink cami vest is underneath!

and you do make intelligent comments, and I value your comments, it does not matter if others say it first, say it again or in your way, we're all equal under the sun!

and its a great story, but why not carry on dancing? Once you're known as an eccentric people accept it and like you more, cos it means you also allow other people to be different too!!!!

[Yoshisaur]

I would love to be able to to dress however I want in public:daydreaming:, but i'm not brave enough yet hopefully someday. I'm currently a student at a community college it would so amazing to dress up in a nice dress and heels and strut around the halls like its nobody's business. Yeah sometimes I feel the same way about leaving a comment and seeing others that are much more intelligent and useful, so I just decided to just put my honest opinions and hope others appreciate my two cents.

[charlenesomeone]

What a wonderful experience, I imaged it too. We all wish for the same thing, but just a question,
We enjoy the music, the serenity, but why do we enjoy it more in a dress and heels? If we were to
dress how we want would that change your enjoyment, or do the clothes make us enjoy life more?
Thanks Victoria, I enjoyed your story.
Hugs

[MichelleDevon]

My story is the other way round...

I had been away for the weekend to meet a friend from Russia who was visiting the UK to study on an English-teaching course. I'd gone up to York on FRiday afternoon in drab and we met up and had a meal together, followed by a very wet walk to my B&B. Fortunately I didn't care if my drab got wet because the next day was Michelle time. Had a lovely day but found myself short of time to catch my train home. Brisk walk to the B&B to collect my bag, then across York to the station... I wasn't wearing my highest heels but high enough to make speed walking tricky (and un-ladylike anyway) so I made the best speed I could getting to the station with less than 5 minutes to spare...over the bridge to the platform and there was my train pulling in...phew!!!!

Found an empty table and flopped down to recover from my half hour walk. And there was nothing I wanted more than to take off my wig and cool down...but it just wasn't going to create the image I usually seek!!!!

So I sat there feeling uncomfrotable for about another half hour before I finally achieved something close to normality. It's easy to forget how much insulation hair provides when you haven't had much for years - the morale of the story is clearly to leave more time.

But it was a fun weekend ;)

Michelle
xx

[JeanetteX]

Haha what a great story Victoria. I went for a long walk yesterday (yes I definitely need to lose weight!!), the weather was gorgeous with glorious sunshine, birds were singing, trees becoming green again, and looking at all of that made me so happy. Happiness is usually the state I'm in when dressed so my thoughts soon turned to my Jeanette mode. By that time I was almost floating when suddenly I realised I was walking like a girl with my hips swaying around. Just hope nobody noticed but at least it must have been an extra help to lose the pounds!!

[Katey888]

Great story Victoria... I am afraid I have nothing to offer but a similarity and an observation... I too have those irrepressible feelings that are the need to move to the rhythm and the beat in the least masculine and most feminine of ways every time I hear particular songs... Latin beats seem to be the most compelling, but I challenge anyone with this particular condition (and I'd like to name this subset 'transgender dance compulsive' or TG(DC)-type.. ;)) not to have swaying hips, flicking hair (or just your head if the hair is lacking...), sinuous body and arm movements, and a beaming, stupid grin if you come across any of these tracks and an open space...

La Isla Bonita - Madonna
Moving on up - M People
Dov'e L'amore - Cher
(Mucho Mambo) Sway - Shaft
Express Yourself - Madonna

Try it? :D

Victoria Girl, you need to get out and DANCE! :yahoo:

So you can feel your hair flicking around your shoulders, earrings gently tugging at your earlobes and bracelets jangling on a wrist... a long, pleated gown that swishes nicely around nylons, a well-fitting pair of heels that you CAN dance in all evening and BE that runway girl...

SAMMIE!!!! Help! - Tell them about the dancing! :)

Release that inner diva Victoria - she cannot be denied... :devil:

Katey x

[Suzie Petersen]

Thanks for sharing Victoria .. now go sit in the corner and be quiet!! <LOL>

Well all seriousness aside (hmmm ...) I know exactly what you are saying about the thread life. Sometimes it can be difficult to come up with something useful to add. But it doesnt really matter, it is about sharing and agreeing, so a little duplication is fine.

My mental moment .. no, not that kind of mental!! Mental girl feeling, OK .. was years ago after a long days conference stuff on a warm island in the South Pacific. I drove up the coast and found this beautiful stretch of beach, nobody around and the sun having already gone down. It gets dark quick that close to the equator! I was in boring drab business guy mode.

I walked barefoot along the water and at some point just started taking off my clothes one piece at a time until I was completely ... unclothed!
As I was walking slowly, the girl took over and the sensation of the warm breeze and the sand and the location played tricks with my mind and I am sure my body movements were a lot more girly than usual.
I swear I could feel my long hair sway over my lover back and could feel my breasts move.

OK, snap! Back to reality, get dressed, back in the car and back to the hotel. Had a couple of beers in the bar and then back to work. Pack Suzie away in that corner where she lives most of the time. I'm telling you, that girl can drive me nuts ;)

Hugs
Suzie

[Marcelle]

Hi Victoria and thanks for sharing. As I spend about 40 percent of my time female and the remainder male, I do find that some of my feminine gestures can bleed over into my "boy life". I was at colleagues retirement lunch and giving a speech when I noticed a friend of mine covertly gesturing from the back of the room and though . . . "Hmm that is odd and why is she continuing to do that same gesture" :confused: It then dawned on me that she was not doing the gesture but mimicking a very feminine pose/gesture I was doing . . . OOPS. So I immediately corrected back to a more guy stance. A few people mentioned my "inner girl" (most of my work colleagues know) and we had a good laugh about it.

Hugs

Isha

[Beverley Sims]

Rarely daydreamed at work as there usully was too much going on.

I have let my mind wander as I pass students engaged in an activity, usually it is to get ideas for something else I may have in mind.

Reading the start of your post I usually read the OP and reply to it in my own words.

Most times I take totally different view or else find I have agreed to all the other posts with sickening monotony.
No original thoughts at all.
Other times there are posts I do not understand "like my own" and then I read others views in order to include myself in the conversation.

[Amanda M]

Dancing? Now this is serious stuff. I am married to a genuine ballerina, dance teacher and choreographer. So - dancing simple! NO! In drab, I'm told I'm like Bill Gates on low-grade speed, and en femme? YEUCH!

What's a girl to do?

[Victoria Demeanor]

Sob sob…little tear, yes Suzie I’ll be quite now…….
This is why I love this site, you throw something out there and you get so many wonderful comments and stories.
Just a couple of quick addendums. The college I work at has a health arts curriculum and we get many unique and interesting students that really give me such hope for this emerging generation. Some are kind of weird, but as we say, weird works here. I do have to maintain a Professional male role so I really can’t let Victoria out at work, but OH yes Katey I would SOoooo love to do that, dancing the night away in heel with good friends is a dream I hope comes true some day. I have found that my famine side is SUCH a Diva which is in sharp contrast to my conservative male side. I love it and embrace it, but wish there was some kind of warning or alarm instead of the surprise here I am!!!!!!. LOL
Okay back to my corner now

[Suzie Petersen]

Victoria, you can come out now!! :)

[Tanya+]

LIFE happens in those moments when we surprise ourselves. Love that strut!

[Tina_gm]

Hearing women talk of any particular thing, and you almost start to chime in with a me too type of comment? Or... you catch yourself making very feminine gestures or particular mannerisms...