What is your CD situation?

[CarlaWestin]

I'm almost 60. But due to great fortune, I have a body of a healthy 39 yo. 5'10" @ 143 lbs. I continuously crave being dressed as a woman. If I weren't married, I would be femme whenever I wasn't at work. It's all I really think about. I'm probably at 50/50 on the transition decision. I would love to do some body mods, ears pierced, breast implants, facial surgery, etc... but, in reality, I'm working 'til 70. It's financially prudent. At that age, I don't want to put my body or my wife through the trauma/drama. So for now, I'm totally femmed at home from 7-8pm till 6-7am everyday. But I gotta do the acceptable guy thing the rest of the time to keep the money flow going. I'm fortunate that I have the space and time to entertain my proclivity and don't do the hiding game any more.

So, what's your situation?

Shameless picture from this morning.
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[Khora]

My CD situation? I have around 150, but I rarely by them anymore. I used to spend so much time in the record stores when I was younger!

...

Oh wait...not THAT kind of CD. My CD situation is completely confusing to me and frustrating. I think about being female basically every day and I want to take it as far as possible. I just started going to gender therapy as well with a therapist that deals almost exclusively with trans people.

[CynthiaD]

My situation is the same as yours, Carla. Change to femme clothes right after work/ church. Femme all day Saturdays and holidays. Pretty much at the TS end of the scale, but no body mods. Yet.

[marsha leanne]

dang Carla, you look GOOD! I am somewhere between you and Cynthia. I retired 3 years ago and although i dont dress all the time when home, i dress a lot when ever the wife is at her volunteer job. (8-15 hrs week). I too would like to step up things with ear piercings. I don't go out, but that is part of the arrangement with the wife. She gives me the time, i don't go out. i can live with that.

[Adriana Moretti]

I am a rare bird around these parts....I decided to not get involved with a woman, unless I meet someone while I am en femme ...so I am free to come and go as I please, single and happy...and I mostly date other cd's and men at this time...( I have yet to meet Ms Right) My only problem is sometimes finding other gals to do things with, since I am one of the few single gals out there with no strings attached, who can bounce at the drop of a hat,and dont need anyones permission, its sometimes hard to find a partner in crime to go out with, the stars have to align for some gals, and some need the perfect storm in order to escape into girl world...so I have to plan in advance, thats really my only CD gripe with my situation....I also dont dress at work, but I am trying to make my part-time gig for a local transformation company full time...and then it's game over ! xoxo

[Katey888]

Guess I'm also a rare bird of a different feather... :)

Currently having long droughts between the desire and need to dress (14 days since the last time - 125 days to the time before that! :eek:)

Like Adriana - but because of my closeted status - I have to plan outings way in advance which is good in some ways, but lacks spontaneity... However, I've come to the conclusion my need to express this side of me can be largely satisfied by a small amount of full-on transformation time. Even if I had the opportunity, I probably wouldn't spend more time doing this.... :facepalm: ..... OK... maybe just a bit more... and some International events too... perhaps a week or four in NY, Detroit and SF... and another four in Vegas... maybe Oz too... :D

Nice pic Carla - but I'd have a word with your builders if you're having to hold door frames in during the holidays... ;)

Katey x

[Stephanie47]

First, you look fabulous. Nice legs.

I've been retired for eight years. My wife still works as a teacher. She is not accepting. We have not had a discussion for decades. It's strictly DADT. I know she has no idea as to the extent of my wardrobe. I have the opportunity for Stephanie to come out and assert herself when school is on from 8:30 AM to 3:30 PM, Mondays through Fridays. That does not mean I dress all the available time. I really miss the opportunity to dress during the summers. I would love to be able to wear a sundress in our backyard. I get teased in June and September by old sol. My wife says she intends to work until age 70, so I have about five to six years before.....???? I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. If she were to work part-time that means a full day but not everyday.

If I were no longer married, I hang my dresses in the closet. I'd take over the triple dresser and put my panties, bras, slips and hosiery in the drawers. I like being a guy also, so I would not go 24/7. I tried that when my wife went to the mid west to visit our daughter before she moved back. I enjoyed it for awhile, but, found it stifled my guy mode. Life can be very complicated.

[Janet161]

Totally jealous of Adriana(but in a good way Adriana-you are awesome!). I am sadly closeted. Pretty much live day to day. Happily dress for a night out whenever I get the chance. Not nearly enough. Think about all of this way way way too much.

[Karen RHT]

My CD situation is this...I'll be a healthy 68 years old tomorrow. :) I'm retired, and happily married for over 40 years. About 3 years ago, my wife surprised me by saying she was ok with me dressing as I please. Prior to that, she had been totally against me wearing anything and everything considered "ladies wear." She keeps going back and forth about whether she's ok with me presenting totally as a woman and going out in public. I can wear what I please, whenever I please inside our home, and have worn plain looking women's jeans and shorts, (with panties and bra underneath) outside our home. I have become totally comfortable wearing skirts and dresses around the house, and actually look forward to doing so. Currently I'm letting my hair grow out, and continue to develop some skill with makeup. I have strong male features, so I plan to get professional help very soon to see what my true potential is. I'm happy to do lots of typical male activities, dress like a male, be a caring and supporting husband, and lead a "live and let live" lifestyle. At this point, I find myself wanting to be dressed however I please outside our home, and am working towards reaching that goal.


Karen

[flatlander_48]

I would guess I would be about 80/20, male to female. I go out dressed 1 to 3 times a month. I dress neck down at home a couple of times a week and at least one day on weekends. My wife has been out with me a couple of times and is quite supportive. Otherwise, she is a participant in that I could not get fully dressed without her. I have reduced flexibility in my shoulders and elbows that makes putting on a wig exceedingly difficult. Other than that, I underdress essentially all the time when I am not dressed, in a thong or shapewear. I sleep in feminine pajamas and sometimes with forms. I am not looking to transition as I have never (to this point) felt that I have a severe mismatch between my physical and emotional selves.

I am pretty comfortable in my male personna. I'm in a male-dominated profession, I've done home carpentry, plumbing and wiring and I am a BIG motorsports fan. It doesn't feel like I'm rushing to leave my male personna when I prepare to dress. It is a pull, more than a push. Unless something really interesting comes along, I'm thinking of retiring in about 6 months. The plan is to leave here (neither of us is from here) and move to the desert in California. No winters would be VERY helpful for both of us (arthritis for me, SCI for her). I suspect that I might go out dressed more frequently dressed after we leave here and probably be more involved in the LGBT community.

One other detail: I was 66 last December...

DeeAnn

[cheryl reeves]

my cd situation is this,me and my wife share a home with her brother and his wife and her sister and her hubby,on top of our son still lives at home. my brother n law used to be cool with my cd'n til he found religon,my sis n law and her hubby are cool with it along with our son. i wear nities 2-3 times a wk.,as for dressing i do it when my brother n law and his wife leave for a few hrs.,we are trying to save some money for a day cation so i can at least dress for 2 days and be cheryl the whole time. im going to be 50 in aug. and still look like i did in my 30's,i think of dressing more often these days which is driving my accepting wife crazy,but she knows transitioning is not for me even if we could afford to..

[Sandie70]

My situation? I guess it would be called "solitary." I only dress a few times a week at home, even though I could do it every day. The problem is that I have no where to go and considering the hours it takes for me to get ready, it's not something to do to go to the store for milk and bread. And then there's my neighbors. Normally I wouldn't care if people see me, but I don't need everyone in my apartment complex gossiping about me. If I came and went all the time "en femme," it would be awkward for me.

And I would love to have some other CDers to hang out with locally, but I don't know any. I do know some of the drag queens who appear at a local club, but they really aren't interested in having me around... they live in their own little world.

So, as I said... solitary.

[Alice Torn]

Sandie, Solitary here, too. Not a safe town for me going out in, especially with difficult family around.

[Rachelakld]

50,
Wife,
3 daughters still living at home
Working until I can afford not to
Dressed whenever possible most afternoons and a few hours most weekends
Walk the dog, do housework and shopping while in girl mode on most occasions
Last 2 visits to the local pools/rec centre for a work out also in girl mode

[kimdl93]

Mmmm, 4 inches taller, Almost 100 pounds heavier, and more than a few aches and pains in various places. I don't anticipate any major physical changes, primarily because of health considerations. My living situation somewhat resembles yours, with a reasonably supportive wife. I won't work till I'm 70, and hope to live something closer to full time.

[Kristy 56]

Sadly for me it's a DADT ,and my opportunities are limited. I guess it could've been worse. :)

[AnnaMarie]

Very closeted here unfortunately. I'm managing to dress perhaps once a week for a couple of hours and that's it.

[sometimes_miss]

And my first thought upon reading this tread was, come on, a black bra underneath a transparent red dress? Shame.
My situation. Live alone, semiretired, stay dressed as a girl whenever I'm going to be staying indoors. I change whenever even answering the door. I'm not out, nor ever intend to be, as I don't need any more complications that might make my life more difficult.
I have TS desires, but know where it's coming from, and why it's not real (don't bother to ask me about this here, read my bio and you'll then understand. Link in sig).

[Teresa]

Carla,
I have a few more years than you but I don't feel it especially when dressed but the openness to dress isn't happening so I'm fighting not to turn into a bad tempered old man !
As for where my CDing is going , well I'm still waiting on the dear old NHS to start my gender counseling , I guess by then major changes aren't going to happen but it would be nice to know what label I should be wearing across my T-shirt !
Like you I'm still not ready to throw away those neat little maid outfits, not until the legs don't look so good in heels and stockings !

[pattyjones954]

you look great. Nice legs I'm femm at home from 8PM to 10AM sometime on weekend all day I don't go out

[Lily Catherine]

Oh goodness Carla, your legs are nice!

19, studies beginning next year. 5ft 5 inches / 34-24-28 with breast forms. I am known but almost never seen as a CDer in public and within a few close friends. Parents are very likely aware but still do not discuss said topic. I now have a few articles of clothing that are my own rather than unwanted garments from relatives that were collecting dust. I do not dress at work.

[TrishaLake]

First happy birthday even if it has passed ...or is soon. I am 49 and age is what they say a number. I am a little heavier than I want and I creak more than I did before but who cares. I am healthy and happy to be me.

My situation? I dress maybe once or twice a week mostly in the bedroom and bathroom of my house. We have a big master bath and closet. So far the wife will allow clothes as much as I want but no wigs...we are working on that. She found out three years ago, freaked of course but we have settled in. She loves me...more than I can say for allot of people and we are worked on acceptance. More importantly this year is the first that I truly feel good about me...I have good money, nice house great kids and loving wife but it took a long time to get here...I hope we all get here one day

[thecddj]

My CD situation, sold them when i moved MP3 dj'ing lol
My amazing other half accepts my dressing and likes to see me dressed nicely (her fave is me dressed in a red silk blouse i have and faux leather skirt with stockings)
Can't dress as much as i like, i know she accepts but i dont want to push it too much, plus family come round a lot unannounced. If they come round on wash day they would think the mrs gets through a lot of undies ;) lol
Wear nighties and slips a few times a week, looking to buy a wig and look at make up, i wear clear nail varnish on hands due to having to have lots of meetings for work with clients and venues) and like my toe nails bright red.

[Allisa]

Single so I get to dress whenever I feel like it. Work takes most of the time so weekends are best for expressing my femme self in one form or another. I still under dress and wear skirts after work and at night and sleep in my nightgowns and panties. I just went out today presenting as my female self but not sure if enough time has passed since my last thread to post any pics.Got my ears pierced and loving it always wear hoops of different sizes and small ball when at work.

[Jane G]

Well I've been a CD since before I can remember. Probably TG but I don't think I will ever transmission, I dd take hormones for a few months in my thirties, but stopped. I've been happily married for 30+ years and we are still very in love. My SO has known about my CD for 30+ years. But I still feel guilty about it, to an extent and remain in to closet to the world in general. My kids and I'm sure some close friends know. But I'm not out and other s , that I cherish, clearly do not know. I guess I like many here was brought up in more restricted times and will remain there. Good luck to those who break free, but I suspect I will remain closeted and content with my situation.

[Marcelle]

Hi Carla,

My wife is and always has been supportive this side of me. Currently I am quite open in my private, public and professional life as being gender fluid. I spend exist in a 40/60 (female/male) split but now that I have been authorized by the military to work as a woman when the feeling takes me I can see this moving a 60/40 (female/male) split.

Hugs

Isha

[Raychel]

Everyone in my house and everyone that could stop over (that I care about) know all about me.
the one exception is my father, I have not old him. Not sure I ever will.

If I had my way, I would be dressed in fem, all the time that I was not at work.
And although my wife does support me. I do feel that it is a bit much for my wife, So I do limit time dressing for her.

[Love Dove]

Cool thread hehe. My gilrfriend knows i like to dress and be other self, she does encourage but i dont want to go too far too fast. She said she would like me to be conservative but sexy underneath the clothing, and thats fine becouse thats what i like as well. Weird but during the summer i dont dress at all, kinda like being the guy for now, but once colder months comes i will get to use my gf silk epil and do some more dressing.

I do not plan to transition becouse im very happy with both worlds and i would like to keep it this way.

Im thinking thats in winter i will try to make some baby steps in going out and not being ashamed or whatnot and maybe find someone whos like dressing and hanging out. I know my gf would have time of her life hanging out with other cds, shes open minded and does not care too much but still enjoys joking around haha.

[Claire Cook]

I'm semi-retired and my wife has been supportive for over 20 years. Sort of like Isha I''m relatively open about my gender fluidity but don't dress in the work environment. Usually dress daily for 3 or 4 hours in the AM before doing male stuff, so I guess I'm 70:30 on Isha's scale. This week it's been at least 50:50 what with shopping, chatting with other girls in a quilting store (:heehee:) and yesterday getting our nails and eyebrows done -- as well as hitting the Macy's Early Bird sales. (They had a great bra sale ...)

[Krisi]

My CD situation?

I'm older than you and retired. I dress at home nearly every day but change to go out or answer the door. Nobody knows but my wife and that's how I want it to be. She goes shopping with me and helps me find clothes but I think she enjoys that more than seeing me wearing them (along with the forms, wig and padded panties). I got my ears pierced a few years ago.

My desire is to convince my wife to go out in public with me (as a woman) from time to time somewhere where we wouldn't be recognized.

While I imagine it would be nice to have the surgery, implants, etc., it's not for me. I don't think I am a female in the wrong body, I love my wife and I've never seen a man I wanted to kiss, much less have sex with. I wouldn't be able to use the female parts as they were intended to be used.

[Sharon B.]

Just turned 61 and still somewhat in the closet, I do keep my body hairless 24/7/365. I enjoy dressing as a woman and would love to go out and spend the day shopping or having a women's weekend somewhere.
Just won't work as I have a hobby farm and the animals need to be taken care of.
Although I have gone out for drives dressed as a woman and it feels wonderful, I have no problem driving with heels on.

[bstewart9901]

In the closet, except for my wonderful accepting gf. It's not all kittens and rainbows, but she deals with my cross dressing in a very positive way. I don't get to dress fully very often (lack of time), but i am always wearing something fem all the time.

[Brenda Freeman]

CD Time, I am 60 and started dressing with make up and the works 10 years ago that is also when I told my wife. She is supportive after she realized I was not going anywhere and I am the same person I was before. I do love to dress up at home when I have time to myself which isn't often. Lately I would guess I get a chance maybe every other month, but it is on my mind everyday. I have gone out and have been to some Tgirl events which have been great experiences. I hope to find more time at home as I find it brightens my day,week sometimes the whole month with just one opportunity.

[kelly0]

this is a fun to post to read. my story:

- 43 yrs old, married, 2 young boys
- wife discovered my dressing 2 years ago. she tolerates it, but does not participate
- i dress when i can (not nearly as much as i want to) --- mostly on work from home days (once every 2-3 weeks)
- desire to dress is stronger than its eve been --- looking fwd to expanding wardrobe and perhaps Wife getting more accepting of this

- living in northern NJ

[Sissy_Michelle]

Carla,

As I have mentioned before, due to my work situation I can only under dress. Which I do quite a lot of. Spring and summer slow me down a little on what I can wear, lighter clothes and all. But mostly I am in panties for most of the week, I wear my bra whenever I can get away with it. Since I mentioned spring and summer I wear Ocean Pacific string or non string bikini bottoms under my trunks when I am lounging around the pool at the gym. Thursday and Friday I just wear the non string bikini bottoms when I do laps. The first couple of times one of the regular lap swim gals questioned me about them and I just told her that I must have picked up the wrong swimwear when I left the house. After the second time I was caught, she just winked at me and said have a good swim.

@--}----
Michelle

[Robyn2006]

Carla,
I'm single, nearing 50, 5'7", slender, and still completely in the closet, though spend nearly all my off time completely en femme. However, I under dress aways and can hardly remember a time not having my body shaved or my toenails not red. Inside, I consider myself female and in that vein, heterosexual. Sadly, my job does not allow coming out - a long story, but trust me... can't happen! Kind of a precarious existence, I know. But I've managed to make it work and so love my time alone to be me. :kiss:

[anna.h]

Completely closeted, but I only came out to myself a day or two, so give me time. I'm in my late twenties. Alone in my house now, always wearing at least something femme. Order a few choice things that I'll probably throw out in a public trash can before my SO gets back, then who knows how long it will be before I can dress again. :(

[Dianne S]

I'm not really sure I should post here, but what the heck...

My CD situation is that I no longer crossdress. That is, I no longer pretend to be a guy by crossdressing in men's clothes. So unlike Carla, I'm 100/0 on the transition decision, I guess.

Oh, and personal situation is 48 years old and separated.

[Annette_boy]

Pushing 70 (happens in Aug) widowed dress 24/7/365 I guess I am TG/TS as I live as a woman .My late wife knew about me from day one and she was supportive. before I retired and went 24/7 I kept things on the down low and switched back and forth between male and female.

Hugs Annette

[thatperson1551]

My situation is as much a mystery to me as it is to everyone here, lol. I do not ever see myself leaving the house dressed unless it were far enough away from home that I could guarantee not running into anyone I knew. I just got into a few months ago and i myself am not sure why. It started because I work online as a cam model and it was requested multiple times that I perform wearing lingerie. It was then that I first ever considered the idea in any serious way. I got the clothes shortly after under the guise of Vday shopping as it was only a day away, and when I was trying everything on I ended up liking it a lot. I never did a show in them though and it became more of a thing for myself than other people.
Since then I have been going further and further. For example I have forms now,a good amount of clothes(actually I just got denim shorts I like a lot yesterday), began shaving, etc. I am really looking forward to getting a wig.
Despite all of this I dont see myself ever being "out", but at the same time I do not have any idea who I am so I guess we will see.

[Chardonnay Merlot]

My situation....I'm single, healthy and making the best of both worlds as all the boy I need to be and the girl I want to be...for now ;)\

But I am looking at transition options.

[Rhian]

I have just taken a job that means I will have to live away from home till Easter which means I will have months to fem up.

[Rhandi Spencer]

Carla, you look fabulous.
I am 55 and dream of the days I can dress femme. I too am required to fulfill financial duties and plan on doing so a few more years. I have been as far as the tattoo shop to get ears pierced but my employer frowns on pierced ears. My wife is ok with it she just is not wild about me cross dressing, so I only do it when she is gone. I have considered doing the hormone treatments, but that is it.

Love the look and you are a great inspiration to me

Randi Sue

[Anne-Sofie]

Nice picture! you look stunning. I'm still in closeted and can only CD when nobody's home. Sometimes I wear my wig or heels when they think I'm off to bed, but that is not longer than 30 minutes.
So I'm waiting for the day that I have to money to move out and then I can hang everything nicely in my closet and dress whenever I like. I would probably not be in my female form 24/7 because I still have my male days and I only do it inside hidden from the world.

Anne-Sofie
x

[Melissa_59]

My CD situation? I have a very accepting and encouraging (Yay Roxy!) wife.

I also have the body of a God.

Buddha.

I'm working on that though. Slowly this time. Six herniated discs in my spine make me takes things at a slower pace.

~Melissa

[Marie-Claude, France]

Too much work, not enough time. Wife and children take the rest of the time. Marie-Claude comes last, once a month more or less...

[Ceera]

I'm only a little younger than you are. I'll be 58 this August. Like you, I plan to work until 70 or even 75.

But I telecommute full time, so the reactions of my co-workers to my being en-femme aren't an issue, as long as I don't use my 'girl voice' while on business phone calls. I've been fully dressed through a full work day, and none of them has any reason to suspect I looked like a girl that day.

My father was homophobic, so I didn't dare let my parents know I had bisexual inclinations in my early teens. I repressed that aspect of myself and tried to play it straight.

When I was in my early 20's I married a genetic girl, and we remained married for 30 years, until a heart attack took her from me. I am now a widower, and single.

I repressed my bisexual side all that time to live a good, straight and monogamous life. I was mostly successful. Had some fantasies, but never cheated on my wife.

A few years before my wife passed away, I lost both of my parents. Once my father died, I decided to experiment at least a little with my feminine urges, and indulged in underdressing - wearing panties instead of male underwear. My wife tolerated the idea of my wearing panties under my male clothes, and she and soon our daughter both knew I was doing that full time. I also got enough other female stuff to do one full outfit with blouse, skirt, wig and shoes, but I only tried those on when I was alone. I kept my beard and had no plans to go further with cross dressing.

When I lost my wife, I had no further reason to hold back. I came out to my daughter, who was 18 at the time and still lives with me. She was supportive, and still is. I haven't yet felt ready to let any of my friends or any of my other family members know I am cross dressing. I've ditched the beard, learned to do my makeup and voice, and did a lot of shopping for girly stuff. About 50% of my closet and more than 50% of my shoes are girly things now.

Right now, I dress about once a week and go out dancing, at a local gay club that occasionally hosts drag shows. Several other CD's hang out there on a regular basis. I haven't quite been brave enough to go out shopping en-femme, or to do other public activities as a girl.

Sometimes I dress at home, just for fun. Right now I am not doing that very often, because I am packing to move and have already packed most of my girl stuff. During the week I am doing a lot of hot and dirty work preparing for that move, so I'm not dressing on weekdays, to ensure I won't damage my girl things.

Once I am done with my move, I am considering trying to spend about 50% of my time en-femme, and being out as a CD with my new neighbors and new friends in that town. We will see how that goes. Not sure when if ever, I'll let my sister and her family or my cousins or one last remaining aunt and uncle know. All of those relatives will be in other towns, so there is no pressing need to tell them.

[wanda66]

Iam in my middle 60'sand plan on retirement at 70 .My work keeps my out of town 5 days a week soi hve ample time to dress . Often after work I'll chnge and return to my hotel in full dress. I cannot remember when i didn't dress. My family would never accept me as a crossdresser so i must stay in the closet,which i can deal with.one day maybe.......
i do have my hair shoulder length and my breasts are getting larger , my granddaughter will do my nails from time to time life is good and can only get better . Love you all thanks for listening. ...

[victoria76]

I'm 38 and single. Very much closeted. I do enjoy sneaking around all dressed up once in a while. :)
This has been a great place to be a member of!

[Candice June Lee]

45 married a d no kids at home. Wife isnt very accepting from our first meeting. So i supressed it, now its been a closeted thing with her knowledge. But she still hates this yet is accepting lf her sister being and other family being lesbian or gay. And even accepts my bisexuality and encourages it. But for some reason not crossdressing. Go figure, this has been a hard issue that i havent brought up yet. I need more CD time. And not just undergarments.

[jennCD]

Divorced, living alone again having started therapy and HRT after trying fight this by putting it all behind me a few years back. Realizing I needed to face the fact that I'm more than just a CD, I gambled everything on being honest about who I am. I lost some important things in the process but I've gained myself so I guess I'm in a good place overall. Recently spoke to my supervisors about transitioning at work and will start that process in the near future when the timing is right.