Suzanne F
02-17-2016, 02:29 AM
Many of you know that I have been sober many years and am an active member in AA. I have been out and only attend as a woman for the last 2 years, well before I came out at work. For maybe the last year and a half I have attended a women only meeting on Tuesdays. I was apprehensive at first but many women in the group encouraged me to come. Gradually it has become no big deal. I am close to many of the women.
Yesterday I received a text from the secretary asking me if I would be the speaker today. I have been sober for 14 years and am asked to speak regularly. I have spoken maybe 5 or 6 times since transitioning. But this was the first time to speak at a women's meeting. I was both excited and nervous. How would they react to my story when they knew a big part of it had occurred as a male?
I spoke and the words just poured out. There was no need to guard any part of the story anymore. I was where I wanted to be all my life, with women as a woman. It was the best lead I have ever given I believe. Words and tears just flowed. At the end I looked up and said and now "I am ok, and hopeful!"
The applause was so loud and heartfelt. I know I was accepted as a woman in that moment. Sure that doesn't mean it will stay that way and that there won't be divisions felt between me and cis women, but for that moment it was right. What a moment!
Suzanne
Yesterday I received a text from the secretary asking me if I would be the speaker today. I have been sober for 14 years and am asked to speak regularly. I have spoken maybe 5 or 6 times since transitioning. But this was the first time to speak at a women's meeting. I was both excited and nervous. How would they react to my story when they knew a big part of it had occurred as a male?
I spoke and the words just poured out. There was no need to guard any part of the story anymore. I was where I wanted to be all my life, with women as a woman. It was the best lead I have ever given I believe. Words and tears just flowed. At the end I looked up and said and now "I am ok, and hopeful!"
The applause was so loud and heartfelt. I know I was accepted as a woman in that moment. Sure that doesn't mean it will stay that way and that there won't be divisions felt between me and cis women, but for that moment it was right. What a moment!
Suzanne