kinkyboots
01-12-2016, 10:27 AM
I'm getting ready for a semi-purge, but before I get to that I've got a little back story:
A few weeks ago, me an my wife are joking about my dressing again back and forth; and on several occasions let her know that I wanted to go to the second hand shops again, and she said: "I know what you want to look at" teasingly. Anyway the fog built up, when we didn't go, and didn't go.
I asked her if I could shop on ebay for "pretty" things. she said that's fine; so I did and I bought lots of things that I didn't have at this point: cup sizers, full length dress, new matte back 2 inch heels and some other things.
I messed up though and showed her what I was getting and that was my mistake. We can talk about issues, I can under dress a little around her, we even might do makeup on each other, but I knew she didn't like seeing me fully dressed or what my clothes are.
Anyway this caused a lot of strife, we got it worked out after some sleepless nights and I promised not to show her those things again, as I'm still looking for my own "balance" of where I sit.
On a business trip out of town this weekend, I smuggled all of my new things and some of my old to have a weekend dressed when in the hotel room. note this would be the first time I been able to get fully dressed in a year and a half. I cycled though different out fit combos, found I'm not really a dress, heel shoe, or breast form type of person, I love them but it just doesn't do it for me. I still love the leggings, waist sincher, boy-cut panties, cami tops and others related things, but I think the rest has to go: skirts, dresses, shoes, bras, and the like.
So I'm not shutting down, I'm just narrowing down my "spot" where I feel right. I don't think I'm anything more than an under dresser at this point in my life; and that okay with me.
A few weeks ago, me an my wife are joking about my dressing again back and forth; and on several occasions let her know that I wanted to go to the second hand shops again, and she said: "I know what you want to look at" teasingly. Anyway the fog built up, when we didn't go, and didn't go.
I asked her if I could shop on ebay for "pretty" things. she said that's fine; so I did and I bought lots of things that I didn't have at this point: cup sizers, full length dress, new matte back 2 inch heels and some other things.
I messed up though and showed her what I was getting and that was my mistake. We can talk about issues, I can under dress a little around her, we even might do makeup on each other, but I knew she didn't like seeing me fully dressed or what my clothes are.
Anyway this caused a lot of strife, we got it worked out after some sleepless nights and I promised not to show her those things again, as I'm still looking for my own "balance" of where I sit.
On a business trip out of town this weekend, I smuggled all of my new things and some of my old to have a weekend dressed when in the hotel room. note this would be the first time I been able to get fully dressed in a year and a half. I cycled though different out fit combos, found I'm not really a dress, heel shoe, or breast form type of person, I love them but it just doesn't do it for me. I still love the leggings, waist sincher, boy-cut panties, cami tops and others related things, but I think the rest has to go: skirts, dresses, shoes, bras, and the like.
So I'm not shutting down, I'm just narrowing down my "spot" where I feel right. I don't think I'm anything more than an under dresser at this point in my life; and that okay with me.