GabbiSophia
01-29-2016, 06:10 PM
I still have trouble admitting things but one thing I can admit is that hiding is killing me.... or was. This past week I told the step son, me best friend and the parents. Man was I shocked at how is has gone so far. The kid could care less and is happy that I am being me. I would have never thought it since he has me up on such a high pedestal. I actually think it is higher now. I love his innocence and his immaturity, it makes this a bit easier I think. He busts out " wait a minute. I have been getting my butt kicked in everything for the last 5 years .... by a girl!!???!!" was a good moment to laugh.
Not much to say with the friend I told over the phone and his comment was that no matter what it doesn't change who I am. I will wait on this one and hope for the best. Of all my friends I thought he might be the only one that would except. We do a lot of business together so I see his point.
Parents.....
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So first day was great. Went nothing like I planned. I figured my mom would disown me and well my dad who knew. It didn't go like that at all. Complete shock that I have been tortured forever inside. Mom cried because she never knew. Three hours of questions and my wife and I left their place in utter amazement. That night the emails started and the crying by my mom. It has been three days and I gave her stuff to read and she is still crying.
Today she started with the questions, mind you they were not hateful but wondering statements from her, Well I wonder if your just being selfish, think about all those around you that you are going to hurt, I am suffering for you for all the pain you have been through and what is to come, your wife is going to leave you, and I could go on. Pretty run of the mill and did not bother me because I have said it all myself and moved on now. I am trying to talk to her everyday. It is my dad that is lost atm. HE says he will never be able to see me as a woman. Fair enough ... I am not asking for that just some love. ..
The comment that is sticking me in the gut. The one that has me pissed and angry. My dad has lost two kids and my mom asks him which is easier to deal with, the death of a child or your kid being a transsexual. Of course he said death.
So being trans is selfish because of all the hurt you will bring others and the suffering you will make them go through.
So what they are saying is.... You need to kill yourself because I do not want to suffer or have pain because of what you have to go through .... so who is selfish again?
I am not promoting hurting yourself , actually to point out the fact that everyone that complains about you being selfish is in fact being selfish themselves
The two things I have learned are this.
1. We start our exploration and it takes us years to come out. We have a head start over those we then tell and expect them to get it like we do. I know that I am at the point I am ready to transition all the way. I am fired up but those near me are not. My wife gets it but she is like me experienced and ready to move. I think or wish we could tell the minute we find out or realize we are trans and tell everyone so all can grow at the same speed. To bad it will never happen that way.
2. It is a blessing and a curse to come out.
Not much to say with the friend I told over the phone and his comment was that no matter what it doesn't change who I am. I will wait on this one and hope for the best. Of all my friends I thought he might be the only one that would except. We do a lot of business together so I see his point.
Parents.....
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So first day was great. Went nothing like I planned. I figured my mom would disown me and well my dad who knew. It didn't go like that at all. Complete shock that I have been tortured forever inside. Mom cried because she never knew. Three hours of questions and my wife and I left their place in utter amazement. That night the emails started and the crying by my mom. It has been three days and I gave her stuff to read and she is still crying.
Today she started with the questions, mind you they were not hateful but wondering statements from her, Well I wonder if your just being selfish, think about all those around you that you are going to hurt, I am suffering for you for all the pain you have been through and what is to come, your wife is going to leave you, and I could go on. Pretty run of the mill and did not bother me because I have said it all myself and moved on now. I am trying to talk to her everyday. It is my dad that is lost atm. HE says he will never be able to see me as a woman. Fair enough ... I am not asking for that just some love. ..
The comment that is sticking me in the gut. The one that has me pissed and angry. My dad has lost two kids and my mom asks him which is easier to deal with, the death of a child or your kid being a transsexual. Of course he said death.
So being trans is selfish because of all the hurt you will bring others and the suffering you will make them go through.
So what they are saying is.... You need to kill yourself because I do not want to suffer or have pain because of what you have to go through .... so who is selfish again?
I am not promoting hurting yourself , actually to point out the fact that everyone that complains about you being selfish is in fact being selfish themselves
The two things I have learned are this.
1. We start our exploration and it takes us years to come out. We have a head start over those we then tell and expect them to get it like we do. I know that I am at the point I am ready to transition all the way. I am fired up but those near me are not. My wife gets it but she is like me experienced and ready to move. I think or wish we could tell the minute we find out or realize we are trans and tell everyone so all can grow at the same speed. To bad it will never happen that way.
2. It is a blessing and a curse to come out.