Camille15
03-09-2016, 10:31 AM
I'm in Vegas for a work thing this week. Boring meetings all day, but I did at least get out to the shops in the Venetian while shopping for a gift for my wife, and I saw this superbly named store:
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Not that I consider myself 'flawless'. Quite the opposite! But still, it's nice to see my femme name written somewhere and associated with something beautiful.
We also had a work function last night with dancing and drinks. It was a James Bond theme, and we were all instructed to dress to the nines. Many of the men wore tuxes, and many of the women looked absolutely stunning. Wow, some of them could have really been a classic beauty in a Bond film. Naturally too, I found myself not only admiring them like a typical guy would, but also feeling quite envious. Camille would have loved to have been out on that dance floor, doing more than the simple "guy dance" I was limiting myself too. I finally told myself I'd let 10% of Camille out so I could loosen up my dancing, and then found myself with my hands above my waist. ;) Of course, I had to monitor it though so I didn't end up dancing like a girl in front of my co-workers. Oh and how I would have loved to come dressed like them, looking so pretty in my stunning dress and heels as I rocked the dance floor with my feminine moves and curves. And while I'm not attracted to men, I wouldn't have minded the validation as I turned every head in that place. :)
Whenever I have a few drinks in me, the idea always rolls around in my head to tell the person I'm with about Camille. In particular I have several young, beautiful co-workers who were there with me last night. I imagined their reactions to me telling them and showing them photos of Camille, and how I'd secretly be "one of the girls" from then on. But in the end it still doesn't feel safe and I never do it. Who knows how they'd actually react, and if more importantly if they would actually keep my secret or not. It might feel good in the moment, but ultimately it would leave me feeling exposed and concerned about who else might find out.
I got back to my room and put on some girly music to dance to. It wasn't quite the same not being en femme, but it still felt good to let Camille out for a little bit to have some fun in Vegas.
<3
Camille
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Not that I consider myself 'flawless'. Quite the opposite! But still, it's nice to see my femme name written somewhere and associated with something beautiful.
We also had a work function last night with dancing and drinks. It was a James Bond theme, and we were all instructed to dress to the nines. Many of the men wore tuxes, and many of the women looked absolutely stunning. Wow, some of them could have really been a classic beauty in a Bond film. Naturally too, I found myself not only admiring them like a typical guy would, but also feeling quite envious. Camille would have loved to have been out on that dance floor, doing more than the simple "guy dance" I was limiting myself too. I finally told myself I'd let 10% of Camille out so I could loosen up my dancing, and then found myself with my hands above my waist. ;) Of course, I had to monitor it though so I didn't end up dancing like a girl in front of my co-workers. Oh and how I would have loved to come dressed like them, looking so pretty in my stunning dress and heels as I rocked the dance floor with my feminine moves and curves. And while I'm not attracted to men, I wouldn't have minded the validation as I turned every head in that place. :)
Whenever I have a few drinks in me, the idea always rolls around in my head to tell the person I'm with about Camille. In particular I have several young, beautiful co-workers who were there with me last night. I imagined their reactions to me telling them and showing them photos of Camille, and how I'd secretly be "one of the girls" from then on. But in the end it still doesn't feel safe and I never do it. Who knows how they'd actually react, and if more importantly if they would actually keep my secret or not. It might feel good in the moment, but ultimately it would leave me feeling exposed and concerned about who else might find out.
I got back to my room and put on some girly music to dance to. It wasn't quite the same not being en femme, but it still felt good to let Camille out for a little bit to have some fun in Vegas.
<3
Camille