psychiatrist appointment anxitey

[jules]

my appointment is in 6 days and i am beside myself.
what will i say?
What do i say?
Do i tell him my life story?
what if i talk to much?
i am not going in a dress.
why would i go in a dress?
is there going to be a blue chair and a pink one and one of these chairs define who i am?
i hate blue always did i am sitting in the pink one. if there is a pink one.
maybe its a couch?
what will i do if i am told i am just a crossdresser. ( nothing against crossdressers)
i am holding everything together pretty good so far and the meds are helping but what will that do to me if that's his diagnosis?
the first meeting is for a 1 1/2 hours.
what the hell am i going to talk about for that long?
will there be a lot of questions?
will i sound like a idiot?
O MY GOD!
The mind is doing a 110 mph

i need a drink!

[Jorja]

WHOA there princess! Take a breath. Relax!

Your psychiatrist is there to HELP you not beat you up. Allow them to lead the dance this first meeting. Talk to them just like you would anyone else. Be open and honest and tell them what the problem is. Believe me, they have heard it all including I am a boy that wants to be a girl. No biggie for them. Go dressed as you want. Whatever mode you chose is fine. You will be surprised just how short an hour and a half is.

That's it breath!!!!

[PretzelGirl]

You will go in, you will sit down anywhere (it really doesn't matter), you will relax, you will talk. Think of it like waltzing and the therapist is leading. You walk out on the dance floor and they will guide you. You will be participating, but they will lead.

[VanTG]

Easy there,

It will be ok, like Jorja said they are there to support you. It might actually feel good to get things off your mind.

[Eryn]

Therapists are pros in dealing with nervous patients. You're there to get help, they're there to help you. It will work out.

Yes, you will probably babble a bit. That's a normal reaction to having someone that you can talk honestly with. They're used to it and it is valuable to you both.

I went to my first appointment in drab. Mimi and I were going out right after my second appointment so I texted the therapist and asked her if she would mind if I came dressed. She said that was fine and made me feel so welcome that I've gone dressed ever since. It's a lot easier to talk about my gender issues when I am presenting as I wish!

[Karolyn]

My goodness, you need to relax!! I thought I was nervous before going to my first appointment, but you are on a completely different level!

Just take it easy. You are not passing an exam, nobody is here to evaluate you, and to have the possibility to fail. Just be honest. Just say what you need to say to feel better. Make sure you provide enough information to be helped properly. That's all.

I went to my information dressed, and I was really scared, and it was only my 3rd or 4th time outside, my first time during daylight. And even with that, everything went great. I went in drab the next two times, and nothing changed, my therapist talked to me the same way, I was the same person.

Good luck, and just relax!!

[Karen62]

To add to the excellent points made by all the others, you also have control. These appointments are for you. I hope you will find your therapist to be a great match for your needs, but if you don't, you need not suffer in a mismatch. They are providing you with a service. If you don't get along with the service provider, you can find another, qualified therapist who can help you. With all of this in mind, go in there committed to learning about yourself through this experience. After all, that is the goal, right? There's no need to worry -- if anything, be excited to finally start working through clearing up the big mystery of your life. This is a big step toward ending the fear and shame. How wonderful is that?

Karen

[LoriFlores]

As others have stated, your visit with your therapist is for your benefit. My suggestion is to be open and relay what you have on your mind and your experiences. I found my therapist to be very supportive and most of all, helpful with both identifying and discussing a plan to respond to my my gender dysphoria. All of this was/is complicated by my being involved in a loving marriage.

[charlenesomeone]

Jules, had my first one last week. Non event and very much at ease. My mind was racing too, the Dr just listened, took notes.
No judgement, they want to help you. Like the others said, Relax.
Hugs

[Nicole Erin]

Though Rob doesn't specifically mention transgender (or maybe he did?) but this is pretty close to what you can expect...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-iC-R10_Bw

[I Am Paula]

There will be differing opinions on this, but-
I believe that anybody in a professional capacity should see the real you. Go to every appt. in girl mode. They are not the enemy, but they are also not trans, and they are responsible for your future. Sitting there in overalls, and rubber boots (or whatever your guy mode is), and saying 'I'm a girl' is kinda hard to imagine to a cis person.

Now relax. Five minutes into your appt. you'll be fine.

[karenpayneoregon]

It is only natural to feel this way, kind of like a child waiting for Christmas day to open their presents. The best thing to do is simply be yourself. Your therapist has been trained to put patients at ease so now you only need to tell your story in the confines of their questions asked of you. The 1.5 hours will most likely feel like a shorter time especially if you have a lot to get out but that is what follow up visits are for.

[STACY B]

Got a good story for you Lady's about my first app at the Therapist. As you might know very little resources where I am, So my choice was basicly made for me.
Not a whole lot to chose from here. So that being said I made an appointment am went. The therepist I had to see was practicing in another doctors office under there licence so they would screen you with the Pyscotrist first an then you could see the Gender therapist next time. An the main doc was a Man an the Gender therapist was a Lady.

Now mind you I wanted to see her pretty bad an I had made my mind up an I was going to see her an remember who you lady's are talking to an picture this in your mind an this is the Truth I swear. I walked in there dress like I always dress Man Mode an got called in to the Mans office an he looked at me an asked why I was there an with everything that had built up in the last 46 years I let him have it ALL.

After it was all over an I told him about it he said ( I have NEVER HEARD ANYTHING LIKE THAT IN MY LIFE) An I said well do I get to see the Gender therapist next time or what? He said OH YEA . So if you have what the rest of us have an have accepted it an are coming to grips with it like we are an want help from drowning they the therapist are not only the life jacket there the coast guard. An that my friend is one of the first places you will go that you feel accepted an if you don't go somewhere else!

[kimdl93]

Definitely relax. Don't think in terms of being diagnosed. Think about talking through a problem with a trusted advisor. Hopefully you'll reach some consensus rather than a diagnosis.

[Eringirl]

Whoa, whoa Jules.....back up the bus girl!! You are waaaay over thinking this. Relax. The therapist is there to help. I first came out years ago to my family Dr who knew me and my family really well. He was totally fine with it. However, he self admittedly did not have the knowledge base to help me, but knew who did and referred me to a therapist that had experience. So, off to another new therapist. Again it was fine. Simply sat wherever I wanted to, took a deep breath and told them how I was feeling - sad, depressed, etc, and why. Then they simply started to ask me a few questions and we had a great conversation and before I knew it the hour was up and I couldn't wait for me next appointment as it was so good to be able to talk about it.

They are professionals, and are there for your benefit. I you feel like crying, go ahead. Get the most out of it. You will be fine.

As others have said, relax. Take a breath. Present yourself however you are the most comfortable. Don't be afraid to open up to them. They can't help you if you don't give them the information to work with.

Let us know how it goes.

Erin

[Kris Avery]

Like Stacy,
My first therapist encounter was not with a WPATH member therapist and they weren't even professional. (go figure).
Thank goodness they didn't have the audacity to send me a bill for those 10 minutes.
Especially so, considering that I put "GD" as the reason that I was coming in.....

Once I found the right therapist... it was like someone threw me not a life preserver, but an entire island. ;)

I'm hoping that you don't encounter the type I did initially, and am hoping for the right kind of therapist.

[Dawn cd]

Just one more thought to add to the good advice above. Remember that the therapist is being evaluated by you, as well as you by the therapist. So ask yourself: is this someone I can talk to--that I feel comfortable with? You deserve a person that you are totally comfortable with. If there is any hesitation about your comfort-level, then you should talk about it with him or her.

[jules]

thank you all for your support.
i am going to take my time RELAX and just let it out.
my family doctor told me the same thing.
just be yourself and let him the same thing you told me.
ill be fine. just got to remember to breath.
thank you again for the support.
i will let everyone know how its goes.


julie

[Michelle.M]

Wonderful post! Reminds me of my first appointment.

[jules]

2 hours and 15 mins to go.
It's 10:43 am here appointment is at 1 pm
Breathing

[steftoday]

Well? How did it go?
My therapist is awesome. She's been great to talk with.

[Marleena]

My first trip to therapist was in guy mode too. I doubt I would have made it there in one piece in this transphobic city. I wasn't nervous but determined to get help for my GD. I did however bring pictures of my true self (female) and gave them to him early on. Maybe that will help somebody else that is nervous on their first visit.

[rosetyler]

I hope everything went smoothly for you, OP. Hugs if you want any. You can do this.

[jules]

I went to my appointment and it was good to get everything off my chest.
I won't fill in all the details but i did go as butch as I could get. Road the bike and had the riding boots and jacket.
I talked for two hours. Even my wife was surprised on how long I was in there.
So in a nut shell I am transgendered and I am now on sprio twice a day.
With blood work to follow in three months.
And referrals to my family doctor.
It's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
took my 2nd sprio this morning.

Again thank you for the support and encouragement. It's means a lot to me.

Hugs
Julie

[Teresa]

Jules,
I have to admit the same thoughts would be going through my mind !
I've just finished general counselling and now waiting for a referral from my GP to enter gender/sexual counselling ! Most of the stuff will be things that have played on my mind for years so getting it out in the open can't do any harm ! The scary bit is at 64 what the bottom line is going to be !
I don't venture into this section often but just a quick read reinforces how hard it is to accept that you may be stepping from thinking you're just a CDer into uncharted waters !
I can see there is some great support here , I may just need it !!

[Amy Fakley]

Oh gawd, I'm in this same situation right now. First appointment with a bona-fide gender therapist one week from today, and I am in complete freak out mode.

I don't even know where to start explaining myself to this person. The nerves are almost as bad as they were before I told my wife. Hope I don't hyperventilate and pass out on the therapists couch. The way I feel right now, it seems like a distinct possibility. Nonetheless, I've gotta go through with it ... I can't keep on the way I have been, I do need help. But damn, I hate the nerves.

So glad to hear it was a positive experience for you, Jules.
I'm glad you started this thread. It's been very reassuring to read all the responses.

[Heidi Stevens]

So glad for you Jules! Now that the first time jitters are gone, think of some of the things that you have questions about for your next visit. Think of where you want your therapy to go. Be open, be honest and listen.
Amy, Jules just showed you that you have nothing to fear. And nothing to hold back. Good luck

[jules]

There is nothing to fear. Just be yourself and be honest.
All i did was talk and i did not focus on the transgender part.
I just talked.
Good luck and you cant be any more nervous then i was :)
When i see him again i have a few more questions i want to ask him.
Thank you for the replys. :)
And amy im sure you will be fine.


Hugs
Jules

[Badtranny]

Wait, what?

Your therapist determined you were "transgender" during your very first session?

I also noticed in another thread that your breasts are now a 36D after 2 weeks on spiro?

Am I understanding you correctly?

[jules]

Yes bad tranny i dont know why but that is how it happened. Im not going to get into what was said because that is between my terapist and me. But if your think there was a mistake then keep it to yourself if you dont mind.
Second i am trying to figger out the bra chart thing and 36D that dose not make sense. I think its because men have a bigger ribcage and it throws off the chart for bra sizes ??
which is why i am going to see my doctor again because i could be having a reaction to the medication in some way. Read everything i could find and it dose not make sense for this to be happening so quickly?
My mom was small ,sister was smaller ,so i should be fried eggs sunny side up.
So befor you get wll bent out of shape about therapist getting me started on the first visit.
It dose not consern you in any way shape or form. So take a breath leave it be.
I am so sorry to be so blunt but i and not going to get into a pissing match with you.
Or anyone elese for that matter. I am happy and enjoying life for the first time in forever and i am not going let anyone take that from me.
We are suppose to be here to support each outher and share our experiences and that is what i did.
Have a good day.

Julie

[phylis anne]

Hi Jules ,
although you feel evryone here is dogging you please go back and reread your posts it may be the way you have written it that has elicited the response you have recieved I know this because I have done it many times here myself .as to yor instant breast enlargement if you truly are concerned please seek out your dr . although I must say that is some fast acting stuff if you indeed have grown that fast ,I also agree with you a bit on the bra to ribcage issue as I too have been measured more than once and never seem to get the right fit if nothing else there is a web site that does cater to bras for men might try them , but to close give the rest a break here as most if not all of these people have made the long journey and have experienced first hand all the ups and and definitely all the downs
hugs phylis anne

[Badtranny]

Mistake? I wouldn't have any idea about your diagnosis one way or the other, and you're right, it doesn't concern me in the least. Doesn't concern me personally, but this forum is generally perused by those that are looking for transition related info and I think it's fair that those who post said info are prepared to elaborate, if not prove their claims.

I'm not implying dishonesty on your part, but you must understand that some of us have personally known more than a few TS women, and when someone claims something that has never been seen before, well, questions are kind of the natural effect.

By all means, share your experiences, that is exactly what we're here for after all, but in the TS forum, we should keep it real, no?

[HelenR2]

On this site, for very good reasons, we are supposed to be supportive and non-judgemental but I'm afraid I don't believe a word that jules has written.

[jules]

Yes i do agree with you meilssea and if someone wants me to elaborate on somthing by all means.
I have nothing to hide. At all and why?
if its to personal pm me.
If someone wanted to know what i said in my session with the therapists. Pm me .
I dont know what else to say.
But this is my last responce to this tread.
I asked for support and i got it. And i really appreciate it so much. Some women on here (yes women)
Were very nice and helpfull.
Others Not so much. But you take what you can get.
I will tell you one thing i did not go in the office crying that i wanted to be a women.
and when he asked me what was my clearest momery when i was young its had nothing to do with dressing.
That is all im going to say.
Everyone here can chose to belive me or not. Its up to them.

And helenr2 stop it!
I know you dont belive me and i dont care. :)
You have chased me across two different post i think i got the picture.
Im going to get deleted again i know it. :)
Thats about it i guess.

Julie summers