Janelle_C
08-22-2015, 11:40 AM
I know so many have had to suffer so much hard ship to be who they are. So I know my story is not necessarily the norm, but I do think that positive story's are important to share. My journey has had some hard ship and loss, no matter how blessed I feel this is not a easy journey take.
Two and a half years ago at 53 I decided to transition. I got tired asking God to take me that I could not make this decision. Like everyone I was risking everything, wife, children, grandchildren, and our home. I knew I could no longer could live a life that I wasn't. I knew that God was not going to take me home, so I started to think about it myself. Life, death, I chose life.
So on a Saturday afternoon two and a half years ago I sat down on the couch with my wife to tell her that I was transitioning. We talked and cried for over two hours. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
At the end the of or talk all she could tell me was " I love you today and I can't imagine not loving you " it was at least hope. She had always told me, if you become a woman I don't know how I'll feel, I'm not gay. I started HRT three weeks later and went full time three months later.
To day is our 34 year anniversary, and I can honestly say that we have grown more as a couple over the last two years than anytime in our marriage. I told my therapist one time that we are doing better now than before I transitioned. I said that was something I never thought I would be saying. I told my wife what I said in therapy, and she just looked at me and said it's because you are so much more happy.
I do know how hard it is to risk everything, but sometimes the only way to get everything is to risk everything.
Thanks for listening
Janelle
Two and a half years ago at 53 I decided to transition. I got tired asking God to take me that I could not make this decision. Like everyone I was risking everything, wife, children, grandchildren, and our home. I knew I could no longer could live a life that I wasn't. I knew that God was not going to take me home, so I started to think about it myself. Life, death, I chose life.
So on a Saturday afternoon two and a half years ago I sat down on the couch with my wife to tell her that I was transitioning. We talked and cried for over two hours. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
At the end the of or talk all she could tell me was " I love you today and I can't imagine not loving you " it was at least hope. She had always told me, if you become a woman I don't know how I'll feel, I'm not gay. I started HRT three weeks later and went full time three months later.
To day is our 34 year anniversary, and I can honestly say that we have grown more as a couple over the last two years than anytime in our marriage. I told my therapist one time that we are doing better now than before I transitioned. I said that was something I never thought I would be saying. I told my wife what I said in therapy, and she just looked at me and said it's because you are so much more happy.
I do know how hard it is to risk everything, but sometimes the only way to get everything is to risk everything.
Thanks for listening
Janelle