Cindy J Angel
01-13-2016, 12:02 AM
Been reading quite a lot in the last two weeks, about Transitioning / coming out. Badtrany brought up a good point / For me she got me to think do I belong hear, Am I a phony, JUST WHAT AM I DOING she right no one in their right mind would do this. SO WHY AM I. I have talked about me in other post I am out as soon. As I go out my front door. I'm in my clothes witch just happen to be woman's. When I'm out to dr. Get car fix or what aver needs doing aver day. I do it as Cindy (Fear) keeps us from moving on. And I'm scared shit list. Over the summer I told more people I know two of witch are ones I hoped would expect me and so far so good disclaimer here have only seen me at night we have talked more and next time I will just me this will make it a lot easier on me mentally.
And second part, I new word would get out, it just back to me yesterday. With him knowing aver body will soon know. I lost my friend. Not much of one. This could be ? My push. This has been said be four my wife knows I dress and I'm in sports clothing (womans) at all times when around her the contents belittling I just give in. Sunday was ask could u man up. Well to day I had a lot to do lawyer ticket, 300, owe. Hair app, then get car looked at for ticket lol (and by the way got it done for free girls do get shit free) I did look good. So I told the wife and she ask u were dress (yes). Was told later she will find a new man, but not now and we will be friends. I think it's time for me to wright her a litter l can not say what I need to face to face. It go's way to deep into my soul. Hell I hope I can even wright it down because then its real
So am I lying to my self am I ts my brain did not click On in tell age 8 /10 love Cindy
And second part, I new word would get out, it just back to me yesterday. With him knowing aver body will soon know. I lost my friend. Not much of one. This could be ? My push. This has been said be four my wife knows I dress and I'm in sports clothing (womans) at all times when around her the contents belittling I just give in. Sunday was ask could u man up. Well to day I had a lot to do lawyer ticket, 300, owe. Hair app, then get car looked at for ticket lol (and by the way got it done for free girls do get shit free) I did look good. So I told the wife and she ask u were dress (yes). Was told later she will find a new man, but not now and we will be friends. I think it's time for me to wright her a litter l can not say what I need to face to face. It go's way to deep into my soul. Hell I hope I can even wright it down because then its real
So am I lying to my self am I ts my brain did not click On in tell age 8 /10 love Cindy