Zooey
02-23-2016, 12:14 AM
I hate sinus infections, but I love my life.
Self-confidence is a thing that comes and goes for me, especially since going full-time. It's really easy to get discouraged on "ugly days", and even when I'm not sick there are definitely times that I just want to curl up in bed with a cat.
I spent all of last week really sick, and I'm still under the weather. With a head full of ugh, and body full of aches, there was literally no chance in hell that I was putting on makeup. There were doctors to see though, and prescriptions to pick up, and errands to run. Despite the fact that I am most definitely not done killing all the dark hairs on my upper lip, I decided to say "screw it" and just get stuff done. So, out the door I went, into some very unforgiving sunlight, and no problems were had. Not a single misgendering, despite my paranoia. I might've caught a few more looks than usual, but honestly I'm not even sure that's true.
So, I'm proud of myself. I've come a long way. It's another thing that I get to let go of (at least a bit), and per usual, I'm clearly my own worst critic.
Self-confidence is a thing that comes and goes for me, especially since going full-time. It's really easy to get discouraged on "ugly days", and even when I'm not sick there are definitely times that I just want to curl up in bed with a cat.
I spent all of last week really sick, and I'm still under the weather. With a head full of ugh, and body full of aches, there was literally no chance in hell that I was putting on makeup. There were doctors to see though, and prescriptions to pick up, and errands to run. Despite the fact that I am most definitely not done killing all the dark hairs on my upper lip, I decided to say "screw it" and just get stuff done. So, out the door I went, into some very unforgiving sunlight, and no problems were had. Not a single misgendering, despite my paranoia. I might've caught a few more looks than usual, but honestly I'm not even sure that's true.
So, I'm proud of myself. I've come a long way. It's another thing that I get to let go of (at least a bit), and per usual, I'm clearly my own worst critic.