LookingGlass
03-08-2016, 01:52 AM
If somehow this is the wrong forum space, I apologize. So, after my last divorce I finally began accepting, after some long time coming introspection, that it was never simply crossdressing. Growing up I didn’t have a clue what was going on and scared to death to say anything. Giving up on ignoring what my psyche had been trying to tell me, I accepted that I was born with the wrong outer body. Okay, fair enough, stuff happens. The human body isn’t a perfect bit of science.
That said, I FINALLY broke down and admitted the situation to a couple of people. One, a friend; two, a parent. The friend has been super supportive and has asked me a bunch of questions to see where my head is on lots of things, even giving some solid advice. The parent was my mother, and her reaction has had me perplexed for days now. It could’ve gone MUCH worse than it did, but it would’ve been nicer to have some kind of reaction one way or the other.
All I got was that she had things to say in response but needed time and she loved me. My dad posting things yesterday on her Facebook page about weathering any storm made me nervous, but admittedly I could have read too much into it (that’s habitual overthinking everything for you). Anyway, I really just wanted to vent a little while I try to figure things out. The economic/employment situation far behind where I want to be at all in a transitioning timeline, and this hasn’t eased it any.
Maybe I really am making too much of it. Then again, the TV show on in the background just had a character talking about being a girl in a boy's body so there's that...
That said, I FINALLY broke down and admitted the situation to a couple of people. One, a friend; two, a parent. The friend has been super supportive and has asked me a bunch of questions to see where my head is on lots of things, even giving some solid advice. The parent was my mother, and her reaction has had me perplexed for days now. It could’ve gone MUCH worse than it did, but it would’ve been nicer to have some kind of reaction one way or the other.
All I got was that she had things to say in response but needed time and she loved me. My dad posting things yesterday on her Facebook page about weathering any storm made me nervous, but admittedly I could have read too much into it (that’s habitual overthinking everything for you). Anyway, I really just wanted to vent a little while I try to figure things out. The economic/employment situation far behind where I want to be at all in a transitioning timeline, and this hasn’t eased it any.
Maybe I really am making too much of it. Then again, the TV show on in the background just had a character talking about being a girl in a boy's body so there's that...