EnglishBeth
02-02-2016, 06:53 AM
My wife (who I love dearly) told me on Saturday that we needed to talk.
She said that she can see that this isn't going away and that it is more than dressing. I really opened up (properly for the first time) and shed more than a few tears. She knew that I couldn't help it and that it isn't my fault. She was so understanding and not angry at all. She has been very distant lately and admitted that the anger had been building up because she didn't know how to address it. This anger has now gone.
I told her that I had been in very dark places over the past few weeks, to the point of actually considering ending it all. She listened and told me that this wouldn't help anyone and that we can work through this.
I am seeing my GP tomorrow to try and move things along, at the suggestion of my wife.
We are both scared about what the future may hold, but she has said that she doesn't want us to split, but can't say with certainty what the future will hold.
I am so grateful to have such a loving partner and am now well on the road to starting my transition properly and above board. The not keeping of secrets is such a lift of a burden and she has said the same regarding her feelings.
I don't know what the future holds, but now know that I need to do this and with the help and support of my wife, for the first time, feel that I CAN do this.
Apologies to others on this forum who are more forthcoming and sharing. Whether it is because I have kept this side suppressed for so long, I don't know, but I do find it hard to open up and accept that this is me. This is probably why I find it easy to comment on the more superficial elements, such as beauty, etc. I appreciate the feedback that I have received and thank you for your encouragement and support.
Rachel
She said that she can see that this isn't going away and that it is more than dressing. I really opened up (properly for the first time) and shed more than a few tears. She knew that I couldn't help it and that it isn't my fault. She was so understanding and not angry at all. She has been very distant lately and admitted that the anger had been building up because she didn't know how to address it. This anger has now gone.
I told her that I had been in very dark places over the past few weeks, to the point of actually considering ending it all. She listened and told me that this wouldn't help anyone and that we can work through this.
I am seeing my GP tomorrow to try and move things along, at the suggestion of my wife.
We are both scared about what the future may hold, but she has said that she doesn't want us to split, but can't say with certainty what the future will hold.
I am so grateful to have such a loving partner and am now well on the road to starting my transition properly and above board. The not keeping of secrets is such a lift of a burden and she has said the same regarding her feelings.
I don't know what the future holds, but now know that I need to do this and with the help and support of my wife, for the first time, feel that I CAN do this.
Apologies to others on this forum who are more forthcoming and sharing. Whether it is because I have kept this side suppressed for so long, I don't know, but I do find it hard to open up and accept that this is me. This is probably why I find it easy to comment on the more superficial elements, such as beauty, etc. I appreciate the feedback that I have received and thank you for your encouragement and support.
Rachel