GabbiSophia
12-22-2015, 05:18 AM
As I am trying to press forward it has become very obvious how rooted the traits while learned being a guy. I find myself at a constant struggle with acting, or should I say over acting as a guy out of fear to protect myself, and just dealing with the situation. Prime example is work. I find myself puffed up and out to make sure I prove myself so that there is no questions. This mentality that was learned for the last going on 40 years is a hard habit to break. While I am trying to not only fully come to terms with things out of my control, my fears make this very difficult.
I can only ask how long did it take or is it still a daily chore to, not act male, but to shake the things that became second nature? I am not talking about the over inflated things to prove your a man. I mean the simple things. I head nod to a guy walking past in acknowledgment, or the way I hold a door for another woman. These things just do not fit in my opinion. I am truly finding how deeply rooted being male I am and how well of a job I have done trying to protect myself. There are many many layers to an onion... lol
I can only ask how long did it take or is it still a daily chore to, not act male, but to shake the things that became second nature? I am not talking about the over inflated things to prove your a man. I mean the simple things. I head nod to a guy walking past in acknowledgment, or the way I hold a door for another woman. These things just do not fit in my opinion. I am truly finding how deeply rooted being male I am and how well of a job I have done trying to protect myself. There are many many layers to an onion... lol