hand on the door handle

[GabbiSophia]

The time to tell the kid is getting close. I have to tell a buissness partner if I expect them to stay afterwards. I need to tell my best friend because it is driving me nuts to talk to them. My dsyphoria has gotten strong over last few weeks wanting to just move forward. Though at the SME time Ihave had a ton of WTF moments that stop me in my tracks. I know I am not insane but boy it feels like it. I feel a like I am going to ruin my whole life but if I do not do this I will destroy myself. It is also amazing how the dsyphoria intensifies any conflict with the family and wants me to blame others for my problems.

I have come the point that I am very aware that when I am self medicating with something and when my mind is making a mountain out of a mole hill because of fear. I am to tired of dealing with these things and not living life. I still have my feeling about the whole situation but that doesn't change the fact of needing to move forward.

I am baffled with it all but I guess the cliff isn't to high ... Right?

[Bria]

Gabbi, keep a steady hand on the throttle, I have it on good authority that the peasants don't come out with pitchforks and torches at this time of year. The people that you love will be with you even if they need a little time to adjust,

I remember the fear that I had the first time I went out dressed, totally unfounded! Approach these reveals with a plan/script and you will get through it. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Hugs, Bria