talonX
03-27-2015, 08:45 AM
I haven't posted anything for a while, but I actually went to Victoria's Secret and bought a pair of thigh highs yesterday, and, in spite of the potential complications to my life, I feel great about it. I hadn't shopped for anything in a long time, and I have not had any fem clothes since my girlfriend moved in with me.
Fast recap - I was in a latency period (didn't want to dress at all) when she moved in about 2 1/2 years ago. I've made some jokes from time to time, but she has made it clear that crossdressing is something she would never accept. Over the past 6 months or so, my desires to dress have come screaming back. We have also been having relationship issues for a while now, some rather serious, and serious enough to make me wonder if I want to continue.
Okay, end of relationship talk. I got my stockings. I haven't put them one yet, as I had about a grand total of 15 minutes yesterday to do so and I want to savor it. What struck me the most about the experience was how nervous I was not. While I still did the "getting these for my girlfriend" thing, it felt more like a natural thing than anything else. Oh, and I'd forgotten how flippin' great VS smells ;)
Now they are hidden, and I'm really not worried about getting caught. At least not as worried as I probably should be. Lately I have felt that before I never completely embraced my fem side, but now feel like I really want to dive in all the way. Finances and circumstances are in the way right now, but rather than feeling frantic or stressed about it, I have a zen-like calm about it. Buying a pair of stocking has made me feel better than I have in a while, and I'm still working on the implications of that.
I'm looking forward to wearing the stockings Monday when I know I'll have time. I really wanted to share this, and typing this out helps to organize my thoughts a bit. I have limited opportunity to reply to any posts over the weekend, but I'll definitely update as I can.
I really, really can't wait to put those on, though!
Fast recap - I was in a latency period (didn't want to dress at all) when she moved in about 2 1/2 years ago. I've made some jokes from time to time, but she has made it clear that crossdressing is something she would never accept. Over the past 6 months or so, my desires to dress have come screaming back. We have also been having relationship issues for a while now, some rather serious, and serious enough to make me wonder if I want to continue.
Okay, end of relationship talk. I got my stockings. I haven't put them one yet, as I had about a grand total of 15 minutes yesterday to do so and I want to savor it. What struck me the most about the experience was how nervous I was not. While I still did the "getting these for my girlfriend" thing, it felt more like a natural thing than anything else. Oh, and I'd forgotten how flippin' great VS smells ;)
Now they are hidden, and I'm really not worried about getting caught. At least not as worried as I probably should be. Lately I have felt that before I never completely embraced my fem side, but now feel like I really want to dive in all the way. Finances and circumstances are in the way right now, but rather than feeling frantic or stressed about it, I have a zen-like calm about it. Buying a pair of stocking has made me feel better than I have in a while, and I'm still working on the implications of that.
I'm looking forward to wearing the stockings Monday when I know I'll have time. I really wanted to share this, and typing this out helps to organize my thoughts a bit. I have limited opportunity to reply to any posts over the weekend, but I'll definitely update as I can.
I really, really can't wait to put those on, though!